No support from Parents, No Friends, No Girlfriend, No Job, Nothing is as expected… Please I want to die

My mom told me that she could have killed me when she was pregnant. In my school I was bullied continuously for 3 years. I had operation twice due to some health issues and unfortunately I couldn’t complete my college. I’ve worked really hard from childhood to get my dream job, now I’m feeling like a failure. I wish my parents would encourage me and support me a bit but they always put me down. They compare me with other children from the childhood, and my mom always hit me with a stick even when it wasn’t my fault. No love from them but God has always loved me no matter what and I’m really grateful to him. I had girlfriend but I had to let her go because I’m jobless. I remember when my teachers told me that I’ll do something great in my life, I’ll achieve great things in my life but I couldn’t, life is completely messed up. Soon, my parents won’t pay me anything. I don’t know how I’ll survive. I’m 26 years old and a complete failure. All my dreams are broken now, I always worked hard but things didn’t go well as I expected.

Is there any easiest way to die? Any drugs that are available in India? Sleeping pills doesn’t work these days. I need alternative solution. If I die then I’ll get freedom from this life and everybody will be happy because no one needs me. Please give me name of drugs that works.