hi.. I’m 17.. I won’t say I hate my life, it’s a good life, it’s honestly a gifted one.. But, for some reason.. I just feel so… I don’t know. I know no one really reads this stuff, who would right? Ha, sometimes I just wish people could see me and not stories or rumours.. Maybe than I could be free. But this isn’t about regular drama, it’s about me.. I’ll give this site a few days maybe months.. Who knows, maybe people will like me? Haha.. I dont really know what to talk about.. I know I’m young and should be thankful for my […]
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I just want to tell u about me and my life my name is ******* I am 12 and i hate my life . U can Kik just ask :/
this is gunna take a lot off courage so yeah, im fed up with people bullying me now and they say i ask for it, well i dont, ever since secondry i was bullied so much, i was bullied to the point were i wanted to end my life, i came home day after day crying, i never coped well in school and even at college i got bullied, i was so insecure about my self i used to wear make up/foundation because i wansnt happy with my skin i hated having spots wearing foundation gave me a confidence boost untill i got bullied for […]
As I drift through life and year after year passes me by with out any real direction, happiness or acheivements, I feel like im watching a crap film but I cant switch it off no matter how hard that I want to. You can’t slow time but you can make the most of it, like a lot of people I know do, but I cant seem to do the same leaving me with a lifetime ‘what ifs’ or ‘what could of beens’. I hate where my life has been for so many years and I fear the future so I spend my life reminiscing a […]
So I’ve been seeing this therapist for a year and it’s in the public sector and free. Just recently been told my time is up with her. IM GUTTERED AND DEVASTATED to say the least!!
I shared so much with her my past traumas as a child then adult. That no one knew about. I could tell her anything. She listened she cared. I’m in so much pain that I’m losing her out of my life. Can’t imagine not having her it’s causing me huge suicidal thoughts. She trumps my own family and friends. She means everything to me.
I have huge attachment problems with people and […]
I’m only 22 but I feel as though it is too late for me to be anything or do anything with my life. I feel that everyone is much smarter than me and that they know something that I don’t. I observe the way my peers interact, the jokes they share and I feel like I can’t get it and I’m just a little kid. I don’t keep up with current events or anything because I hate reading the news and I have no motivation. I wish I could just do a few years over again so I could make myself different.
There is nothing good about me.
1) I am bangladeshi and still live in bangladesh.
2) I am autistic.
3) I am 19 which means almost 1/3 of my life is already over (because bangladeshi men usually live 60 years and women 70 years).
4) I am a male and I am inferior to females.
5) I am only 5’4”.
6) I am fugly and brown.
7) My parents are fucking poor, make only about 20k a year.
8) I have no skills because I am autistic and thus I have no job and no money.
9) I am the stupidest human to have ever existed.
10) My head is super small. only 9 inch […]
I just..I don’t quite know. I just need to write down my thoughts..Pointless thoughts, that will most likely be over-looked as my life mostly is.
I should probably start from the beginning. When it all began. When I first sank into depression.
5 Years ago, I used to have a friend named Jessica. We hung out all the time.. She was my best friend, we grew up together. One day she sends me this text..and I knew something was wrong. This damn text is engraved into my mind. “I’m sorry, for everything, Thank you so much for being my friend. I’ll see you soon…but not too soon. […]
Based on the situations in my live revolving around uncontrollable emotional issues that not only affect me, but affect my job, and most importantly the family and loved ones around me, it is best that I not participate anymore in this thing called ‘life’. I have a condition that causes myself, co-workers, and others around me to feel uncomfortable. Some reduce their discomfort by using denial, belittlement and minimization of the seriousness of me and my situation. Life is not enjoyable when you are mentally ill, constantly nervous and in some type of head pain, extremely depressed, hopeless, and feel worthless to myself and […]
I don’t really want to die.
I just want to be anyone but me. Do you ever just feel like your life is a montage of mistakes? Like your heart breaks even with the smallest flaw? I don’t want to be so prideful. I don’t want to feel like I should be perfect–not because of the standards of anyone else, because let’s be honest, there are few people that spend enough time thinking about me and what I do to care if I’m perfect or not. No, this need to be perfect comes out of my pride, the arrogant little bastard that tells me I should […]
Based on the situations in my live revolving around uncontrollable emotional issues that not only affect me, but affect my job, and most importantly the family and loved ones around me, it is best that I not participate anymore in this thing called ‘life’. I have a condition that causes myself, co-workers, and others around me to feel uncomfortable. Some reduce their discomfort by using denial, belittlement and minimization of the seriousness of me and my situation. Life is not enjoyable when you are mentally ill, constantly nervous and in some type of head pain, extremely depressed, hopeless, and feel worthless to myself and […]
This is probably the first time that I’ve ever posted somewhere about the issues regarding life‚ hey I’m sure everyone has them‚ but I’m atthe verge of contemplating ending it all.
My childhood was kinda great‚ until the point Ialmost got molested by a guy my dad worked for at the age of 10 thankfully I got the idea what he was “doing”. Another instance was where a distant older cousin she did molest me a little but I’m not sure its like a vague memory I’ve trapped which comes back only in bits I was a 11 year old boy then. I am the youngest […]
My life has always been so messed up it’s not even funny anymore. Put it this way: I’m bisexual, communist, and my parents are Soviets. My social life completely collapsed a week ago, and it seems like everyone hates me now.
Don’t trust me.
I will make you believe that I am happy. I will make you believe that I have my shit together and my life is perfect. I will make you believe that everything is going on my favor. I will make you believe that I enjoy being around my family and friends. I will make you believe that I am in love with life, nature and sun. I will make you believe that I always look forward to parties and hangouts. I will make you believe that I’m the kind of person who wants to live as long as possible when the truth is […]
I think all i need in life is comfort and motivation, instead of criticism of every mistake i do. My mom isn’t here for that anymore because she basically doesn’t wanna hear from my ass because her fucking husbands ***** ass made her choose him over her own fucking son so now I’m here with my dad and hes in debt and you know how that puts people right? So fucking annoying, angry all the time, bad attitudes, and basically turned him into a worse alcoholic. My life is not bad… but it should be better, i try to make it better but I’m discouraged […]
I am 45 years old; I gather that I have thought about ending my life since the age of about nine. Never mind that most “normal” kids never think about killing themselves ever. To ponder suicide on a regular basis since you were in grade school seems a burden that no God should place on a person.
I have no will to accomplish anything. I feel very little except disgust about myself. Counseling rarely helps; I am such a people-pleaser that I seek to say whatever I think will make my counselor feel he/she has done a good job for the day. That’s jacked up, I […]
Well this is something new for me. I have never posted anything like this before. Im not sure why. My life doesnt seem terrible by any means compared to some of the things Ive red on this website. I have a supportive family, friends who care about me very much. I am an educated individual who served in the military and holds a good job now. Then why may I ask do I struggle every single day with ending my life? The last 4 months have been a 180 degree change. I lost the love of my life through my own faults and coming to […]
So, I need help. I don’t know why I live anymore. My dad has been abusing me and bullying me since forever. Whenever I get picked up from him on weekends he just abuses me and calls me a failure. And compares me to everyone else as if I am not good. Now my best friend that I thought we shared everything in common with supposably thinks I’m lying because he boyfriend lied to her about something and of course girls choose their boyfriends. And the thing is she told me to change. And now she ended the friendship with me. By growing up I […]
Life is boring , boring life. why movies, games, anime/manga, & fantasy/imagination is better than life / real life / real world / reality ?
by niki
written by niki
life is boring , boring life. why movies , games , anime / manga, & fantasy / imagination is better than life / real life / real world / reality ?
everyday life is the same : wake up, eat, go to school/work, boring, then go back home, eat, then sleep, then repeat again.
but movie / game / anime / manga / comics / books are much more exciting & interesting than this boring life !
for example: like in the world / universe of Harry Potter, Avatar, Lord of the Rings, Narnia, Marvel / Marvels, Avengers, X-Men, Divergent / Insurgent , Star Wars, The […]
my past is bad i was sexually abused and beat. My real dad died when i was two of a car wreck.Ive attempted suicide three times in my life and the last time i almost ended it. I still self harm and its how i cope with all the things that i go through.