My life is a living hell right now my parents are divorced I cut I fight with my mother constantly and I hate my life,my father called me a ***** and told me to fuck off the my step father tried to hit me!i hate this world and I have no one who cares at all I just want to overdose and fucking die!!! No one cares anymore….waking up each day is like dying all over again….and maybe I’ll go somewhere better because I lived In hell most of my life….
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Just learned that no one respects me at work. Walked in on a huge group of them making fun of me
I feel alone, but not the kind of lonely where I have friends who ignore me. I feel as if I am trapped in a crowded room, full of people who used to make me smile. But, now, they don’t notice me. I can stand in the center, scream at the top of my lungs, but none of them would notice.
I feel empty inside. Like an abandoned building, rotting away and about to collapse. No one wants to be around, but when someone does come around, it’s just as a bet or to toy around.
I have no family that cares anymore. I got […]
You know, I honestly think of ways to die every single day.. Ive come up with probably hundreds of ways and thought of olaces no one would find me.. I cant do it because I have little lives to take care of and if I dont, they will have no one… My husband literally just left me.. Like an hour ago.. He called to tell the kods he loved them..which is great.. He is a good guy.. I am at a loss for words other than when will it end? :'(
For starters, I’m amber. Despite what it was like growing up, I was generally a happy kid. I had my grandpa to thank for that. My family and I lived with him until I was about 10. I was very close to him. My parents didn’t pay much attention to me because of my older sister and twin younger brother and sister they had to worry about. My grandpa was always there for me, he defended me and stopped my dad from beating me. Three years ago he passed away and for three years, I haven’t been the same.
All I want is to be […]
group of monkeys got bored of free life and started a race just for fun Â
by addicted
written by addicted
lot of other monkeys got attracted to it, and they also started to jump into the race
new monkeys are born to racing monkeys and they also started following parents
after some time, first group of monkeys died, remaining monkeys keep running in the race
after a long time a new monkey started asking why should a monkey’s  life wasted in the race like this?
no one has the answer.
Same way as humans don’t have answer for why they live
I’ve spent most of my life being suicidal. Every single day I wake up and wonder if it’s going to be my last. I exist in a dissociated haze or fog 99% of the time. I really hate my life. I don’t so much hate my job — I think I just hate doing anything that takes any effort… like I am just so thoroughly tired that I don’t give a shit enough to lift a finger for myself anymore. I just want to not work and wait for the credit card to run out and then kill myself.
Over the past seven years I’ve drifted […]
I stared at my wrists,
Thin, pale scars stared back.
I promised everyone I would quit,
Mainly so they would leave me alone.
Words running through my mind.
Words carved on my arms.
Hate, ugly, fat, unloved.
The words that made me feel so small,
Permanently carved into my skin.
Everyone thinks I’m doing better,
that all the harsh words have stopped.
But they haven’t.
Everyone thinks I’ve stopped cutting,
But no one ever checks thighs.
Usually, I start out my posts in metaphors and similies because that is how my brain works. That is how I think…constantly making connections and drawing lines. This time, I am going to just full out rant and rave because I’m finished.
I’ve screamed for help. I’ve got to counselors and I’ve gone to friends. I get shut out every time. No one believes me when I say that I am so anxious, scared, and depressed that I would find any way to make it stop. Last night, I sliced my arm open ready to let red run. Unfortunately, I didn’t die. My cut let out […]
I just started this thing tonight. I needed a place away from everyone else. A place I could hopefully make someone understand but at the same time I hope no one does ya know? People shouldn’t have to understand what this feeling is. It nags at me constantly. Maybe I’m different from everyone else on here and maybe not. I dunno. Don’t care either. I wanted to kill myself when I was 30. That was a year ago but my roommate’s dad died a week before and with my horrible sense of obligation I tried to stay and help. But now? Now I’m feeling that […]
I don’t know how many times I’ve started to type. “H-E-“, No! Stop! People have their own problems and worries. Why should they stop to help me? Would I stop to help me? I don’t know how many times I’ve heard my inner voice scream with the intensity of a million suns. Many people read this post and think, “Oh, it’s just another chick asking for attention.” I honestly wish that were the case.
The darkness is getting darker, and the sun has faded away. I no longer see light, just softer grey’s. My hope has flown away with birds. I’ve cut communication. I can no […]
No support from Parents, No Friends, No Girlfriend, No Job, Nothing is as expected… Please I want to die
by AbhishekShah
written by AbhishekShah
My mom told me that she could have killed me when she was pregnant. In my school I was bullied continuously for 3 years. I had operation twice due to some health issues and unfortunately I couldn’t complete my college. I’ve worked really hard from childhood to get my dream job, now I’m feeling like a failure. I wish my parents would encourage me and support me a bit but they always put me down. They compare me with other children from the childhood, and my mom always hit me with a stick even when it wasn’t my fault. No love from them but God […]
Why don’t people want me to just end it. They call me selfish (and there right) or cry, when I think suicidally, or act on those thoughts, but why am I wanted hear on the first place I make all of there lives harder, all I do is hold people back, according to my beliefs, after death there is less than nothing your dead, there is no mire contious you, no heaven, no hell, just gone. And, that seems like an escape to me, everyone always says death is painfull, and I’m shure it is, when I almoast diced from ODing on PAIN MEDS of […]
I just feel like im drowning all the time. No, not drowning, sinking, rather. Silently sinking without a sound, with no one noticing. But then i guess i deserve no one noticing, since im quite possibly one of the worst friends ever to all my friends and im pretty sure my boyfriend is getting kind of sick of me as well. I just feel so depressed all the time, and its not like a really have much of a reason to be feeling like this because like ive never been abused or anything so its so stupid that i feel this way but i just […]
the music of doom always appears.
my heart outside my mouth and I can’t breathe.
and everything more tries to kill me.
no one hears when someone really dies.
I will forever walk in doom. my fate of infinite curse.
I can’t even feel the music that I listen to. Spirit of death, I am only an echo.
the maximum jewel evolution is inside the black beast.
I want to scream, so loud.
wishing I was alive in the first place.
Naruto wouldn’t have left me behind, I don’t think.
To the world. This light never made it through the tunnel.
Help me, to go die in peace. White Lighter, awaken.
Oracle. Save me or let […]
My life hasnt been living…its just been a slow and painful trip down to the grave….no one gives a shit about me…if I were to drop dead no one would care. Would anyone care to know why I want to slit my wrists every night? would it matter if I did???
Just when I thought that my life was perfect going just right 2 people from my college dare to make me look like such an idiot to my BEST FRIEND! How can they make her choose between me and them, she is my best friend. Now my best friend wants to keep our relationship undercover, how can anyone live like this???? These people do not even know me at all and all of a sudden think that they have the right to judge other people…no one is perfect, especially not them! I feel like my life is crashing down right now and I feel betrayed! […]
Drowning in the despair of my mind,
peace of soul I cannot find.
Demons are raging inside of me,
break my cage and set me free.
Trapped in a vicious game called life,
Sending only pain, loss, and strife.
Maybe one day I can leave this place,
I will be gone, without a trace.
I have no one to leave behind,
free of the war inside my mind.
We wanted to live not suffer,
All our hopes and dreams were smothered.
We’re all living, quietly bleeding,
suffering here, painfully breathing.
Nothing to live for, nothing to lose,
years and years of constant abuse,
All […]
So, only 2 tablets for depression and the rest for other things, but they aren’t even making a difference…the doctor says ‘no amount of dosage is going to make this go away so you need to figure out what it is that’s really bothering you’ um, I know full well what bothers me but most of the things that do are beyond my control and I cannot change them. I just don’t belong here you know?
I have online therapy because that was the quickest form of help they could give me…I have been feeling so anxious this week:( I’m not even really sure why, I […]