Insecurity is a part of our lives. It’s what strikes the fear of rejection into us. Insecurity is something that drives us to perfect ourselves, so we can “fit in.” We’re scared of rejection and just want to be able to fit in. But… So many people, so many guys and girls alike are judged on their appearance, and personality. It hurts to get judged Rejection hurts, being an outcast because you’re not as pretty as someone you know.. It hurts. There is one thing you have to always remember though, you are perfect just the way you are, with every flaw you have. Anyone […]
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As many of you know I went to my first therapy session today… it was amazing. I was diagnosed with anxiety, possibly bipolar, and possibly depression. Within 45 minutes this therapist understood me well enough to make this diagnosis. This is because I was completely honest which is what I advise everyone to do when getting help. It is the greatest relief and just knowing what is wrong makes me so much happier. Help is definitely scary, but if you find the right kind of help as I did, it is so worth it. I wish you all the best on your journey as I […]
she says will you love me forever
of course he says yes
but for the countless times
she seen this like all the rest
end in failure
cause people lie
for that she has yet to find
what should she do
she says
good but do you promise
no matter what he says
she will trust him
but he says yes
they end in a kiss
they are pulled together
and soon let go
apart
she locks her front door
and proceeds to her room
where her true love
awaits her
hello she says
nothing is said
because this is not a human
its a […]
Well, as you see: I’m back. In my last post I wrote that I had to take a break and I did. After that break of more than 2 weeks, I’m back again. But I have to say that I may not be very active at SP, because I’m feeling really worse. The last two weeks were kinda horrible. There happened too much to explain, it would be boring if I would tell it all (actually, this is a kind of excuse, because I can’t remember it ^^). My life nowadays is really though, I’m feeling like a huge mistake, worthless piece of trash. Feeling […]
I can honestly say you’ve been on my mind all since i started talking to you,
I look at our conversations all the time, these memories come back to life
And it hurts inside
I remeber when you lied, you said you loved me,
That time when your called me our princess and baby girl
i remeber the simple things, i remeber till i cry
but the one thing i wanna forget is goodbye<3
Just got my own cocktail of pills.
Antidepressives, sleeping pills, stuff for memory.Â
Soon, there will be more (ADD concerning).
How did I get to this point?
I just hope this is will start making some effect, and I start feeling better. Although, funny enough, one of the side effects of the antidepressive right when you start taking it is intensification of suicidal thoughts or something like that. lol seriously? This is gonna be a funny ride.
I won’t be around for a week, I’m going away, but once I come back, I shall evaluate if this cocktail is doing what it should.
I hope everyone here has a better week […]
im done. thats it. ive honestly fucked up enough that i dont care anymore about consequences. im good enough with words im bound to get my point across. my parents arent being any nicer to me they havent really even changed. my sister is becoming controllable but now i thought if i cant speak at home fucking things around at school will help release anger….well now all the fighting and swearing with teachers countless numbers of detentions now im finally suspended and soon to have court involved ha fuck that! i have the best boyfriend ever and i might run out of town tonight with […]
Why have I not crumbled, why have I not cracked? I feel myself deteriorating.. Everyday I swear I won’t get out of bed, and everyday I swear I’m going to cry myself to sleep. I swear each day will be my last, but guess what? It never is. I push through & I survive… & so do you. Spend a few minutes reading this & you will continue to survive…
-Take a big breath in…Now let it out.
-Do something that makes you smile (listen to music, sports, art, ect.)
-Take a piece of paper & write “I will smile again” because guess what? I promise you will.
-Keep […]
I’m going to take a break. So I won’t be on this site for a while. I won’t post anything or comment. I don’t know for how long. Maybe 2 days, maybe 2 weeks, maybe 2 months. I just don’t know. I am coming back, I guess, don’t know what’s going to happen in the next days… Love you all guys!! <3 Just need a break, although I find a lot of strength and understoodment at this site.
Please, everybody on this site, keep fighting, stay strong and believe in yourself!! Love you <3!
i get that i’m young but still… i can’t believe you pressured and hurt me that badly so i’d give up the o0ne thing i’ve wanted for years. I’ve planned.. I’ve Prepared… and you said you were ready.. then changed your mind? how is that fair to me… i keep having dreams of being a mom now.. but i don’t have that chance because i gave up their life for you.. i regret it with every inch of my heart and i wish i didn’t. i need support right now.. i’ve already had such a hard life and now i’m even sadder and even more […]
“Love like my butterfly, unconditional. Open arms welcome all in pain, worn, used. Welcome… This is home. This is love. Have a seat and pour out your soul. This lioness will listen. A butterfly in her heart and a wolf in her mind, loving without question and protecting with her life. Fall into my arms, I will wipe your tears and hold you close. Trust me and I will protect you.”
I have fallen so many times in the past year. It’s been really hard for me since my mom left. But this site, the people here, have pulled me through. Thank you all so much. […]
My Email: CassandraPadula8@Gmail.com. You Can Email Me About Anything! I’m Here For All Of You. Yes, I May Be Depressed And I Can’t Tell You I Know How You Feel Or Everything’s Going To Be Okay, Because I’m Not Even Sure Its Gonna Be Okay. My Life Sucks And I Can At Least Be A Friend To You Guys<3 So Message Me Whenever You Want. I Gotchu. Xx
I have a website you see that i tried to get across to help adolescent teens with suicide prevention.. but i guess it won’t help if im gone. I have completely been broken apart and i plan to end it all tonight. I’ve lost everything and just keep loosing more. I’m done.. if you wanna talk my cell is 587-402-3444 i’m 15 years old and i don’t wanna see the rest of my life. check my website if you want… www.piawnr.weebly.com bye guys <3
i am sick of being used, i am sick of feeling played and unwanted. i dont want to be led on, but im never the control of the leash. what is better about he/her/them? what the fuck do people see/not see i mean really i have to know. But fuck you, fuck you fuck you, okay? fuck you.. i dont know. i hate how i feel sometimes. i have no one to turn to, i have no one to talk to. eventually people get bored or whatever and just stop talking to me so, whatever. i guess in reality im pathetic. im really just running […]
Oh . my. fucking. god.
Long story short, I had a father who abused my mother, i would protect her causing me to get beat instead of her which was totally fine with me, as long as she wasnt hurt. one day he went too far, and she FINALLY -thank god- divorced the beast. that was around 3 years ago, and we haven’t kept in contact, (me and my father) . But my birthday, was around a month ago, and he sent presents for the very first time, whoopee. a fucking month late. cheers dad. not only that, but he sent me clothes, all in […]
I was thinking today. That was a mistake.
If I killed myself…
would you (my family and friend <– singular) care?
Nah, you hate me and ignore me anyways.
would anyone care?
No. People just naturally hate me.
Would anyone mind?
Maybe the city sanitation guys. I assume my body would just be thrown away.
Why am I still alive?
nothing good ever happens to me. everyone i know hates me. my friendships dont last. people quit (if they ever do start) understanding. i can't trust anymore.
im a purposeless mistake that no one wants.
How…
did i survive? i shouldnt have
could i be so cold while my body was on fire?
come i hear […]
Hello, whats your name? How old are you, where are you from? What made you make an account on this wonderful website? Feel free not to answer all the questions, or even reply to the post at all (: I’m 16, my name is Javier and I’m from Winnipeg, Manitoba Canada!
I made an account because I can relate to everyone here, and we all are FAMILY <3Â
~Judge Free Zone ~
My body tingles, my mind wanders and my spirits lift.
I think about it constantly.
I wonder how it will happen. when, it’ll happen…
It only makes me anxious… i want it so bad.
i cant get it out of my mind…
Then, a wave of sorrow washes over me.
completly distorting all good feeling.
im still here…
breathing, thinking, suffering…
i want to fucking die already!
i cant wait…no, i must!
we all have a time. it’s all destined.
i need someone in the meantime to make me happy. fuck me, love me, and hug me… thats all anyone can really do. cuz there […]
I was at that muslim cemetery you were buried in, which is a little heart wrenching because you are without a doubt athiest. I found some kind of ritual you can do to bring a loved one back for a little while, it was hell to do, but it was possible and I did it. You came back but it wasn’t the same. You were happier, and more at peace, rather you were still your condescending self. Just not as much. We talked for a while, and I felt so much better. Your family members and some friends came to the gravesite. Some could see […]
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It’s a song about the last 3 months. First time I really
actually felt suicidal, a bit of what led up to it and how
someone was there to help me get through. I dunno…
I guess you guys understand the need to express
ourselves right? It’s important. So here I am… telling it
like it is.
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(Never) Been Better. <—–YOUTUBE (if you wanna hear it)
and the man on the street
he ain’t worth the word he can’t keep
but that don’t stop his tongue
from dancing in his cheek
and he says…
“loser”, I mean you no harm
you’re not going anywhere
won’t be better than me
my eyes are glued
on […]