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Mind Games

by goingunder 10/10/2014

written by goingunder

Hi, so i am new to this site and this is my first actual post.

I guess i am just looking for insight into … i don’t even really know, just what goes on inside my head maybe.

I have just recently been diagnosed with depression but i have kind of known for some years now that i have been depressed and i self harm.

So I have been reading some posts on here the past few days and most people talk about all of the struggles they have gone through in their lives and how they want to escape from all of their problems and reality. At […]

10/10/2014 3 comments

got alzheimers?

by kristink 8/6/2013

written by kristink

angry again. why exactly i can’t really say. angry with myself, the world, everyone and everything. blah blah. that is what depression is -right? anger turned inward. self loathing. mind games where you set yourself up to fail. i will never win because i don’t believe i deserve to. i can talk a good game in therapy but that inner cynic is there to remind me of my unworthiness, worthlessness. the cynic is working hard to convince me that life isn’t all that it is cracked up to be. that i have every reason and right to tell everyone fuck you and off myself. the […]

8/6/2013 1 comment

Feeling crap tonight -why are there so many shitty people in the world?

by butterfly_free 4/24/2013

written by butterfly_free

This guy from my past has been calling me but tonight he was going on about how he helped some girl at the library where he works and it was like he was trying to upset me about it, its hard to explain, he plays mind games, and the stupid thing is it worked. He has upset me. I am very vulnerable right now and he knows it. What is it about me?

So I made an excuse and hung up, but now I am feeling even more shakey. The thoughts are, I dont want to feel like this anymore, I cant do this anymore. I […]

4/24/2013 3 comments

Its gone on long enough

by Sarahjane 2/5/2013

written by Sarahjane

Where do i even start this sob story? I’m only 19 and from the age of 8 ive been depressed and not wanting to live, i tried to commit suicide when i was 15, and now at 19 i feel that low again that im just waiting for the final straw to snap and to do it again although i dont want to die but i dont want to live either, its a confusing stage. It all began when i was 8 and my mum was in a relationship with an abusive asshole who made me feel like shit and played mind games and i […]

2/5/2013 7 comments

I just don’t understand

by sigh 10/22/2012

written by sigh

Sometimes I just do things and don’t realize how fucked up those things are until it’s too late. It’s like something just takes over my mind or body. I have sex with boys that I don’t really like then I get mad at them for calling. I am not a good person. Or I don’t know how to be one. I don’t really know. I always say that I’m not just one of those bitchy girls who plays mind games and fucks around. But I am, that’s exactly what I do. In fact, I’m probably a lot worse than all those girls because the entire […]

10/22/2012 12 comments

DIE damn you!

by Splinterstar 1/20/2012

written by Splinterstar

I will not kill myself! i will not take your crap . you will no longer play mind games with my emotion. i dont care that your my father you can go to hell and burn. To ever bully that ever teased me… FUCK YOU. You know what you guys are? pussies! spineless maggots that fed off my need to be like everyone else. One time i would have gave in and died. but now if i ever see you again DAD i will sock you in the teeth until someone bleeds. and it wont be me. To the man that raped me as a […]

1/20/2012 4 comments

My story

by MrMagoo 1/7/2012

written by MrMagoo

It a bit hard to sum up ones failures in life in a quick way however I will try my best; thanks to everyone that reads it,

Basically I was abused and neglected emotionally as a child sometimes physically- my mom tried her best to make me as wimpy as possible as she is a social retard who attacks and sabotages her children when ever she can and will attack anyone displaying any sort of healthy self esteem, she’s also a drug addict although not a ‘hard’ one a medicated and tobacco one. I have no idea why she does this and she has a completly […]

1/7/2012 3 comments