I have always speculated the meaning of my existence, but to no avail. I do not believe that anything has a purpose. There is actions and reactions but the universe has no motifs. Thus I find myself believing there is no reason to live. I don’t think many people talk openly about things like this but I wonder if and I the only one that does. Some people kill themselves from depression or other emotions, but for me its just a rational philosophical view that I do not need to exist. I need some enlightening, 17 is too young to be thinking like this.
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Maybe you haven’t enjoyed, like me. Life isn’t for everybody they say…
I do enjoy things in life, in fact I have things pretty well I suppose. I’m a straight A student with a large mind, I’m athletic and I am the captain of two sports teams at my high school, and I guess I’m fairly attractive, my family is financial secure. But life just is unappealing.
Aw, shucks.
I enjoy hugs o.O quite a lot, they have gotten me through many a bad night.
shucksX2, that is rough.
I wish I could have thing ‘to be happy for’. I mean I’m screwed again. I must envy you for having some nice things. I also enjoy hugs a lot… but I don’t get plenty. It’s sad but it’s true. I’m invisible for the half of the people that sees me and for the other half I’m just a girl with brain that doesn’t like people….
I don’t get along with many people, I also do not know how to express myself to anyone I hold close and dear, Which I believe is to be my downfall. If I could be held each night, my life would not be in shambles.
One cellophane wrapped hug, delivered to thinflowers.
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Neither do I. My ‘friends’ are a really close and tight circle of people who haven’t got bored of me yet… I have to many downfalls… Maybe what you need is to find a person which whom you can express yourself. You’ll find someone… you just have to wait.
takeeverything awe <3 thank you so much. You're so nice. I send you my little love.
@boy
Get a teddy bear.
The Sarcasm is real.
I agree. I’m just 18. People say that, in this case, the best thing to do is to keep on living because suicide would be painful, but I disagree and side with suicide. I can’t offer you any positive advice. I think my therapist probably even thinks that I’m hopeless, to be honest.
I want a therapist, just to see what they think. There’s nothing wrong with me I don’t think but I’m curious. They say suicide is linked to a gene and 2 of my uncles and an aunt commited suicide, maybe mines genetic o.o
That actually seems plausible, though bizzarre. My grandfather and father on one side both commited suicide, and here I am. Damn, that’s eerie.
I guess it’s worth a shot, if you feel you need it. Just be careful when you say you’re thinking about suicide. They take it VERY SERIOUSLY.
Also, many of Kurt Cobains relatives commited suicide.. the idea of suicide as a hereditary trait is very disenchanting.
@takeeverything it truly is odd. Maybe we will beat our genes haha
@depressednihilist95 I probably wont ever get one, but the thought is intruiging.
See… they’re trying to make it so that they can tell you “you’re defective.”
The Real problem is nurture, not nature. Defective people don’t have to be depressed or suicidal, and IMO, they only become that way once they become at least partially “awake” and aware of how the way most of the human world functions is just disgusting and reprehensible… and it’s not like you can just be something else, or go to some other planet. You’re stuck here as a human, among a bunch of humans who would rather convince you you’re “defective,” instead of changing their heinous and unacceptable ways.
More likely than not, that gene is not “a suicide gene,” but is rather an “awake gene,” something to do with perception and intuition.
clevername, I like how you just show up like batman now. 🙂
You’ve been commenting less after the one user had made a comment about concision, something like “Brevity is the soul of the wit” and since then you haven’t really left as many posts, but now your timing is everything.
@te:
i do kinda swoop in like the dark knight sometimes, huh?
“…the hero gotham deserves, but not the one it needs right now…”
Too bad i’m not filthy rich like bruce wayne.
@clevername They say its linked to the nervous system. But whatever, I don’t let others flatter me with labels. I am me, not anything else. I am a boy with a temptress who calls herself suicide and she sings to me everynight.
Well, i’ve got that perception/intuition thing, and CNS issues as well. Whether i’m “defective” or not, i know that the source of my depression is reality and other people, not “because i’m defective,” even if i do have some defects (and i do).
My point was: don’t let anyone tell you that the reason you think “the world is wrong” is “because you’re defective.” The world is what it is, regardless of any defect you may have.
But it seems like you already at least partially understand that.
I appreciate it man, My cause of depression is the same as yours. The world is ugly, repulsive. I cannot bear to live here.
To add my worthless tuppence, the world is indeed a deeply unpleasant place.
The world itself is lovely, its inhabitants are repulsive.