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What The Fuck?…

by anon693 12/3/2013

written by anon693

I have everything anyone could want…..

My parents love me to death, they bought me a home, they bought me a car, they’ve bought me every toy/trip I’ve ever wanted. Â My current girlfriend I gorgeous and will do anything to stay with me. Â I’m normal, maybe not that athletic but an intelligent capable member of society. Â Despite all of these I lock myself in my house binge drinking every night reflecting and brooding on my self-hate. Â What the fuck is wrong with me. Â Everyday when I wake up I almost beg to be taken out on the way to work. Â I space out at work wondering […]

12/3/2013 3 comments

Away

by flatus 6/29/2013

written by flatus

Money’s scarce but family honor
Brings it home, brings it home
And down the shop the tongues they snicker
TV dinners, beer and liquor
http://youtu.be/qKDc6F0yXdw
Skeletons fall out of cupboards
Curtains drawn fall open to allow
The light shows up the dust
That plays around your face

Innocence and lies don’t make a perfect match
Leave your door unlatched
I know a word can be untrue
And yet still move you

6/29/2013 0 comment

I feel like a failure and I’m scared about the future

by beelzeboul 3/28/2013

written by beelzeboul

I’m not going to graduate. I know I’m not

My family, mainly my dad, who’s beeing emotionally abusive for years and years due to school, will abandon me, or maybe worse.

I mean nothing to most people who live near me, my only friends are words on a screen and they have kept me going whenever i tried to give up

but i cant keep putting it off.

Im a failure, and I need to get out of here.

I’ve wanted a painless, peaceful death for a long time, I’ve thought about sitting in my car in the garage, but sadly ive been told it wont work.

I’ve thought about vodka+pills, […]

3/28/2013 3 comments

No one cares no one

by Sam 3/13/2013

written by Sam

I was about 11 when I realized nobody cared I mean family isÂ supposeÂ to care. I never had a stable family drugs or liquor ruined my family yet there sober now and they are so caught up in the mess they made that I’mÂ invisibleÂ to them. I am no longer sober from liquor today just was so bad I had to drink myÂ psychiatristÂ Â thinks I’m crazy because of the scars on my arm I had to show him.. I broke down and cried in front of people I never cry in front of people. It’s just it’s hopeless. I don’t feel like trying anymore. The whole world can […]

3/13/2013 0 comment

Can’t fix what’s been broken more than once

by Martinez1023 8/3/2012

written by Martinez1023

Married mother of two with the nice house, white plastic fence, and a dog. I was sexually,mentally, and verbally abused most of my childhood and emotionally abused throughout my pregnancies. I’ve been broken way too many times and the thoughts of everything that happened to me won’t stop haunting me. I tried to kill myself a few months ago with liquor and 90 flexeril, I counted every single one I sadly didn’t succeed. I’m trying the whole happy pill and therapy crap, I’ve been on four different kinds of pills and I get seen four times a month and I just feel sad and […]

8/3/2012 0 comment

Just want it to stop

by michael93 5/31/2012

written by michael93

Liquor barley helps. Sleep is non existent. Letting go of life seems so pathetic and dramatic. Yet its the only thing that I know right now that will stop the pain. I just want to feel peace even if its for 5 measly minutes. Anything to drown the pain of knowing every time I open my eyes in the morning or shut them at night.. that I’m entirely alone. Maybe some people were born by mistake

5/31/2012 28 comments

Suicide and Reclamation

by Tina89 5/17/2012

written by Tina89

Suicide and Reclamation

Itâ€™s so cold and dark in this place
Iâ€™d cut myself open to show you
Our blood is the same
Water stings as it kisses cuts like my mothers lips
Something about submerging myself seemed to be like a baptism.
I remember when my pastor dipped me in the water.
I want to be clean again.
I want to tell you Iâ€™m sorryâ€¦for what I canâ€™t remember.
All I know is that I was wrong.
Alcohol burned so much I thought it killed what made me sick even those dirty sinful memories.
I want to be pure again.
I want to hold someone […]

5/17/2012 1 comment

Just 2 Tired

by Just2Tired 5/1/2012

written by Just2Tired

Well… Here I am at 25. More confused than when I was 14…. Lost for 11 years. Wandering, somewhere out there alone. In a world full of trauma and pain. Not understanding where I am going, or even what I want to do. My father who was my best friend died in an accident. A month before my birthday. Right before Father’s day… My mother met an addict and decided that she wanted a different life. So when she got out of jail, she moved out of state and gave her children up to be wards of the state…

The rest of my family disappeared as […]

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5/1/2012 4 comments

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Here goes nothing.

by broken_ 2/16/2012

written by broken_

I guess I’ll open up my story, for whoever wants to read i guess. For the past years, i have been in such a long term depression. (on & off.) I’ve never ever been truly happy, for no less than 2 weeks or to where I didn’t even know what sad was anymore. It’s actually the other way around, i feel like i can’t even tell what happiness is. Ever since i was born, my dad was a big alcoholic. Always came home with a brown bag of liquor after work, and always stayed in his room. Telling my siblings and I, that he was […]

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2/16/2012 2 comments

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