I got the call today, from my doctor that is. It turns out my endometreosis has given me a tumor, a tumor that is infact malignant. With my family history and the way my health is currently, things arent exactly looking up. My mom and dad dont know. I could never break my moms heart likethat, i love her too much. As for my dad, well, he can just go to hell. We’re supposed to get married, love, in only two months. But thinking now, i cant. What if, it turns terminal, what if it takes me? Knowing the risk factor in this, i could […]
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My name is mark, this is my story, i had to goto work early on a saturday monring, and my fiance of five years had the weekend off and wanted to drink. Since she wanted to drink i asked her to not invite alot of people, and dont spend much on beer, so she agreed. When i woke up in the moring our apartment was trashed, and she was passed out on the couch, so i just went to work. When i had returned from work i had questioned her about it and she got mad at me and got up and left, its like […]
Society nowadays seems to push each of us to become Machine, not Human who stop and FEEL?
by niki
written by niki
Although nowadays I rarely actively post in this wonderful website anymore, yet I still often follow and observe many posts here. Some have become a bit of spamming, which is so unfortunate IMHO, but I am glad that there are still some sincere, honest, human-heartfelt posts here I’ve noticed.
And of all these sincere, honest heartfelt posts, I’ve eventually noticed, and learned, that there’s really one common tread that if I may summarize it in one short phrase, it is this: It seems really ironic that nowadays we may have forgot about being Human, and instead become more like a Machine. Not asking (with empathy) […]
My lifee has been full of everything i used alcohol n drugs sincee i was 13 i havent stopped n dnt think i will, i had a friend who got me involved init she was my bestfriend she told me everything i tried to help her but it wasent helping, she was in a mental unit for 6 months just a week after her 16th birthday. i visited her weekly n each week she told me the same thing “it ends tonight” she trusted me so much she wanted me to have a suicide pact with her i said no n said your not going […]
Sometimes I do wonder if the ‘System’ is just WAY too strong for any of us here to ‘bend’, or to NOT to work under it..
What if you don’t care what ur parents, society think, just do what u really want to do?
What if you just move out to a more peaceful remote village, if you *really* want some Peace?
What if, you just go google (the beauty of Internet era these days!) those like-minded groups, and just go join them, regardless of what people close to you WILL be thinking of you (ie: screw them!? they’re usually ‘selfish’ anyway in-a-sense, as you’ve known it) ?
http://www.helium.com/debates/280516-is-the-world-getting-better-or-worse-with-each-generation/side_by_side?page=2
http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20060704195516AAnrdOD
(read especially the “Best Answer” on the top)
So really,..the question then becomes: Is the world getting better or worse, all a matter of seeing and *choosing* to view half-empty glass, or half-full glass?
It’s really a matter of perspective? and how you’re *using* it to keep continuing, or *stop* and give up?..
And finally, what do you think about this post:
“that bit about suicide struck me though… the universe presents us with challenges for us to learn from them. suicide is just saying, “i don’t want to learn now”. you’ll still have to eventually though. folks who believe that the end of your body […]
“Each day as people make new choices we create the possible futures, so nothing right now is fixed.”
“‘Nothing we can do can change the past, but everything we do changes the future.” – Ashleigh Brilliant
“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.” – Maria Robinson
“Those who have changed the universe have never done it by changing officials, but always by inspiring the people”
– Napoleon Boneparte
“It is always the minorities that hold the key of progess; it is always through those who are unafraid to be different that advance comes to human […]
It seems that the happiest people in this world is those who LOVE money,..isn’t it?
by niki
written by niki
I just got back from dinner with my family.
And I’ve witnessed & observed an ‘event’, that might seem just ordinary perhaps to many people there, and even to my family members,..but certainly NOT to me:
We just got back from quite a ‘cozy’ new restaurant/semi-lounge that my brother’s friend just opened up.
And there I saw many people, mostly young, around my age or so (I’m 28 btw),..and lo & behold, they’re all seem so happy, socializing with their friends, tucked in their office uniforms, with beers at hand, and I’ve catched the conversations mostly are revolving around jobs, making money, how to make more […]
The first one is Myers Briggs (MBTI) Personality Type here: http://sminds.com/mbti/
In short, this is a Personality test continuation from Jung’s system that measure someone’s way of thinking, and how he/she perceives an information, which results in generally 16 Personality Types.
The second one is the Highly Sensitive Person (HSP) test here:
http://www.hsperson.com/pages/test.htm
to see if you could probably belong to this Type of person.
Surely, “each individual is unique”, it’s true,
but what’s probably the best thing about following these tests is:
1. To find like-minded, similar people who thinks like you,
and thus perhaps most importantly,
2. To know that you’re not alone in this planet, ie: […]
“As soon as you’re born they make you feel small
By giving you no time instead of it all
Till the pain is so big you feel nothing at all
A working class hero is something to be
A working class hero is something to be
They hurt you at home and they hit you at school
They hate you if you’re clever and they despise a fool
Till you’re so fucking crazy you can’t follow their rules
A working class hero is something to be
A working class hero is something to be
When they’ve tortured and scared you for twenty odd years
Then they expect […]
I know I haven’t been on here in ages, and there is a very good reason for this. The Love of my life is dead. After un-bearable news, I am forced to believe that there is nothing anymore to truly live for. Yet this festering hate for all living things and happy people is not enough for me to end my life. I don’t expect it to come back on this site, a lot of you have more pressing things and more problematic issues going on in your lives, in which I understand any criticism that you wish to feed me. Long storry short though, […]
I think it’s because we can’t seem to find someone, a friend, a person/individual whom we can really relate, connect, and understand each other..in our real life.
To find a similar like-minded individual,
or someone who’s probably undergoing or in the same situation like us..in our real-daily life.
You know..the more I see all the thread posts here, and seeing also the comments by other people, which can actually sometimes even give so much comfort, relief, and even there’s somebody I’ve read that can keep continuing her life, because she probably got encouraged, inspired, and/or helped by the comments posts from others; the more I see […]
This might be the ONLY hope I have for mankind & humanity:
I hope this is all true..
Other than this,….I don’t know what else. Seriously..
to steve_c (in reply to your thread “Niki”), and also everyone else who’s interested
by niki
written by niki
I swear I fuckin’ hate this whole “awaiting moderation” thing, I’ve typed such a long reply to you & your excellent post, steve_c, but then it comes again this “awaiting moderation” thing. Luckily I have copied what I’ve wrote, and I’ll paste/write it again here:
thank you everybody for your posts, and also kyle, for your caring of me (english is also not my first language, so I really appreciate you’re taking some time to write out & translate your thoughts into english. it’s not easy).
Believe me that I very much appreciate it. and thank you very much Steve, for actually braving yourself to […]
is Humanity too dumb, or in simpler words, are most people just too dumb to realize the most essential things for better world?
by niki
written by niki
Every time I come to see a new post about someone sharing his/her pain in life, my heart can’t help but feeling much pain too (even if I never know that person in real life). And there are so much, so many people that seems to believe that DEATH is ultimately the ‘Answer’, that of what would be the true resting place, the true door, or even the true world/dimension of ultimate pureness to live, unlike this “damn corrupt & sickening” earthly life caused/polluted mostly by ‘stupid, clueless, dumb, egoistical’ humans, so they said.
Every all wise gurus of this world (be it Buddha, Jesus, etc) […]
for those who want to commit suicide, what you really need is perhaps just be more open-mind & keep searching
by niki
written by niki
And maybe *that* is your ‘Purpose’ for your existence, for YOU to ‘feel’ all these ‘sensitive’ things. to USE it, to HARNESS it, and to connect with similar, like-minded souls (you will find! as already proven in this website, of how you can seemingly relate with each other here.)
Also, somebody said it right here that sometimes all you really deeply need is just this piece of information(s),..that might open your mind, and change your perspective when viewing this earthly Life (internet is great. use it).
I will share some of my ‘findings’ that I’ve found during my life-journey, and really wish/hope it could perhaps provide […]
Dear everybody,
I am so sorry that I was late, and didn’t make any post/comment as I’ve promised last night..
Something urgent suddenly come up in real life, and I have to do it first…although not like I have much energy in doing it..because my mind is so totally fixated into this website,..and especially the VERY RECENT posts that imo were just so mind-boggling with constant ‘new findings’ and the interconnected-ness with everybody here on one another! and frankly to be honest,..at this current point now, I don’t seem to get interested in ANY other things in my real life, than knowing all these ‘theories […]
This is so frustrating!
I’ve posted a long reply to the most recent thread-post by DMass here http://suicideproject.org/2010/08/my-feelings-are-starting-to-scare-me/
and somehow this ‘awaiting moderation‘ thing suddenly showed up again, and hence my post is still pending! (what is this ‘awaiting moderation’ thing anyway??..and I’ve also noticed that some of you said your posts are mysteriously gone??.. wow…this is really bad!..is there any way the Mods or Admin of this website to know or fix it?..)
I actually am composing a thread about putting the ‘banding together’ idea into real thing. and also to put together ALL excellent ideas & ‘alternative theories’ here.
But then I figure that due […]
I stumbled upon this site one night, and I have been lurking for months. I feel it’s time to share my story – to try and talk and relate to someone. I’m sixteen years old, and these feelings ARE real. I’m not your ‘average’ teenager. I have been feeling depressed and suicidal for many months now and it’s getting to the point where I don’t know what to do anymore. I’ve had a good upbringing – I go to school, have a job, money, a car etc. Everything a teenager could want right? But at the end of the day it is all meaningless, it […]
To everybody in this website,
I don’t know if this is a serious coincidence,
or it’s perhaps really true that my ‘energy’ has just drawn upon *something* very important to read!
I don’t know….I mean, I used to NOT believe completely about the ‘Law of Attraction’ (LOA) and ‘The Secret’ stuff, that basically talks about how everything we see in this world physically is really just a result of our MIND, the Energy.
But lo and behold,
I know that thorought my life I’ve actually experienced quite many ‘strange’ things/events that seems ‘too good’ to just be a ‘mere coincidences’ (and I would bet that all these […]