Rang up the local mental illness house today, inquired about returning to my counselling.
Its been a good 6-7 months since i last has counselling. Thought i was cured and all that.
Guess it is just another loop back around to the start… Curious to what everyone else suffers from?
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Pat Engebrecht penned this book about her daughter who committed suicide 25 years ago. Her daughter LauraJo, aged 29, was a closet homosexual and had severe long term mental illness diagnosed as Borderline Personality Disorder. Mom Pat took a collection of LauraJo’s journal entries and then comments back to her daughter and the reader. From Pat’s vantage parents are erroneously blamed for their children’s troubles and this is wrong. Pat wants other parents, grappling with guilt over their mentally ill children, to realize, as she does, that they are not the problem.
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I feel like everything is pointless.. everything. What’s the point in it..
Especially if nothing good seems to last because I have trouble being happy and staying happy since I’m bi polar with schizoeffective disorder.. I don’t have many friends nor do I always want one.. the more relationships I have the crazier I feel. I’m afraid of being hurt..
I’m afraid of people, I’m afraid of myself..
I always try.I try so hard.. inside I’m a good person. Just scared :/
Abandonment issues.. ocd, severe anxiety, pcos, depression.. what’s the point if ill have to always have these curses that limit my happiness. […]
I think my anxiety is
-stress related
-social
-mental
-emotional
Everytime i am stressed, or have a busy schedual my anxiety levels shoot through the roof. I always seem to manage through the stress and the anxiety, but its when the anxiety attacks occur.. that isnt so pretty.
socially, when i am around a lot of people that i am not familiar with, i tend to become very anxious. this tends to get worse in small spaces and when my surrondings are at a very high volume. its even worse when its a small space and its very loud..
mentally and emotionally im just fucked up.. just fucked up… those anxieties never […]
I think I’ve officially lost my fucking mind. When someone that I love doesn’t talk to me for an hour or I haven’t heard from them in like a day I will make up this whole story in my head that something’s happened. I will actually talk to myself and feel the actually pain that I’ve lost them. For example I’m freaking out now because my boyfriend hasn’t talked to me since last night and he’s not online. I have made up this whole story that I’m going to eventually call his phone and his mom is going to answer and tell me he died in a car accident […]
I unambivalently want to die. I’m 32. I’m getting married in five days. I have been diagnosed with a mood disorder as well as a personality disorder. I have sacrificed so many things on the altar of mental illness: serious relationships, a career, contact with family, financial stability, dignity. Few people know how horrible I feel most of the time. I work in the mental health field & should take better care of myself. I don’t take any meds or do many of the things that I could do to help myself feel better. Sometimes I think that I’ve become so inured to the pain associated […]
All I wanted was to be normal, to have a happy and peaceful life, to love and be loved. That’s all I ask for. Apparently that’s just too much.
After 31 years, my life hasn’t gotten any better–in fact, it’s gotten multitudes worse. I’m even more messed up, completely broken on the inside and unable to cope with life.
Is life a cruel joke? It probably is.
Is life unfair? Oh it most certainly is. And I definitely got the short end of the stick.
Will I ever feel fine? Will I ever be able be at ease and enjoy life?  At this moment, I feel hopeless, in despair. […]
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