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Sometimes, I think I hate everyone

by Engie 8/21/2014

written by Engie

and I just get by by pretending that I don’t. Not inwardly, I mean on the outside. A mask of sanity. I’m a apathetic misanthrope portraying the character of a normal lovable person in a perpetual improv act.

I’m polite and sweet. I listen to people. I laugh at their jokes. I’m considerate. My mind is dissecting them. I’m dead inside.

I’m just not there.

I’m not depressed any more. I haven’t been for almost a year, but I no longer feel complex emotions of any kind. Some would call this a mixed blessing. There is nothing mixed about it. If I had to choose, I would trade […]

8/21/2014 0 comment

I want to fade away…

by Serra42 7/22/2014

written by Serra42

This time i thought everything was ok..i thought it was all going to be better…but here i am again..scared of everyone that looks at me..wondering what the hell they think…thinking they think i am insane… am i insane? i feel like everyone is watching me all the time..watching what i do… judging me..my logical mind knows this is not true..people have so much more to think about in the day..not everything is about me..but why is that how i feel..why do i feel like they are all judging me for every action i take..no matter how small… good or bad..

i feel like everything i do […]

7/22/2014 0 comment

Depressed, Rational, & Other

by BoyofChagrin 7/13/2014

written by BoyofChagrin

I have always speculated the meaning of my existence, but to no avail. I do not believe that anything has a purpose. There is actions and reactions but the universe has no motifs. Thus I find myself believing there is no reason to live. I don’t think many people talk openly about things like this but I wonder if and I the only one that does. Some people kill themselves from depression or other emotions, but for me its just a rational philosophical view that I do not need to exist. I need some enlightening, 17 is too young to be thinking like this.

7/13/2014 26 comments

here it goes again

by cookiesandvelvet 6/25/2014

written by cookiesandvelvet

because of rumors, there’s this boy who is friends with the spreaders. and he likes pushing me down stairs or pushing me in front of people at school. i really don’t care about rumors anymore, sometimes you have to get over it. slowly recovering from my depression but am still very anxious.

but for some reason everything, every little issue just annoys me. even if it’s from my significant other. it just annoys me! people apologize to me but i cant hear it anymore. just another big fat stupid lie.

is it normal that as you’re slowly recovering, everything annoys you and makes you so angry, mad […]

6/25/2014 1 comment

Question here,

by Snake5422000 5/29/2014

written by Snake5422000

We have a word for forcing someone to die against their will, it’s called murder. So, why is there no word for forcing someone to live against their will? Is this not a form of psychological mind control via manipulating the language?

5/29/2014 7 comments

Therapy

by rachel_rebellion 5/18/2014

written by rachel_rebellion

I’m sooo scared to go back to therapy.. I don’t want to but my parents are making me! I was in therapy for 2.5 YEARS and it didn’t do anything! Honestly my church has done 100% more in 1.5 YEARS than therapy ever did. It’s annoying, makes the depression even worse, and honestly I haven’t even been feeling depressed lately… sorry for those of you who are not into Christianity (DO NOT GIVE ME CRAP FOR IT PLEASE).. I’ve gotten more involved with the church, gotten involved in outreaches, and might even be going on a mission trip to Mexico in August. I’m finally happy […]

5/18/2014 1 comment

Unfit for this life.. said the girl

by thegirlthatjustis 5/13/2014

written by thegirlthatjustis

Hi, this is all very weird and to be honest I’m not sure how I ended up here whilst searching endlessly through the web with no specific aim…. but this place is about telling your story and the end to your story and so be it…hell what do I have to loseÂ

Lately I see nothing worth seeing in my life, I see bleakness, I see an effort for nothing, and effort being used tirelessely. I have tried, I know I have and that is what makes things all the harder, after having given all I have..and had in me to try and make this gift […]

5/13/2014 2 comments

Y’all blind peeps need to open ya eyes and see the TRUTH

by nowayout123 5/10/2014

written by nowayout123

what the fuck? chemicals affect behavior? no fucking way, the data is wrong, the scientists are stupid. look, here is the truth: what do BABIES do? fucking nothing. then when they hurt, they start crying screaming hellfire torture. they don’t DO anything, except scream when they hurt. babies KNOW the TRUTH. everything you do is LEARNED, it is sensed through PERCEPTION. a blind baby cannot see, so they CANNOT perceive things through eyes, so functionally sight is a LIE to them. they are TOLD that others can see, they have NO WAY of knowing except for your words to them. everything is LEARNED, everything is […]

5/10/2014 14 comments

Soon to come to an end. still here

by anonymous- 5/8/2014

written by anonymous-

Hello. My name is Shawn, and I’m going to inform you all about my life from within my head. I think my life was fairly normal except for my mental state and the fact that I lived in complete filth for most of my life. My house was ankle high with trash and nobody cleaned it. Laundry was rarely done so I was a generally gross kid. I remember however I was fairly smart. At school I knew everybody and was the school clown. It was fun having people laugh at me when I would do something stupid even if they didn’t really respect me.

On […]

5/8/2014 7 comments

Social ineptitude

by Minno 5/6/2014

written by Minno

Ellen is spontaneous, outgoing, kind of overbearing at times- but that is what make her so fun to be around- she’s always thinking of things to do and places to go. I, on the other hand, am awkward, shy and rather painful to be around due to a inconvenient addiction to poking people. I have sort of formulated it in to a language.

Through out my life, social ineptitude has been quite detrimental and has never failed to ruin important social encounters, it’s surprising I ever managed to acquire a boyfriend; my friend Ellen managed to conjure several relationships and buckets of friends. She has this […]

5/6/2014 3 comments

i think i am going crazy

by bunnygirl 2/27/2014

written by bunnygirl

hello everyone

so i am only 14 years old, in the 9th grade

my anxiety, depression and depersonalization disorder is getting out of hand; mother took me out of public school so i can get home schooled.

the problem is, is that we haven’t gotten anything down. we can’t find any of the right websites to help, and we’re both a little lost. my mother and father found it like we HAD to get me out of public school because how it reacts on my anxiety, depression and D.D. which i do not regret, public school was hell but my mental health has not changed one bit.

i feel […]

2/27/2014 12 comments

Nothing is real.

by DiedLongAgo 2/20/2014

written by DiedLongAgo

I suppose this is one of my main reasons as to why I want to kill myself. About seven years ago I came to the realization that everything that I perceive as real could just be a creation of my mind, with no way of proving or disproving it. Because of this, I haven’t had any will to live in nearly a decade. I am convinced that this will sooner or later be the death of me, after all, it eliminates any guilt about committing suicide, as well as any fear of death or dying. This way of thinking has affected me so drastically that […]

2/20/2014 4 comments

Frankenstein’s Monster

by YellowRibbon 1/19/2014

written by YellowRibbon

My social isolation has increased since I entered my thirties two years ago. I have been single for some time. My friends have all settled into marriage and are now beginning the project of making babies. As they develop, I’m left behind. The more I stagnate, the more they pity me. The more they pity me, the less inclined they are to spend what little spare time they have with me. Exchanges become awkward. The result is that I’m not stagnating, I’m regressing. My alienation from others is cresting into hatred. I was raised and still live in NYC, where extreme privilege is now always […]

1/19/2014 8 comments

Help me understand this please! She is me.

by cass121 12/3/2013

written by cass121

How on earth could I be fair that a 17 year old girl who is doing her trial HSC exams get pregnant, that’s not the unfair part, the unfair part is that she was so happy she realised that this child would be her reason to live, this child could save her, she was so happy, she was so ready, she knew she would probably be a single mother, but that was ok, she had support, she wanted to keep it, but no, she miscarried, she was so distraught that her depression became worse than ever, she began a month long bender, during which she […]

12/3/2013 2 comments

All I wanted was to play with my friends…

by meVStheworld 10/23/2013

written by meVStheworld

Now, you may think I’m just that teenager, who goes bitching about their Mother and has tantrums about who gets the remote.

This isn’t the case.

Throughout my life, I have had a fairly descent childhood, I’m not raped, I’m not assaulted. It’s more of a psychological thing. From the age 0-7 every thing was fine and dandy. Both my Mother and my Father had a healthy relationship, two sweet little girls and a bouncy boy (me). Then it all went wrong. My Mum decided my oldest sister was responsible enough to look after us, cook for us and care for us; being 13 at the time. […]

10/23/2013 1 comment

how do i ask for help.

by Motion City 7/9/2013

written by Motion City

So I made quite a long post earlier “tl;dr” and since then Ive been reading through some posts and Ive realised I need to ask for help. Ive studied a bit of psychology and im sure im a manic depressive with social anxiety and mild eating disorders. I need to and want to ask for help but I dont know who or where to turn. Im reluctant to go to friends and family as I dont want them to see me differently, I wear a great mask have for years, they dont suspect much I dont think and I swear to god the slightest bit […]

7/9/2013 0 comment

Broken People, by Scott Hildreth a book that provides hope from a survivor

by Scott Hildreth 7/4/2013

written by Scott Hildreth

Hello, I am Scott Hildreth, the Author of Broken People. At the age of thirteen, my uncle committed suicide. I hated him for it. At the age of twenty one, my girlfriend committed suicide. I spent a lifetime carrying a poem that she left me in my wallet. Additionally, I carried guilt. Crushing guilt. I felt awful, guilty, and no longer trusted people.

A few years ago, a close friend committed suicide. Then, I decided it was my turn.

I didn’t succeed.

This year, I met a girl who needed help. A suicidal bulimic teen.

I wrote a very uplifting and deep book that has touched the hearts of […]

7/4/2013 1 comment

Death calls me again and again.

by shruti2910 6/12/2013

written by shruti2910

am 19 year old, a second year student of Psychology from St. Xavier’s College.
I do not exactly remember how long it has exactly been but I have never had a good relationship with my parents since I was some 16 year old after I had my first relationship with a guy.
Though they let me go out to college, but my life is equivalent to hell. I do not say I am the only suffering person in the world, but for me, at this moment, only my pain matters.
Day before yesterday when city enjoyed one of the loveliest weather, I asked my mother […]

6/12/2013 3 comments

My Nights

by kieravan 5/31/2013

written by kieravan

I can’t even explain my feelings every night

I feel my heart aching as I turn out the light

Can’t shut my eyes, swollen from each tear

I never expect my thoughts to get this severe

Knife, scissors, pills all cover my desk.

All which can leave me very statuesque.

ThoughtsÂ eruptÂ my mind about all I hate

I don’t know really if I want death to wait.

Each night I spend lying completely alone

When will it get better? it remains unknown.

Searching deep down to find me a reason

Why I keep living through this suicidal season.

Exploding with depression as I lie in my bed

This pain is too much, makes me wish I was dead.

These thoughts […]

5/31/2013 0 comment

Its not about me…its him (I’m just coming along for the ride)

by Soprano 5/21/2013

written by Soprano

First things first here in the UK its exam season.

So my friend had anÂ exam today: Biology and considering he wants to study medicine – well psychology,Â it was really important for him to do well. I asked him yesterday if he felt prepared for it and he said he “barely knew any of the content” – but he always says that and goes on toÂ get 90% on his papers and so I pushedÂ the commentÂ aside.
After his exam today I asked him how he thought it went and he said “SHIT”. Again its something he always says when he finishes exams and so I began to push […]

5/21/2013 0 comment

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