if your with someone and you find out they were talking to a crap ton of others girl for a while, when do you draw the line? he hasn’t talked to any of them in about three weeks but I’m constantly afraid he is going to start up again and then decide he likes one of those girls better. he has done it before, broke up with me for someone he just met an hour before breaking up with me. and I just found out he was watching one of the girls via web cam when she was horny. why does he do these things […]
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I was never a religious person nor am I now but I often think that I am stuck in hell. “Hell on earth” , hell of depression , loss , memories , feeling like I am speaking in a foreign language because people may hear me but they DON’T understand me so I resort to silence then there is the heartbreak , the feeling like your heart is literally being broken into two and the thoughts come and they are anything but organised.. I am left angry and exhausted. I think , this is what he must of felt like and I had no idea. […]
I want to die so badly. There are thousands of other girls who are battling AIDS, cancer and other diseases, clutching to life, but failing, and there’s me, just crying and wishing that someone would slit my throat so I dont have to. Im just not good enough for anyone. Im not expected to have feelings, Im not expected to have wishes and needs, apparently I cant even choose my own high school elective courses, and after being screamed at about it, I am not expected to feel upset, they want me to be all smiles, hugging them and saying “I love you”.
Theres a […]
Ello. Domino speaking. Back from the hospital. And being closely monitored by a drunk dad. Hahaha. I failed once more. What is this, the 5th time? Fun.. Anyways, while I was in the hospital, I was given the ‘privilege’ of having looseleaf paper and a pencil to draw. But of course, I didn’t draw, I write. So I just slept until a dream stayed in my head, and it turned out to be one of my old memories. I feel bad for leaving you all like I did earlier, so I’m gunna type it right here for you all to know a little bit more […]
For years I’ve been miserable. At night in high school I would lock my door at night before I went to bed. I would stay up until 3 or 4, or sometimes not go to bed at all. I’d cry and listen to music like a lot of insecure guys would like me. just made me feel worse and worse. Somewhere around 2, i’d finish my homework. And then get up at 630. High school=tiring.
College was better, but not much better. I started taking adderall since I took some and felt okay with myself for the first time of my life. Something like loving myself. […]
be straight up I suppose…. My names Serena , I’m in 7th grade at Bemidji Middle School , I have a smile on my face most of the time(= , but everybody knows im ‘depressed’ , because …. I cut myself , a lot… my legs , my arms , my wrists , my stomach…. It make’s me feel better. I don’t know what else to do! , I ALWAYS get called a ; HOE , WHORE , **** , ***** , FAT , UGLY , WORTHLESS , ATTENTION WHORE , DUMB , BOYFRIEND STEALER , etc.. It sucks , a lot , I don’t […]
Hi there.. I am 11. I know im young . Way to young to be in love and doing everything im about to tell you. But here it goes. And read it all please..
Ok. My sister is getting married. My sisters fiance has a son. His name is Shannan. He is 15. The first time I met him he was really shy, hardly talked to me, and was addicted to xbox. But the boy looked cute. Ok.. Well My sister, Her Fiance, and Shannan all came to live with me and my mom at my house. It was the middle of August and we Shannan […]
“Love like my butterfly, unconditional. Open arms welcome all in pain, worn, used. Welcome… This is home. This is love. Have a seat and pour out your soul. This lioness will listen. A butterfly in her heart and a wolf in her mind, loving without question and protecting with her life. Fall into my arms, I will wipe your tears and hold you close. Trust me and I will protect you.”
I have fallen so many times in the past year. It’s been really hard for me since my mom left. But this site, the people here, have pulled me through. Thank you all so much. […]
Day was especially crap. But that is no surprise. Don’t really feel like talking about it.
I have a question though,
Should I get a cat?
Let me explain a bit, I’ve always LOVED cats, I’ve done volunteer work at a cat shelter, I absolutely love them. They are like my soulmates (if that makes any sense). I had one, which would scratch me all the time, and once cut my eye lid and it was really bad (had to go to the hospital and all), and my mom started getting really worried and didn’t trust the cat, so we had to give him back. Then I got […]
its the most.beautiful release of human emotion. the feeling of getting choked up . a lump in the throat that can only be release through the exits of a tear shed. crying is not weakness its all the strength built up so much that it turns to.liquid solution also.know.as a tear. crying feels amazing its almost like an orgasm the way it makes u feel. but in a different way ofcourse. i love crying. just not in front of others.
besides crying idk y but i love.gettig angry i feel.so.powerful and.less.fearfull. ii love.to say what i am feeling to get it all out.
im attracted to your body heat
when we touch its like the first time that we meet
and when you speak its so soft and sweet
it pulls me in like a melody
and know when we kiss its not good bye
i ill be here lost in time
because…
i cant survive with out you
know this girl i will never doubt you
your word is born and it means to me
all the things that are in my dreams
im lost in the static sound
it pulls me in and i touch the ground
no more wandering
lost and thought and its so haunting
because everything that i wanted
is all the things that you flaunted
ill kiss and hold […]
I want to die. I want to escape this place where I get screamed at for being angry, where doors slam all the time.
Will someone hold me quietly, save me from this place? Can I even risk that?
I am cursed. I cannot have anyone love me. Or I will be trapped in this hell called life.
I need someone. Just someone. To talk to, to listen. To respect my decision.
And to not say that he will miss me.
I’d rather be nowhere than here.
I have grown closer to my mom but she broke that bond yesterday when you yelled at me about my grades. I have a step-dad and I hate him, I know it is a strong word but he has made this family worse than it already is. My brother always puts me down and he always gets the highest preaise cause he is smarter and he get good grades, he is in 4th grade. This family means nothing to me anymore and the only person I really love is my grandma cause she loves me and she cares about me and she doesnt bring me […]
i am 19 years old, I live with mom, my sister studies abroad and my father is rarely home. I have good parents, i know they love me and i know that i love them too. but, i have no idea why every time i’m around my family, especially my mom, i always get pissed, and i’m always angry all the time for no reason. i think a part of me feels that it is kind of my family’s fault because we’re not like a normal family, we don’t go out together, i’m not close with my father and every time i talk with my […]
Ok here is the thing…i have a great family , they love me totally..my hubby is kind and understanding. I have reecently been blessed by a baby boy hwo is just a bundle of cuteness. I am inconstant touch with my parents an brother who care for me deeply. I had a great job..which i hated hwne i had but now that i have been kicked out i realise how good it was. With all these gods blessings…i am totally a fucked up loser. I hate the fact that i cant find another job. I hate my son when heis needy and cries for me. […]
Know how I came across this site? I googled, “How to disapear.” And I was brought here…
I was having a bad day, I suffer from depression and today just wasn’t good. I saw my friends and was just in a terrible mood and felt like everything was falling apart. My friends are always busy, I get mad at them for no reason, and sometimes I just feel like Im falling back into this deep, dark place that I used to be about 2 years ago. But then I made my favorite tea, put on my favorite movie and came across this site. And it really […]
My name is Emily and this is my story. July 29,2011, 3 month anniversary with my boyfriend Ian. My best friends Mia, Maria, & planned to go to a Rangewide and meet our boyfriends there to hang out. We went, our boyfriends never showed up. No big deal, girl time. Well, the dance got boring and I told Mia and Maria I was gonna go hang out with Ian. I told them to call me later to meet up again. I got to my boyfriends house to find him very drunk, his brother had a party. I put him to bed and we cuddled and […]
Life is hateful mean and cruel each day  we feel like screaming  but we stop and know that it doesn’t matter if we do or not because everybody has turn a deaf ear. We feel trapped lost and chain to the habits that run in a never ending circle.
I want to help-help people like me who just want things to be right again. Who wants someone to care, to love them regardless of the past mistakes , who wants to be happy with her/himself , who is so tired of being strong and for once just want to be weak and have someone to pick them up.  I am here to help along with to […]
So, my name is Courtney. My friends would tell you that I”m a happy person, always smiling. And I might tell you the same thing, or at least try to. The truth is, I’m depressed. I have been since I was 8 years old. I saw my beloved grandpa die right in front of me. That messed me up badly. Then my dog died. I couldn’t do anything. Then, my grandmother literally went insane and now she wants me dead. The woman who once promised me she would always love me, now tells me that she hates me. Â But things got worse after that. Â I […]
I just found this site via google and thought it might help me find some answers to what I should do now.
I’ve been having some serious depressions since I was 13,have been cutting myself for 5 years and had suicidal thoughts ever since.
I’ve been dating this girl for quite some time now and I’m seriously in love with her. The thing is that I’m feeling like I’m bringing her down,it feels like she is going insane and it is because of me. She realizes herself that something isn’t quite right with her and I’m too afraid to tell her that it’s probably me. I’ve started […]