I haven’t come here for a long time, but this evening is just too much for me. More than anything, I need someone to take care of me tonight. I’m in so much of pain (physical) that I can barely stand or walk. I’m hungry, but I don’t have it in me to actually do something about it. I’ve been feeling so lonely recently, and this physical pain is making the emotional pain worse. I would love to have someone take care of me for a change, rather than me being the one that helps everyone else. But tonight, I am reminded just how alone […]
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Physical Pain
well, well well, idk even know what well mean… but i say it alot
it pretty obvious to me im in pain, i know this because,i get urges to hurtmyself’, in different way
but i have this one repetitive , where i have slit all the way down my fore arms, and crosses cut at the wrist.
and i sit naked and bleed out,
i have alot of physical pain in my wrist  and that could be why and honestly i know if  cutting will do it any more, and draw super attention i hate, i think these day
but i know im no friend of human contact, i find […]
And by pain, I mean physical pain. I am sick of hurting all the time. I am sick of not sleeping at night because I get these long, miserable headaches, and the treatment(s) are typically stimulants. I feel nauseous and depressed and I just want to die.
I have PTSD from being ill. I get flashbacks of when I was sickest. I was lying spread-eagled on the floor, unable to move. I could barely breathe. I just lay there and stared at the ceiling, I don’t know for how long. I remember crawling from my mattress to the kitchen to open a can of beans. It […]
If I could try to describe the way I feel it would be like an egg without anything inside. Then imagine that same egg being put under intense pressure. smashed broken and shattered….Its like this feeling in the center of my chest….not physical pain….but it just feels like darkness and despair. Â I can laugh at things that make me laugh but its absent of happiness…. I cant genuinely smile at anything. I don’t appreciate or value anything life has to offer. The sunlight has become dull and gray and when its dull and gray outside that is sunshine to me. A flower looks like a […]
I just can’t do this anymore. My “life” is nothing but pain after pain. Please give me physical pain. Anything but this burtal self pity/ emotional bull crap i’m feeling right now! I hate this. I hate myself for feeling this!
I have come to a point where i just don’t know what’s left for me anymore. I’ve experienced things, that humans want to. I’ve loved  both mentally and physically and i’ve been brought up in one of the world’s greatest and most beautiful cities but … Why do i still feel like this? There’s only one conclusion and that is; i’m fucking selfish as hell!
As […]
Have you ever made a promise you knew you wouldn’t be able to keep ?
Well, I have. A few years ago, I was in a really bad place. As I had ended up in a hospital bed once again, my best friend came to see me. She was crying, and she bugged me until I promised her to take care of myself. To stay alive.
The thing is, it was four years ago, but I’m not any happier than I was back then. I’m in the exact same place, but this time, I can’t let go, I can’t do anything to make the pain stop. […]
I have been trying to commit suicide for quiet some time now but I have been failing continuously. I always end up being in more physical pain rather than being dead. I really need help with it. I am tired, exhausted and I dont have much left in me. I really need help ending it.
These emotions,,, or lack of them, they are just as bad as physical pain. This boredom is horrible, adderalls doing the opposite of what it should be and i dont know why: i have no desire to do yoga, make cookies. talk to anybody or ill feel agitated and extremely anxious and robotic like(not fun) i am unable to genuinely laugh or smile or even sing without.
I want to feel joy for one, sweet lasting feelings of wellbeing, confidence, desire. 🙁
I am 17 years old and have been depressed for a few years now, suicidal for about a year at least… I keep reading things online about how depression is only going to get better, but in my case it keeps getting worse. My health continues to spiral downwards and make me feel like a complete invalid.
A few months ago I believe I posted another story here regarding the reasoning’s behind my depression and since then it has become much worse. The thought of suicide has become an idea that is able to make me feel at peace.
My whole life has been a battlefield between […]
When I self harm I am upset or angry (I may cry) but mostly it is not from the physical pain, but by the mental pain. I can hardly feel it when I am doing it, you just kind of black out and go into a trance and forget the world for a little. Then I feel like a complete moron afterwards when you are hurting so bad from the cut wounds.
I’ve had images of hanging myself, stepping in front of a train or automobile, and now I’m obsessed with thoughts of knives through my arms.
I’ve never cut. I can’t handle physical pain, so why does my mind automatically go toward knives puncturing through my forearms? It wouldn’t be a release for me as I have understood it to be so for other people. Instead, the physical pain would be a distraction to the mental pain. It would also be a punishment.
Today I burried love. I dont think the statment needs an explaination, anyone who has truely loved and lost must know how It feels. For those who don’t imagine choking and trying to breathe yet your unable to, one must not confuse it with physical pain but the emotional pain which one is unable to overcome. But the post today isn’t really about explainations, this time i dont need them… burrying love doesnt have a justification, or an explaination.
This post is about questioning how must one go on, I mean what do i do now that the future seems to be becoming my past, tomorrow it will […]
funny the way pain works isn’t it?
The way it doesn’t hurt to hurt yourself
But when someone else does it, it more than just smirks.
The rush that we get
from a knife and a slit
Can relieve the pain of the day
But a harsh word just may
Ruin that day
And make that slit much larger
It’s not the physical pain thats hard to deal with
A bruise or a cut will heal soon if
We treat it the way we should
But the words and the thoughts
From our heads do so rot
Inside of our soul forever
A prick there a cut […]
I just feel so alone now. No one listens to me and they just dismiss my problems. I’ve never felt this hurt before, i’m actually feeling physical pain now. I hate myself and the way i look and everything about me. I wish that i could just help everyone out and just dissappear. i cry every day now and it’s just steadily getting worse. I cryed today at school, i just broke down and couldn’t stop. I try to hold everything inside and the more i hold in the worse i feel. I can’t take this anymore. I feel like everything is closing in on […]
I have always been a VERY strong person. I am the one people would come to for advice and for strength but lately I find myself completely without strength and it also feels like no one I have ever been there for is there for me now. I have rheumatoid arthritis and I’m 28 years old. I was born with the disease and my whole childhood was destroyed by the illness. I never had a normal life. So I grew up knowing how to deal with pain and suffering. However, I went into complete remission when I was 18 and my life became wonderful. I […]