So I know these things to be true…
>I need a concrete game plan to work from…sort of like a “mind map” which tells me the possible outcomes of actions that I could choose from
>I feel as if I am not connected to the world without a purpose for my days
>i have lost my purpose in life since I am no longer someones wife, someones girlfriend, someones mother…. still searching for it though….
>Have come up with a plan for schooling, I wish I had lots of people to encourage me in this new plan for myself, I wish I had someone […]
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Get Well by Icon For Hire http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iS8sqgBgzG8&feature=endscreen&NR=1
It’s got a good sound, please listen!
“Get Well”
We throw tantrums like parties
We’re not happy ’til everyone knows we’re sick
And that’s just how we like it
We’ve hurt bad enough, right, we’ve earned itDon’t tell the others but it’s all getting old I mean how many more times must our stories be told?
And being lonely’s only fun in a group It sort of loses it’s charm when it’s true
I meant it when I said I wanna get well, I wanna get well
Are the rest of you so content
Stay […]
My best friend wrote this, while we were bullshitting, smoking a cig.
All she is,
is a midnight cigarette;
slowly burning,
like a heart attack.
Burning out,
on the flesh of her wrist,
leaving marks,
never to be kissed.
Her midnight smoke is burning,
and she choke.
Up the memories of somone long forgotton,
someone lost in her own thoughts.
“We’re all lying to the mirror, lying to ourselves.”
I think I hate myself… no wait, I know I hate myself.
I’m just sick of everything. I’m sick of the pressure to try and fit in, to try and have friends, to look good so people talk to me.
I’m sick of being a people pleaser, of hurting other people.
I’m such a f*cking *****.
I wish i could stop thinking straight. I wish I could let go of my obsessions. I wish I could run away and be alone forever. I wish I could slash up every inch of my body. Anything to get away from this f*cked sense of reality I’ve learned […]
I can’t believe it.
She’s gonna die. She hasn’t died yet, but she’s on the brink.
My BEST FRIEND who has cancer is going to be gone forever. I just don’t know what to do! I can’t help her because I’m not magical, but I can’t help feeling that I’m supposed to do something. Seriously, I’m just lost.
She has an overall positive attitude about it, on the outside. But if you have a best friend, you can tell when they are actually fine and when they are scared shitless. She is scared shitless, and who can blame her?
She has less than a year to live. What am […]
Waking up–that’s the hardest thing for me to do. I find myself tired all of the time. It’s not so much that I am physically tired as it is that I am mentally tired, and my brain transmits the feelings of hopelessness, helplessness, and restlessness to the rest of my body. My dreams are a blur… images of things that I can’t get to make sense, my meaningless days played back and forth for my mind to review. Scenes for my brain to recount so it can ask itself, “What went wrong?” and “How the hell did we end up here?” Sleep is supposed to […]
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this all actually started a long time ago , in my first grade they were lots of kids who hated me for no reason they called me names they were spitting on me and once almost hit me but i ran away.
it was like that for a long time and since the 6TH grade i started cutting they stopped bulling but i started cutting i was in a depression  i felt lonely like nobody loves me.
everynight i cry myself to sleep
now im in 8TH grade i […]
All I can produce are tears. Tears of anger, frustration, irritation or just sadness. I really can’t tell the difference. I can just feel the wetness run down my cheeks and the salty taste on my lips. My chest caving in and a sharp pain in my stomach, as if someone piercing it with a knife. My heart is spinning and I can’t seem to tie down on a single thought…I’m lost..and it feels like I’m in this dark corner, forever alone, sadness consuming.
well i was in my first fight on tuesday with a girl named Doris i gave her 2 black eyes she gave me a scratch according to every1 i lost every1 hates me honestly i just want to go sit on the edge of a building :/ i lost my bestfriend becuz of the fight i lost my Girlfriend bcuz i told her dating a girl and a boy at the same time is concitered cheating she disagreed everyone hates me and usually the first person i call when i feel suicidal is my EX-bestfriend Jinn but i cant do that anymore i honestly……………. i […]
I feel like I’m in a tug of war between life and death. I’ve given up and now I’m just watching the days go by. What am I waiting for? because I don’t want to live. I want to wake up with a smile on my face, get ready in a good mood, breathe easy and walk happily to my death.. I don’t want to feel fear or guilt or sorrow.
When I think of the countless number of people who have taken their lives since the beginning of man and the men and women who take their lives every year – it makes me […]
I’ve always had trouble with lying. And I’m so sorry I lied to you. I lost so much of your trust. It hurts. I hurt you. It’s just the way I’ve always been. I dont know why I lie so much. But I had to tell you. You deserve better. Knowing how much shit I just threw at you just makes me want to kill myself. I just feel like an awful person that doesn’t even deserve to be alive. Even though we’re still together I feel like I’ve just ruined it. I’m so sorry.
Another bad week… Summer was great and now at class return my life come back to be a bullshit… They hacked my facebook profile and say terrible things about me and i never do anything wrong.
now after 3 months i start cutting again… Why its seems to be the only way? I feel ignored I feel a nothing and good on nothing.
I spend a summer trying to think that this would never happen again
its really another day in paradise?
They listen, yet they dont hear. They think, yet they dont know. They hear my cry, yet they dont see my tears. So when I die, will they know I never lived?
I was just thinking.
I came across this site and started reading some of these posts, and realised I’m not the only one who feels alone. ‘Im so scared of doing something stupid.
I’m writing a post on here because this is the only way i can get my thoughts out without the constant judgement. Today my mum woke me up so i could go shopping with her. I got all dressed up, I wanted to feel nice and i did. In the car on the way there i put my headphones in, and just looked at all the cars going past. Wishing i was […]
Im sorry I can’t be perfect. I’m sorry I’m not happy. I’m sorry I was raped. I’m sorry I won’t eat. I’m sorry I cut. I’m sorry I won’t talk to anyone. I’m sorry I lie. I’m sorry you can’t tell I’m dying inside. I’m sorry I hide behind a smile.
It seems like it’s been that way for awhile now…me, hiding behind fake happiness. Trying to make everyone think I’m happy. But people have seen my cuts. People are starting to talk. They’re finding out, they’re gonna try to help me. I don’t want help.
So I’m really sorry.
I’m sorry I’m lost. I’m […]
No one has any idea how completely suicidal I am. I know everyone out there must think I should get help. But I do not want help. I want to kill myself before anyone realizes I should get help. And now again, I know what you must think, well why would you be posting on a public forum? Well, I have just bottled up everything for so long without being able to tell a soul. All of my true feelings about everything have just been trapped inside me. I have to lie to everyone about everything all the time. It’s horrible. I literally refuse to […]
My name is drew, i am 20 years old, and currently residing in a “suck you under” little town in texas. I grew up a happy child, played sports and had lots of friends. But were did it all go wrong? why do i have no friends? no family? no life? why is waking up a day to day challenge? i guess you could say im to chicken shit to kill myself. but the thought has passed my mind alot more than it should. i wish i could just leave this world behind….and no one would remember me. i see my life and friends […]
* Note: This was a Message sent originally to the Church of Euthanasia. What I need Ãs, the Quick & the Death.
That’s why I am going to sent Mails to Multiple receivers.
Hello,
For long, long time I suffer { but I think that you have already heard this out of email-Messages more than once. }
I have started several Suicide-Roads [ means thinking and/or/nor preparing & planning for several suicide Methods on which I have resigned due to reasons. ], and have committed one suicide attempt by jumping in front of a Van approximately, roughly, 5 years ago which failed, most importantly because I was being watched and so […]
Hey. I’m 14, a freshman, and a survivor. I wanna share my story.
November 28, 2012. This is the day I swallowed 29 Prozac. This is the day I felt so alone, like always, but like I didn’t even deserve to breathe. I felt like I didn’t deserve anything. I was nothing. Worthless. A nobody. I’d lost everything. My mom. My bestfriend. My sanity. And someone took my innocence.
Two days earlier Nov. 26, 2012 I went to hangout with my bestfriend. He was 17. Yes I’m a girl. Yes he’s a boy. Yes we were bestfriends. We’d been that way for a long […]