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Planning to kill myself at a certain age

by Commodus 4/11/2013

written by Commodus

Hi! Now, let me start off by saying that I am not full of the same deep-seated depression as many of you are.

My family loves me, I was never molested, I haven’t even cut myself. But I still want to commit suicide.

Not now, not even tomorrow. But upon reaching a certain age, I have not decided upon the age yet – it may be 60 or 70 even. But I will do it.

I know what you’re thinking -Â Well, if he’s got a good life, why would he kill himself? That’s just plain selfish!

But the thing is, I’m Asexual. I won’t ever have a wife to […]

4/11/2013 3 comments

I’m so messed up…

by OddOneOut 12/11/2012

written by OddOneOut

This isn’t my first post here…But whenever I post something on this site, I feel like how I constantly feel when I do something like this in the real world – that I’m saying things that no-one wants to listen to, bothering people with my problems when nobody gives a damn. It’s been that way for a long time. Whenever I vent and rant, people just never cared. All they wanted me to do was to shut up and get on with my life, without giving a damn about what my problems were. That, mixed with the near-physical discomfort I feel when I cause someone […]

12/11/2012 11 comments

It’s come to this.

by eyemnag 11/20/2012

written by eyemnag

Hi, everybody.

I didn’t use to think of myself as suicidal in any sense.

I’m seventeen years old, and I have felt so overwhelmed lately I don’t know what to do or how to cope.

My dad was diagnosed with hypertensive heart disease this year, and he’s been in and out of the hospital. He doesn’t live with me, but I go to his house nearly everyday after school to be with him, because I’m never sure when he won’t be around any longer.

I’ve also been struggling with financial issues with my family, and to top it all off, school has been absolutely exhausting.

I’ve begun to skip classes […]

11/20/2012 4 comments

back again, don’t know why

by tphg 3/26/2012

written by tphg

well, it’s cause I have nowhere else to go; nothing else I want to do besides wallow in misery.

Or misanthropy. Misanthropy in me is more real than I ever thought. I could have sworn that I started having delusions and psychological disorders of my own accord, because I was bored and needed something to think about. I really do dislike people though. Not because I think they’re evil or destroying the world or anything, they’re just not my cup of tea.

People live through their mouths, always talking, always consuming; don’t they get tired? I’ve been tired going on 4 years now.

Or 3 years. […]

3/26/2012 2 comments

One Last Try Has Failed

by sunbird 1/6/2012

written by sunbird

So Im wrapping up my time with the last attempt at therapy (DBT),even did extra time. My last day is in a few days,and I dont have much support afterwards. I thought maybe I had found others (IRL) who felt like me,but now its all falling apart. Everything around me is empty,and I only have one meager trip to give me some light,but then I know its time to go. My birthday is in a couple of weeks,if it werent for this trip I would end it so that I didnt turn a year older.But seriously,after that…nothing has helped,Im still miserable and nothing can make […]

1/6/2012 7 comments