I’m frickin’ tired. Ready to pass out. :/
I’ve been off pills for a while, so this feels bad. Like my butterflies died.
Sometimes I disappoint myself…
I have tried just about everything. I started trying when I was seven years old and have not been successful this far. I am 42 and am in chronic pain. My health is failing which as you could imagine makes one very depressed. As for the gun shot I didn’t try it myself my brother did it for me. At seven I received a gun shot directly into the eye and spent six months in the hospital. I lost an eye over it and a lifetime of pain. Today my health is failing because of the damage that gun did to me all those years […]
I have been battling this depression thing for quite a few months now.
I just dont get what is going in my freaking head!! im so confused.
I am happy for a while, and then suddenly for no reason i get depressed. And then i try diverting my mind off it, by doing something i like, but that doesnt happen. I dont even know if I am making sense right now!!
This damn thing, i just dont know what is going on with me!! I did go to a psychiatrist, but she was no good. She just wrote me pills, which i got addicted to and that is […]
i found this website today and made an account and so here i am telling you my story not quite sure why im doing this?
im 15 years old and have depression for around 2 years now
my parents got divorced when i was 3 years old,i have no contact with my dad he sees me twice a year and never shows up for christmas or my birthday and always leaves me crying after he says he will!
my mum tries her hardest with me but never understand,she never shown any interest in my life or how im doing,never has my dad or mum said […]
Hello. I am 21 years old and an old friend to depression. I believe I have always been depressed. In middle school and high school, I had no close friends. I have gone one date in my entire life. I am not academically gifted given the fact that I have no willpower. Three quarters ago, I had a 4.0 in college and now I have a 3.06. I feel inferior to my sister who has always been better at me at everything. My brother doesn’t give a shit about me at all and has attacked me on some of my issues. I have been to a counselour and a psychologist. Every time I talked […]
Since I was 14 or 15 I’ve detested living, but for the most part I’ve hung in there for other people. I tried back in 2000 (and obviously failed) to overdose on xanax. Apparently, I didn’t take enough. When I woke up I was PISSED. I ended up in the hospital for 3 weeks. The last several years of my life have been as far from positive and happy as it can get. Lost my job and after living in another state for 16 years I had to move back in with my parents because I have NO money left. My father will not speak […]
The last words he ever said, were said to me;Â his little princess, I had been.
I know it has been years but all the pain is still here
and all I bottled up keeps flowing out in never-ending tears.
I’ve used a blade and I’ve used pills but I’m filled with all this fear.
So I keep on breathing, dead and alive at the same time.
All I want is to make it stop, not my life but the feelings
Erase the scars and form real smiles
Because I really do want to stay here for a while.
I’m falling into the darkness
Falling so very fast
I dont know what to do
I have no one to ask
No one cares
And if they do they don’t say
I have lost everyone
Everything important to me
So I have made up my mind
Everything isn’t worth all these tears
So tonight while I’m home alone
I’m going to take all the pills I saved
Chase it with something strong
I’m going to end it
While there is no one here to save me
To night I will take my last breath and be done
When they find me
It will be to […]
Everyone should have the right to decide what they want to do with their own life. Â As long as you aren’t killing another person, why should anyone care that we don’t want to be here, we don’t want to continue, we don’t want to be a burden on the state or on anyone else. Â It should be our own choice and there should be something out there that can help anyone interested and let us leave peacefully and painlessly. Â Why is this so hard? Â I like the car exhaust way, it seems like the best. Â However, how do you know, not being a car person, […]
im ALONE in a Place full of people.
My Grandmother tried to commit Suicide now she is in a mental health hospital, the same one i have been in 3 times. Â ive never seen my grandma like that it tore open something i was trying to put away for sooo long, i have cutt agian. suicide is a option!
if i Could be Turned back & start everything over i would. i hate myself for making my grandmother feeling the way she does.
Rope, or Pills????
I’ve been battling with depression my whole life. I got on anti-depressants when I was about 13, but I caught a lot of flack from my dad’s side of the family so I stopped. I continued struggling until I was about 18 and decided to get back on the pills. It seemed better at first, then it got worse. I was contemplating suicide at least once a week. It was getting to the point where if something in my day went wrong, I would have mini breakdowns in my room. I would cry and curl into a ball and wish horrible things upon myself. I told my […]
My name is Lyndsay & this is my experience in hell on earth.
I’m 20 years old, female, college student.
The craziest year of my life started August of 2011… Right around my birthday…. It seems like my birthday is a celebration of the worst times in my life. It’s like oh joy but not why you might think.
I was attending college and living at home with my mom and little brother. I had known that my mom had an addiction to pills all of my childhood. This has caused more problems than you can imagine (example seeing her go through withdraws and throwing […]
I have had 16 years of anxiety ridden life. The social phobia has gotten the best of me, I have no friends and am not in school. I stopped going last year in October.. After I ran away.
I was living in a dilapidated house. The ceilings leaked, the water pipes didn’t work, there was no heat. It had been less than a month that we lived there and we loved there due to transitions of homes. We were waiting for things to go through with the house we would be renting. Anyways, I was dealing with that and then school. I have no friends, […]
i Never Thought i Would Ever Think of Suicide or Self Harm, But When i Finally figured out i Was All By myself in a world full of non Understanding People, i Was left with Self harm, Daily. At First no i Didnt want to Kill myself it was just a stress release, i Was Only 13, My Mom was Never Around, && i Was Diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, & Put on Meds For that.
i Didnt Want to Kill Myself until the Day i Went And Asked my Dad for help, i Felt worse that day, && i wasnt Just going to cutt, of corse he didnt believe me. […]
I thought I had beaten the bad thoughts, but apparently not. They’re back. Again… They’re back, they’re stronger than ever and I’m too tired to face them. I really wish people could know how many times I’ve fought this off…. How many times all I could think of was not waking up again. How many times I’ve drafted the same letter, trying to find the right words to explain to the people I love why I had to leave them. And each time, I get closer… The letter is now 11 pages long. It is placed in the right place to be found by the […]
 Hi My Name Is Ellen,I’m 17.I suffer from Severe Depression, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, And Graves Disease (Hyperthyroidism),And i anxiety issues. I’m not going to go into the gory details of what happened to me, what caused my depression (which to be honest, was a million different things). I left school at the start of grade 10 because i was being bullied…really badly, and that just added to my other problems, a few months after i left school i was sent to a Psychiatrist,she diagnosed […]
I can’t hang on anymore, I can’t grip on reality, it feels like one tiny more push by a friend or family member or a tiny indirect threat etc will push me to taking 60 pherngan tablets.
I’m so lonely…..
When people are so against people being on medication or think it is unnatural and the ones who take pills are fucked up and can’t deal with their own problems and just want to feel good.  I feel very hurt . Some pill bottles are filled with drugs so you can stop wanting to die all of the time. Some pill bottles are filled with drugs that help you fall asleep at night Some of those pill bottles are used to help you . And yes it sucks that people can’t have fun anymore and i understand , but sometimes it is the only thing you have […]
I lost myself in his eyes, I even told him I would marry him and have his baby. It wasnt good enough for him. He found love somewhere else, yet im the *****, im the WHORE, crying alone in the corner. Ive been a shattered jar for years and its never enough to have me apparently, I agree with his malice. Ive taken 27 pills and im really hoping that it works this time, I want to make him happy by saying goodbye. Im no longer a barbie doll, im no longer the apple of his eye. I love you Dean, see you again someday […]
I wanna get high as fuck.
Fuck myself over before I, well… Fuck myself over.
Don’t want to hear about how drugs are bad, I just want this all to stop. I want to kill myself. It’s nobody’s fault? Just my own. I have no future, no present and my past is as fucked as my head.
Thanks Daniel, Seriously. You have helped me with this decision. Well done, I know that’s what you wanted. I’m not a paranoid schizophrenic, well at leastI hope i’m not…. I didn’t expect it to come to this when I researched it.
Did I make this up? Fuck knows.
Please don’t leave, Silentblue. I […]