It makes me upset when I, or others post about things that are bothering us and are kicked around by some hateful comments. I hate that. For example, “Try living my life for one damn day I don’t cry about it on some shitty website 24/7 for attention. Get over your lesbian self harming self.”. We just need to vent. If people really are on here because they consider being miserable some sort of giant competition, what do you possibly gain out of it? I’m just on here to vent when I feel really shitty. I should find a different forum. This is so childish.
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This song really shows me how important you mean to me. You trust me with everything and maybe that’s the reason I am pushing you away. I care to much about you to let you be stuck in my screwed up life. I don’t think words describe how thankful I am that you have come into my life. This past weeks been hell, but everyday I looked for you and knew you’d always be there for me. You are the reason I am still here this year. I’ve wanted to end it many times but because of you I didn’t. You broke my walls down […]
you guys know, a year ago I thought I will just change my life. I will make a plan- work hard- make money- get tall and handsome with surgery- get girls- make something out of my life. rofl who was i kidding? for this one fucking year I have been making plans after plans but none work. I just guess that not everyone is meant to have a happy life no matter how hard they try.
My life is a constant struggle for mediocrity. I feel like Sisyphus in a way. I constantly struggle to achieve anything in my life… but it never amounts to anything.
No matter how hard I try and scrabble out from under the rubble, it’s like my fingers get smacked down by a shovel, or run over by a mower… I can never dig my way out, never get free.
But at the same time, I can’t just do nothing either… if I just don’t try, I get burred down, covered more and more. Suffocating me until I have no choice but to suffocate or to lash out […]
As a 31 year old male, I have suffered all my life in one way or another. I have never been happy and things just seem getting worse. I am not one of those manic guys ether. I been wanting to die since 2007, I just haven’t found a method yet. I tried to help myself and get help but realized that my brain is wired in such a way that ill probably be miserable until i die. It’s like i’m a square trying to fit inside a circle. I am also ugly so the social rejection hurts. What boggles my mind is – why do humans minimize the […]
I swear to god, I don’t understand why shit still gets to me. As fucking repetitive as my life is you would think I’d be used to it by now. Fuck. Why?
So yesterday morning I was all ready to go. No fucking around this time. No last messages. No dramatic and theatrical end to my life.
I put the belt around my neck and suspended myself. It hurt, I won’t lie to you. The feeling of blood backing up in your head. Vision went blurry and the music I’d put on sounded all tinny and metallic. My limbs went heavy but I could still move them.
Then I heard it…
The front door opening.
We’re finally having our door fixed because it was broken into a while ago.
It was the contractor coming to finish the job. He knew I was […]
I’ve been thinking about how many of the things that have gone wrong in my life happened because I tend to feel that other people are closer than they feel. Sometimes it’s not even that I act more friendly than I should, I end doing the opposite, I have troubles letting people enter in my life because I’m so scared that I’ll become so close…
I think that I love too much. Or too quickly, or strongly, I don’t know. Anyone in my case?
Ps: I don’t know if I explained myself clearly, I find difficult to explain this things in English…
My name is Kristin! I am 15 years old. About 8 months ago now, my life was a bit hectic. I was living in Thailand at the time. I had a handful of friends, but I never got to hang out with them, because they were busy during the week and I was busy on weekends. SO therefore, I felt very alone most of the time. Being on the opposite side of the globe from everything I had ever known didn’t help much either. I felt lost and alone. I didn’t think anyone cared about how I felt. One day, I was at home alone, […]
I’ve never done anything like this before. I guess I’m just looking for anything or anyone to save me. I’ve been depressed all my life. Things have happened and everyone seems to always try and justify them..along with myself. I tried so hard to push it the back of my mind , I just want to forget it all. It’s always something happening, and I can’t escape for any of it. I feel stuck. I’m drowning my own self. I’m loosing this battle . It’s scary. I always think that maybe one day I’ll just have enough…and I’ll loose. It scares the living shit out […]
Just a quick post. My life sucks. I’m very suicidal am saving up to end my life maybe two months from now. But to save I have to give up tobacco which is going to be tough and kurb the alcohol. I’m schizophrenic and depressed and whenever I get meds for depression they work but aggregates my schizophrenia which totally suck because other than that the meds work OK. I get bored easily too which I can’t find work and dread working so my life sucks. I have been a hard worker most my life until I got my illness a few years ago. I […]
While my name is Jonas i constantly feel like Jonah from the bible. Stuck in a whale and i try praying but i always find that when i think I’m out it was just mania. My parents never listen to what i say. I think maybe i should be homeless at the shelter just to avoid my triggers. They think I’m tripping on drugs, and i am heavily addicted to DXM. I can’t smoke weed because I’m on probation. Because of me being a fool and hitting my ex for cheating on me. I’ve lost myself and all sense of reality. My family doesn’t believe […]
Hi guys, how are you? Me? Oh I’m splendid all things considered, thanks for asking.
Enough nonsense.
So this is my last post on here. Or at least the last post I’ll write to you lot on here. I may put something on tomorrow morning.
Wow, what a ride it’s been! I must say, I’ve far preferred the ups to the downs, but you play the hand you’re dealt. I must say I am one for emotional, drawn out and dramatic goodbyes, but I’ll make this mercifully quick.
All of my friends are out at a rugby match tonight, and I should be with them. I was with them […]
I apologize for the lengthiness of this in advance. Just kind of the story of my life starting from 7th grade to now. No need to read it if you don’t want to.
I’m only 15. I’m currently a freshman in high school, and I’ve been battling depression since around seventh grade.
Before you ask: no, I’m not diagnosed, but I’m positive I’m depressed. I’m perfectly aware of all of the symptoms associated with depression, most of which I have.
Anyway, the symptoms started appearing sometime around sixth grade, but not enough so that I was truly depressed. My grandfather had died the year before, and I didn’t […]
As a young child I was not taught the many things that I should. So as I grew older or went to school I learned through others. I have been bullied since the age of 10. Days I didnt want to go to school, Didnt want to leave my room afraid that someone would find something to bully me about, whether it was my voice, my clothes, hair, or the way I smelled. I went to counseling in middle school but it didnt help, so i went home and took a bunch of pills one day but it didnt kill me I was still here, […]
My name is Sandra, i’m 17 years old. I’m a daugther, a sister, a granddaugther, a niece, a cousin. I love animals, rain and reading. I don’t have any true friends. I’m introverted, i’m silent, i don’t like talking, i’m always sick, i feel very weak, i love being alone, i hate crying, i have lost a lot of people that are important to me, i have never fully enjoyed life, i’m not a loving person and i don’t even understand what love is, i’m insecure, i’m a really anxious person, i’m quite self destructive, i always try to give people hope, though i […]
I stay up till one to five in the morning doing dumb shit. And what do I get? Dumb Grades.
My life sucks.
I don’t mean to be selfish, but my life is a living hellhole. Everyday I come home, scared of my father, because if he finds out about my grades, he will force my hand here.
Some days I wish he would beat me. But he doesn’t. He verbally whips me. Some days I wish I could just run away and be done with my “great” family. If found out I may have depression. And if I told anyone, they would not believe. No one believes anything they don’t see or feel. Something they don’t believe in. Something that isn’t tangible to them. And such describes the […]
I love my family although sometimes I get sad and believe life for them would be better off without me.
There has been more than one occasion of me trying to end my life. When I was 10 I almost ended my life due to my parents’ fucked up expectations. Mostly I didn’t do to me being too much of a scared baby. Almost 3-4 times per week sometimes I think about either running away or commiting suicide. My grades are fucked up. Every week I get yelled at by my parents basically saying I’m not good enough for anything. I have no friends in a […]
Of late i’ve felt as if i’m slowing down and time is speeding up. Every day i seem to take longer and longer to complete my daily tasks. Each day i feel as though my energy is diminishing. I’ve lurked on this site for a while, this is my first post here.
My first thoughts of suicide were when i was 14, i’m 24 now. A decade of wanting to die, wishing for it but never really acting on it. I’d keep coming up with plans and then never execute them. Will i ever do it? I don’t know. I feel like i’ve been here a […]