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Posttraumatic stress disorder

The only thing keeping me alive is that I’m ironically afraid of dying

by graveyardbee 1/3/2017

written by graveyardbee

No one will probably read this but I’d like to pretend they will because I can’t tell anyone I know.

I’m almost 17 years old and I’ve had general anxiety since the day I was born, and severe clinical depression since I was 7. In the last two years, my life has hit 20,000 leagues under the sea. My depression has gotten worse and worse and I’ve tried so many different medications and none work, which doesn’t help ease the ache of what’s been happening. December 17, 2013 I started dating one of my best friends, and I was head over heels in love. I was […]

1/3/2017 10 comments

I don’t feel right.

by antecedent 12/9/2016

written by antecedent

I don’t feel “right”, and I haven’t felt “right” in a very long time.
I feel an uncomfortable emptiness, and as if life is continuing on in an unpleasant repetition, and I’m growing tired of it.

I am sixteen years old, and I have obtained my GED. I am going to begin college early next year, and I feel like I’m not ready, at least, with tolerating my anxiety. I have terrible anxiety, and I have panic attacks if I’m within a supermarket or similar public setting for too long. I’ve been in the college before, being I had to apply for it, and I began sweating […]

12/9/2016 2 comments

I don’t know what I want anymore

by Tummibear 11/6/2016

written by Tummibear

I’m just going to put this here for me to re-read when I’m at a low point. Kind of as a public time-capsule. Bear with me as it’s going to be a lot about I-Me-My.

I was born to a single mom with a lot of personal issues. She was a pretty promiscuous party girl during my early childhood. She dated, and we lived with a few
different drug dealers before I was even 3, not that I minded at that age. I temporarily lived with my grandma for a year from 3 to 4. I don’t have any memory of
this but apparently, according to […]

11/6/2016 7 comments

A little about me.

by storminmormon89 1/13/2016

written by storminmormon89

I was deployed to Afghanistan in 2010 as a Lance Corporal in the U.S. Marines. L0ng story short I came back with PTSD and Depression. For me that meant nightmares, fear of public spaces, panic attacks, insomnia, hyper vigilance, anger and flashbacks along with everything that comes with depression. 2011 is when I started to get suicidal and went into the VA ( Veterans Affairs) the first time in September for a week and again in October for about a week. They didn’t fix anything they just gave me a nice cocktail of meds to keep in a zombie like state. Living like that sucks. […]

1/13/2016 13 comments

TRIGGER WARNING

by savingus 7/27/2015

written by savingus

May be triggering, but need help
so I am 14 going on 15 and i was adopted when I was 2 from ukraine (I was born premature, and then was dumped on the street by my mom when I was a month old) I was brought to the states and then my mom and dad started to abuse me. Physically at first and then when I was 5 my dad started sexually abusing me and my brother started when I was 8. This is continuing to this day. For about the past 3 years I have been suffering from ptsd and has had multiple suicide […]

7/27/2015 3 comments

Sick of Living in a Shitty World

by JoJoGerioux 7/7/2015

written by JoJoGerioux

I’m sick of this. I found someone who I love, and she’s been incredible enough to let me into her life. It’s not easy for her, because of her past, but she managed to let me become a large part of her life, before deciding she needed to focus on herself, and couldn’t sustain any sort of relationship. I’m okay with that.

What I’m not okay with is the fact that her past doesn’t stay in her past. She’s been abused since she was a child. She has PTSD and anxiety and depression because of it. She flashes back, she relives that pain constantly, she never […]

7/7/2015 2 comments

I can’t do this anymore

by Savakiss 6/26/2015

written by Savakiss

I’m a little bit new to this whole blogging my feelings thing, but i can’t keep it to myself anymore. I hate myself, i dont know how or wen i did, or i think maybe i always have. I dont think ive ever been happy. When I was really little it was me my mom my dad and my little brother. I always try and remember my childhood as being happy and i’m always that one person to point out the good in any situation, but it’s time i tell the truth. My dad was a rug addict. my dad did crack and cocaine and […]

6/26/2015 0 comment

Miserably mental and mentally miserable…

by corrupt_cargo 3/21/2015

written by corrupt_cargo

Which is it, I don’t even know. Both maybe. I’m 30 years old and mentally miserable with my life. I’m alone and no one understands. I was with my partner for 2 years when she decided to kick me out because she couldn’t handle my depression, anxiety, social disorders and PTSD due to so much trauma, deceit, abuse and neglect in my life. It’s been this way since I was young. I thought my world was complete with her. We did everything together and I was even starting to socialize more with her friends coming over, visiting, us hanging out on the porch together. […]

3/21/2015 3 comments

My story

by littlerayofsunshine 11/20/2014

written by littlerayofsunshine

About 5 years ago I attempted suicide, to this day I now suffer from PTSD resulting in never ending anxiety… it never stops or leaves me alone. That being said, suffering from body image and depression has always been a struggle for me, recently this summer I started cutting myself and now it seems to be the only thing that keeps me sane these days. Weird. I know. But it’s something about the pain that reminds me i’m alive and still here, it’s like a horrible reassurance that I need to remind myself everyone now and then.

11/20/2014 5 comments

can you finally see the pain?

by Redneck22 6/9/2014

written by Redneck22

At the age of 17 after signing paper to come to kicking horse job corps in Montana. I had a break down. remember that I have PTSD, I had a psychotic break down. this is honestly that hardest part of my life Its hard for me to tell people. but here it goes. I had a psychotic break down I was homicidal and suicidal. I showed up at my moms not(best friends mom and his house)Â house.Â She wasn’t feeling good. she was feeling sick that day. She looked at me and asked if I was okay. all I could manage was a head shake saying no.Â […]

6/9/2014 16 comments

My Story

by Defiled 5/13/2014

written by Defiled

This will be my first post on here, it’s probably going to be long winded so I honestly hope that someone will read this. So here goes… I’m an 18 year old guy, obviously very much troubled with life like the rest of us on here. My Mother had me at the age of 24 and my biological Father for whatever reason left her (still to this date any relative is reluctant to give information on him) She then met my Step Father when I was 4 and that’s when things began to spiral down. They had children, and I was pushed a side, became […]

5/13/2014 5 comments

Finally they listen to me

by Engeltje 3/27/2014

written by Engeltje

So about a month ago I switched from mental health institution. My first impression by my new mental health institution was really good, they were really understanding and REALLY listened to me. So I said that I thought that EMDR-therapy would probably (saying that to every therapist I meet for 2 years now, but nobody wanted to do that) and a week ago I started with that. I’m so glad that they finally listened to me, because I see so much improvements already after 3 sessions. And also my parents do. And also this institution confirm my feeling that I have PTSD. I still have […]

3/27/2014 2 comments