I am currently a senior in high school. As the time went on throughout my high school years, I slowly started to gather information and reasoning on why I don’t need to be here anymore. I don’t feel important and there have been so many incidences where I was not remembered by the people I thought would. My “friends” all worry about each other, but when it comes to me I am nothing nor a thought. I have a multitude of stress at home to go along with my sadness and it just becomes too overwhelming. I also have work that kicks me while I’m […]
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I’m so tired of my freaking job… Sigh…
It’s just so demanding…
I work at Goodwill and here everything is already used and donated so everything is priced by stickers that can easily come off. o.o Then it has to be updated weekly as much as possible while old stuff comes off…
It’s hard to explain, but this can be really hard and exhausting…
For me at least, it’s a one man job too and I often even run out of stuff! Then like, I had to take a week off to spend time with my family and it was nice to get away from everything… but then of […]
So I haven’t eaten all day and my brother came over to the unit to stay it’s Tuesday bullies me as per usual then cooks dinner for people as I told him I can’t be fucked cooking because he never does… Then he hands me 2 plates of spaghetti obviously assuming that my mother was here because she was here she was at my unit bullying me because shit wasn’t going her way as per usual. So I’ll upload a pic of it… Also I’m not eating I don’t trust him he’s probably poisoned it to be honest and he’s that much of an asshole […]
I’m from England but it seems everybody else on here is American? I don’t even know if I’ll stay on this site. For now I’m just using it as a ranting place. My mum finally let me keep my own tablets. I’m scared because sometimes I get so depressed that I have moments where I feel like nothing is real, like I don’t really exist so it wouldn’t matter if I died. If it happens again, I don’t want to fail again. Maybe I should jump instead.
First off, I refer to counselors and “Rent-A-Friends”. Someone you pay to pretend to give a shit about you for an hour a week.
The first time I went I was 17, they flat out told me on the 1st visit I was too fucked up for their credentials. This was followed by various suicide attempts. All of which, I feel I sabotaged myself by making reach outs, or just poor planning, or pure coincidence such as a time I OD’d.
Most of my teens and adult life were plagued with severe drug and alcohol abuse.
At the time of meeting my wife, I […]
but girls still like me???? I don’t get it at all. Whenever I am in class I just put on my headphones and bob my head and groove, even sing at times. \I also have a bit of social anxiety, yet I don’t know. I don’t get what they see in me.
I used to have times I was socially inept and a total loser, but I grew from all those experiences. I might still have a long way to go… But if you take care of yourself, and keep your mind strong then one day it’ll get better and better…
I am such a weirdo, that […]
I feel bad right now.. I keep doing bad things, but suddenly sometimes I get a moment of clear mind, I feel guilty from what I’ve done. But later on when my mind is hazy, I’ll start doing those bad things again.. The hell is wrong with my brain. I don’t want to do it yet here I am. I hate my own self. I hate my own indecisiveness. I gradually become worsen, am I not? I need to maintain my good side for the sake of my family and friends, while in an other side, I practically became darker and darker. T-T how should […]
So, I uhm.. fucked up, with a group of friends…
I was chatting with one, and he asked why I was upset. I tried to avoid the topic, I fucking did, but he kept pushing so I finally told him about my depression and how I’m sick and fucking tired of living with it.
He told me “I have no idea what that’s like, but it seems to me that the only way to end it is to be selfish and just end it.”
After he told me that, I just went silent… I went to our friend, and… I told her what he said while I was […]
Just wondering if anyone here has ever been diagnosed with this. I was recently, and I wish I would have gotten help sooner for it, now it may be too late to try to change my life in a meaningful way. Over a year ago I went on some nonsensical manic rant on youtube and got the attention of all kinds of people, then I kept at it via ranting into search engines knowing my system was compromised and anything I wrote was being seen and pissed like the whole world off, not to mention the people i pissed off fanned the flames further. At […]
Is it wrong to resent the people who told the law enforcement and children services that I was lying about all the things my mothers boyfriend did to me… Even if they’re family?… I know it’s been yrs since it’s happened but with all my flashbacks I’m still trying to figure things out.. I’m so confused about everything.. I’ve been trying to make since of everything all day and I’m only spinning in circles. Sorry for ranting on…
I’m 16…..I’ve tried to kill myself 6 times this year, each time i tried something has stopped me. after the second time i told a teacher, she then helped me tell my dad, and from there i went to a psychologist, got diagnosed with depression, and got medication….
it hasn’t helped. i still want to die, still feel like crap every single day….i was going to kill myself last night….
But some stupid little voice in my head remindede of my best friend, who has told me that she would miss me if i died -she’s the only one…
i hate living, its so pointless…
sorry for […]
One: suicide because they dint got what they want
Two: suicide because they are deep thinkers
I ve seen all sp users are first category- They keep ranting about their problems
If you suicidal because of your problems you  are a “super fool” in this world.
I was born disabled. My disability is not something that can be seen physically, or even be cured medically. At first I didn’t recognize my differences from others. But all my life I have been feeling it, and even unconsciously struggling to mend it. I was so confused because I didn’t even understand what’s wrong with me. I thought by knowing what’s wrong with me, I could cure it. But I had never understood, so I gave up and started to accept that I would always be like this. Turn out, I was wrong and I was right. I was wrong because even knowing what’s […]
I’m 25 and currently 19 weeks pregnant for the first time. I have been depressed all through this ordeal. In the past I’ve had a bad habit of cutting, there are 3 scars on my arm where I cut very deep on 3 different occasions. I also cut my wrist which left a scar. I have not cut while pregnant but am still very depressed. I guess I’ve been depressed for a while now. I’m stuck at the house most of the time. I worked as a barber for 1 yr but had to leave due to being harassed and have had no luck finding […]
When I attempted suicide in 2012 I spoke with a shrink before I left to an institution. Do you know what he said? He said what I do to myself would effect not only me but my loved ones as well.The reason why I thought of suicide was because I over think what others think of me. Doesn’t that suck that even before we end our lives were suppose to still care for everyone else. What do you think?