This month, I was a victim of abuse. Twice. No, not “use (something) to bad effect or for a bad purpose; misuse”, it’s “treat with cruelty or violence, especially regularly or repeatedly”. I’ve been abused many times now, but I think this month is the worst.
Abuse story 1:
So, one day I was in class, didn’t finish my work, so I was supposed to stay back for recess, but I didn’t want to. The teacher dragged my collar (I was about 3-5 meters away from the class when this happened) all the way to the classroom door, and threw me. I hit something, so I got a small cut on my wrist (on the vein, so if anything touches it it’s pain, even water), tried to hit the teacher with a table, waited a few seconds, then ran away and cried.
Aftermath of #1:
I told as much people as possible, even my form teacher. Even the form teacher said it’s my fault. It’s nuts. So, I actually thought that the teachers are against me.
Abuse story 2:
You won’t believe this, one day I went out with my father. He then asked me to cut my hair, but I thought “Oh, he’s s****d, my hair is not even long.” so I said “No.” but he said “You must!” He started to get angry. He then said “You better go when I’m telling you nicely” I kept on saying “No”. So he took out my slipper, hit my leg very hard with it 3 times. (Lucky it didn’t bleed) He also pulled my hair 5 times!
Aftermath of #2:
He simply said “I will leave, make us happy OK?” then packed bag and left.
I have many abuse stories.
I don’t have time to fit all of the things in this story.
Just know: Life is not important. Even if you are talented. (Like me, I am 8 and know how to write all of this things. I know the word “supercalifragilisticexpialidocious” too. Trust me, I didn’t googol the spelling. I memorized it. I know a lot of things. I even used Facebook from 3 years old!)
I wish I was in 2008/2009 forever.
I feel like suiciding.
I have no friends.
Everyone lies to get me in trouble.
Everyone around me is evil.
People might say: Aren’t you embarrassed to share this? Well, all the embarassment is converted into sadness.
Things I hate: People, Life, School, Non-English languages, Bullying, Bored (me 24/7), etc, etc, Almost everything.
Things I love: Games (especially video games) and Videos ONLY.