like the title says I’m tired of this life. I’m 37 years old. I’m drowning in debt. I’ve lost my career. I used to be a teacher and really good teacher. One day I asked sleepy students to stand. He stood I moved the chair away from him and he immediately sat back down and fell. My assistant said I pulled the chair out from underneath him. I was charged with assault on a child under 12. The child doesn’t speak English and his account the story doesn’t match mine or my assistant’s account of the story. I was decorated teacher and my career is […]
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I’m so tired. Just tired of all this crap lately. First off, I was starving myself yesterday and the day before- an attempt to diet because I’m fucking gross. I want all of my fat gone. All of it. I hate myself. I’m a gross, fat, ugly waste of space. I hate myself so damn much. You know what I’m really, really, really craving, though? Sweet release. Last week (I think), my blade was taken away, and I haven’t been able to cut. Cutting was my little escape. All the cuts on my arm are fading away, and I’m getting anxious about that, for some […]
Tonight, I was truly, for the first time in a very, very, long period, free.
Other than the pills working and pumping happy juice into my brain, I had a tremendous emotional catharsis.
I was finally able to move on from old expectations and loves ones.
It doesn’t feel anything special like I was extremely happy or anything, but I felt free.
For the first time since forever, I wasn’t tired, and found my energy slowly coming back.
This is great news for a depressed person like me.
I’ve found that I’ve been getting hurt all the time by my own expectations.
My expectations of myself, expectations […]
Married 20 yrs, separated 6 wks. Have 3 kids. Â He asked for divorce, incompatible marriage. I’ve been coping w depression, loneliness, pining, I can’t cope anymore. I’m 48 yrs old, I want to take my life cos each day is becoming too difficult to tolerate alone. I’ve no family, no friends in this b looming end if the earth. No self esteem, no interest in anything, walk around like a zombie, don’t think of anything but his face and all that he did for me, his presence that I relied on day n nite. There’s nobody accompanying me anywhere now. Â What can I […]
To whoever is reading this, i wanted to let you know that I won’t be coming back. Don’t bother searching for me because i’ll already be gone…all i ever wanted was to be happy, free, and loved by everyone….I kept telling myself “just give it a day, It’ll get better…” But now 3 years later….It’s even worse….I’ve tried therapy, i’ve tried medications, i’ve tried going to the hospital….But none of these treatments can make me feel “Alive” again…I feel like a Freak….A Mental person who needs to be locked up before i hurt someone….They think i’m going to hurt someone….But in reality….I’m scared that THEY […]
How does one justify life? Â I’m 34 years old, I’ve lived a decidedly easy life compared to most. Â I’ve made choices in my life that put me where I am today. Â I have a great career and a lot invested in it. Â I have a wife, a step-son and an adopted son.. Â My future is set in stone, my life is decided.
What if I realize that the choices that got me where I am were the wrong choices and I can’t take them back? Â Do I ditch my old life for a new one and destroy lives around me so I can be happy? Â Or […]
The Suicide Spa- Check in if you wanna check out!
Does suicide really have to be this disgusting horrible action? Why is it so wrong to want to end your life on your own terms?
The thought of a 27 year old taking their own life is so “sad” and “unfortunate” yet a 95 year old dying ALONE, sick, and decrepit is just a normal everyday thing?
Death is the same no matter how you look at it. You “exist” then you don’t “exist” The end.
Why can’t society just admit that “life” for most of us is not that wonderful. I don’t want to watch myself grow old. […]
I’m really tired of this emotional pain. I feel worthless and useless. Nothing I’ve asked for has ever been complete. I feel alone and abandoned. I’m old, married and have 1 son but can’t shake these feeling of self hatred, I’d rather just die, disappear, cease to exist. I fucking hate it
This new outlook, specifically for the homepage, the new way our posts are formatted in a “cluster”……… As a personal reader to the website, I always go through every posts that are on here. This new formation of clustering, to me, makes it overwhelming, and the appeal as a reader has gone down. The old homepage format, by all means, I think should remain the same. Everything else is cool, though. Thank you.
Just change everything back to normal actually. Lol. But leave the cool design thing in the background. Aw yeah.
please, anyone here that is even suicidal or slightly suicidal, or even not, or just needing someone to talk to, please send me an email. I want to be a friend to you and to try to offer you advice for a blessed life. I am not so old or wise, just 22, but I am pained at reading so many of these posts and I have it in me to be encouraging. I am not acting like I am some kind of suicide hotline but I know those hotlines cannot help to fill the void. please give me an opportunity to encourage you and be […]
please, anyone here that is even suicidal or slightly suicidal, or even not, or just needing someone to talk to, please send me an email. I want to be a friend to you and to try to offer you advice for a blessed life. I am not so old or wise, just 22, but I am pained at reading so many of these posts and I have it in me to be encouraging. I am not acting like I am some kind of suicide hotline but I know those hotlines cannot help to fill the void. please give me an opportunity to encourage you and be […]
I’m just so fucking confused. Where do I fit in life. I’m a 15 year old girl. I have no more friends my grades are horrible and I have developed bad socail anxiety. I feel like I can’t be myself around people. I’m just trapped in what people expect me to be. I’m so tired of being a dissapointment just because I want to be me. Now I just turn into a different person around people to please them and I’m tierd of it. I don’t know what I’m going to do with my life and after highschool my grades aren’t good enough to go […]
Im sure my brain is “wired” incorrectly
Unable to sleep propperly since a child
Earliest memory is standing above a large drop (for my age/height at the time) wating to throw myself down it
So I have been wishing death since 4/5 years old
Im almost 30 now and it cant continue
In the past I have tried a mix of different drugs, as one does in younger years
I found almost all of them to produce strange effects ine that no one else got
Mdma made me feel like my body was stuck in slow motion. Anti depressants are based on this kind of chemical structure and in turn cause similar […]
I’m 13 years old.
In and out of depression for two and a half years.
Screw it.
I’ve been in hospital for suicide too.
Therapy, DBT…. the works.
I don’t care anymore.
I. Am. DONE.
Time to die?
Yeah…
That sounds about right.
See ya.
But it sucks seeing my ex bf marrying some girl he managed to replace me with so quickly. I mean come on dude you’re 19 and you’re ready to spend the rest of your life with her? It makes me lol and want to cry at the same time.
I doubt any man is gonna want a woman with scars all over her body though =.=
Any of you feel the same way? I want someone in my life to help me along my goal to getting my survivor’s mentality back.
But I now also have a problem with the whole love life thing because of […]
I have been MIA for awhile, had to deal with all the crap in my life. And to be honest I’m numb so numb that I wonder if the pain was honestly so bad that I had to shut it off like this. Other times I question whether I ever truly cared in the first place. I loved this guy once and he broke my heart and soul TWICE. And I feel nothing, absolutely nothing at all not even a little something. I look at him, I’ve kissed him again just to see how it would make me feel. And yet there is nothing I […]
just looking to see if there are people from northern CA here? 26 year old female… major depression
Email me if you wAnna talk… Gothams.harleyquinn at gmail dot com
hello . this my first comment on this site. where to begin . well things are not good atm. I’ve no prospects. bad luck with money . no chance in hell getting into college so there goes my dream job of being a web developer . combined with the fact I’ve an awful case of dyspraxia which means I struggle with simple tasks. I’m 24 years old living a nightmare everyday. I struggle everyday afraid of what this year will bring. I see death as an answer . I tried to hang my self back in 08 but fucked it up of […]
i’m not mad at people. i’m not mad at the person who broke my heart. i’m not mad at my parents who were supposed to know that i’m not happy. i’m mad at God. it’s been two years that i’ve been feeling down. then you make me happy. very very happy. then suddenly, when i’m up there u crash me back down? i feel like an ant played by a 6 year old boy. ive prayed. LOTS OF TIMES. YOU NEVER LISTEN. so why should i pray still?????????
I am a 27 year old failure in life I have no reason to be on this earth I have never felt so alone then I do today I have been thinking about taking my life for some time now and the feeling has been increasing for the past several months with today being the strongest feeling of wanting to just end it all I feel as if I have no purpose and the people around me see me as being ungrateful and useless I have to fully agree with the later of the two I have a son who doesn’t view me as his […]