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Pain Pills

Hey. I am alive, for now.

by Dais 8/26/2013

written by Dais

I don’t know if anyone wants to know a little more of my past, it’s kind of like a horrible fan Fic I’ve been living in. I’ll give you some fun facts:

I am a cutter. I

I am overweight. (One of the reasons I was/am bullied. Probably the only reason)

A lot of my best/mutual friends have left me. It has been by other people’s hands.

My mom used to drink heavily and she had high dosage pain pills so the combination made my worst nightmare. She was and is (even though she stopped drinking) a horrible mother. She’s very abusive, verbally, emotionally and physically.

I’m pretty […]

8/26/2013 9 comments

Rejected

by SamisDead 6/18/2013

written by SamisDead

I put a knife to my wrist i began to cut, i hid my scars so no one saw

i just wanted satisfaction of being in charge of something in life i just want to take my mind off of all this pain

all of my emotional pain, depression and stress. i popped pills i tried to overdose for some reason i only passed out

nothing works it’s like i’ve been denied by death , death wants me to be in this torture but i wont stop until this is all over

6/18/2013 0 comment

Good Bye

by The End is Now 6/2/2013

written by The End is Now

so im sick of this…. my drunk 15 year old sister is now bullying me to. she was my last true friend….. imma take all my sleeping pills tonight and all the pain pills i can find. i am srry i cant go one in this pain. imma just end it. i love you world i just wish u loved me back….Â

6/2/2013 6 comments

I hate my parents.

by NoOneSignificant 6/1/2013

written by NoOneSignificant

My mom is a crack head who doesn’t love or take care of me. She told me to my face that she wishes I wasn’t born. She’s never taken care of me. My dad is an alcoholic who I don’t live with. He is in a recovery but he still cant take care of me. He’s selfish. He has custody of me but he wont give it over to my aunt who does take care of me. Why? I don’t know. He was the one who said that I was a shitty daughter. That I don’t deserve to live. I don’t want to believe him […]

6/1/2013 1 comment

I Was So Close..

by UglyStupidWorthless Geraldine 5/22/2013

written by UglyStupidWorthless Geraldine

I got home from school to see that no one was home. Tears were streaming don my face as I made my way to my bedroom. I sat on the edge of the bed Â in deep thought. Why do I have to be so ugly? Fat..worthless..stupid? I feel so alone-my friends..suggested we stop hanging out. I’m not a lesbian by the way. I may be a tad bisexual but so what? I’m not fully gay. And to anyone who IS gay, don’t be ashamed. My brain was clouded with thoughts. I screamed out in frustration and practically tore apart my room. Stuff was strewn out […]

5/22/2013 0 comment

Trying

by thetwilightzone33 4/21/2013

written by thetwilightzone33

I have dealt with chronic depression and severe anxiety for years.Â I also have two neurological conditions, fibromyalgia and narcolepsy which give me horrible pain when I’m awake and horrible nightmares when I’m asleep.Â I feel very alone and there’s a voice in my head who says that it’s not worth it.Â I have pain pills in my bathroom and I know a handful of them would make all the problems go away, but I don’t take them.Â My mom lost two out of seven kids plus her husband and I don’t think she would take me dying well.Â I am not living for me […]

4/21/2013 2 comments

by lovejewell 11/12/2012

written by lovejewell

I like to pretend that my life sucks.
I go through these phases- anorexia one day, cutting the next. Bulimia. Compulsive over eating. As many pain pills as I can handle.
Anything to justify the way I feel,
Like I’m hopeless and useless and better off under the ground.
But I know that I’ve got it good, that there are girls who would kill to spend a day in my shoes.
Which just makes me feel dirtier.

11/12/2012 2 comments

Starting Over…..Again…..

by Miss.Mayhem 11/4/2012

written by Miss.Mayhem

So me and my ex just had this HUGE fucking fight about cutting. (It was a big fight considering I had anÂ anxietyÂ attack) He’s never cut and he didn’t know I did. I felt like it was time to tell him so I did. HeÂ flippedÂ shit on me and told me he would kill himself (which he won’t). He said he loves me and wants to be with me. I am the same but I told him I wasn’t going through his shit again. I told him also that if he wanted to be with me again he had to earn a hall of a lot of […]

11/4/2012 4 comments

why cant i just stay asleep

by Th3darkt0w3r 7/16/2012

written by Th3darkt0w3r

every day i wake up and wonder why cant i just sleep forever?. I am 25 years old have been depressed for the last five years. Over that time i have started cutting and have on 2 Â occasions i have tried to end my life. the first time i tried to hang myself but the rope broke. The second time I took a full bottle of Vicodin then then tried to shot myself but i just was not able to pull the trigger, my mind told its ok the pain pills will kill you. I woke up 2 days later. I can see no end […]

7/16/2012 2 comments

I Plan but I don’t Execute

by bigred1221 6/25/2009

written by bigred1221

I’ve thought about committing suicide for the past year of my life.Â I’ve thought aboutÂ cutting my wrists but have decided that would be too bloody and painful.Â I’ve thought about jumping in front of aÂ Semi, but thenÂ I couldn’t do it because of the compassionÂ I felt for the poor sorry bastardÂ driving the truck.Â I’ve thought about shooting myself, butÂ the only guns in the house belong to my dad, and I sure as hell am not dying by embedding one of his bullets in my brain; he got me here in the first place, andÂ I won’t give him the satisfaction of knowing heÂ has succeeded in killing me […]

6/25/2009 3 comments