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Day … 9?

by Alex 9/26/2015

written by Alex

So much has happened since the last time I posted. I haven’t been able to actually log in and write about it, but I thought, “I have to keep on writing and just let it all out, before this pot is ready to explode and suicide becomes the next and only option available.”

I mean suicide is always an option that tries to crawl out of the darkest depths of my mind and there are times that I just let it. I let it consume me and my thoughts because that’s easier than having to deal with reality. But then there are times that I’m just […]

9/26/2015 1 comment

Words have no power to impress the mind without the exquisite horror of their reality

by KH 9/25/2015

written by KH

i liked this quote. I like Edgar Allen Poe. So here it is. It has no reference in particular; I just read some of his work today and it stuck in my mind.

it’s been months since my last post on here – good news I guess. But now I’m back – bad new now, I guess. Everything’s been okay-ish. I was recently re-admitted to hospital for abdominal pains, had another operation and I’m out again, for now anyways. Now, surely, when you’re in hospital, your ‘other half’ shall we say should want to see you, correct? Or at least want to talk to you, if […]

9/25/2015 5 comments

Anyone have a similar reality?

by onawingandaprayer 9/25/2015

written by onawingandaprayer

I went from being a happy delusional religious person to a depressed suicidal atheist with less than a year…

9/25/2015 6 comments

Of no consequence

by quaero 9/20/2015

written by quaero

I don’t know what I am going to write. I am very acutely aware of everything that happens in me. That’s my property, that’s my specialty. What I am incapable of is- changing it. Life is hell for person who knows he is a hypocrite. The loops and spirals this reflecting produces. An endless blame game. Yeah, I did it. I left this goddamned city one morning and went to the place from where Himalayas start. There they were, vast, majestic. Fuck it’s too embarrassing to even tell what happened next. I came back. Yes, I FUCKING CAME BACK. The loneliness that dawned to me, […]

9/20/2015 3 comments

A rough draft of my Bioethics Agenda

by wndozh8er 9/12/2015

written by wndozh8er

I been working on a political and social movement for years. The name or the organization will be called The Actionist Movement (a generic name for a complex ideology). I lost interest in it for years. One of my main goals is Neuropreservation for far future transhumanism. I haven’t gotten to that part because its complex. my philosophy covers a number of issues such as prison and school reform etc. here is what I wrote so far on my Bioethics Agenda (a lot more to write about that).

The book will be called – My Vision: The Manifesto of the Actionist Movement

EUTHANASIA – The option of […]

9/12/2015 20 comments

rawr

by darkwillow 9/11/2015

written by darkwillow

I’ve been so focused on music.. And futures.. And now i can’t help but sit here and feel that everything is becoming just pointless. I haven’t had this feeling for a long time. A feeling of wanting to die.
But that’s the problem. I don’t want to die. I just want certain things that don’t exist… I can write songs to try to capture this perfect world.. Or write stories where it’s real… But all of that is just ignoring the reality. The reality that, none of that is real. It’ll never be real.

I see long endless plains and hills in my paradise. Nature everywhere. […]

9/11/2015 0 comment

by Diablo 8/28/2015

written by Diablo

I just want to cry. To curl up and cry until I sleep. My depression is kicking in and I don’t want to deal with it. Over the days it will get worse and my imagination will start to take over and become my reality. I don’t want to deal with this.

8/28/2015 2 comments

My best friend

by tjsII1988 8/23/2015

written by tjsII1988

I am nearing my point in which I will be ready to end it. Long story short I am a miserable dissapointment and life would be better for all that I loved if I were gone. I have made my arrangements and have financial taken care of (almost) for my children and girlfriend/fiance. No one knows that I am on my way out,and I would like to keep it that way. My question is,would it be selfish of me to make it so my best friend is the one who discovers my body? I would have documentation for him to read following his discovery,an I […]

8/23/2015 3 comments

A Stolen Poem

by well_kept_secret 8/20/2015

written by well_kept_secret

Today was the absolute worst day ever

And don’t try to convince me that

There’s something good in every day

Because, when you take a closer look,

This world is a pretty evil place.

Even if

Some goodness does shine through once in a while

Satisfaction and happiness don’t last.

And it’s not true that

It’s all in the mind and heart

Because

True happiness can be obtained

Only if one’s surroundings are good

It’s not true that good exists

I’m sure you can agree that

The reality

Creates

My attitude

It’s all beyond my control

And you’ll never in a million years hear me say that

Today was a good day

Now read from bottom to top.

8/20/2015 8 comments

Alcohol and reality

by wndozh8er 8/16/2015

written by wndozh8er

I actually cried tonight, thinking about what happened over these past three days. Did a lot of psychoanalysis on myself. As you all know, Thursday night I started drinking cooers light. It’s the only alcohol my aunt will allow me to have. The problem is, I sober up to fast. The bigger problem is that I feel like a monster when I’m sober but when I’m drunk all my worries go away and I can be myself (in a way). I get scared of sobering up because I know that once I do, my problems will come back.

That night, I said screw it and decided […]

8/16/2015 5 comments

Why movies are better than reality ? Why movie is better than reality ? Why reality is boring ?

by niki 8/14/2015

written by niki

Why movies are better than reality / real life / real world ?
Why movie is better than reality / real life / real world ?
Why reality is boring ?

What puzzles me the most is human’s mind / human’s brains and imagination better than reality ( human’s fantasy is better than reality )

for example:
just look at the movies, novels, comics, games, books, , animations (anime / manga), science fiction (sci-fi), fantasy , like Star Wars, Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Narnia, X-Men, Marvels & DC universe / movies , The Avengers , Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, Swords Art Online, Naruto, Bleach, […]

8/14/2015 1 comment

Waking Nightmares.

by anthropophobia 8/14/2015

written by anthropophobia

I have recently been having some pretty intense nightmares, including waking dreams, which are the most horrific series of events, emotions, and imagery that persist after you wake up. The thing that makes these dreams so incredibly petrifying is the relief you would normally feel upon waking up is shattered by the persistence of the thing you fear the most appearing in reality. Sometimes they fizzle out quickly, alternatively there are times I lay in bed for over an hour trying to figure out my reality, it’s as if I completely dissociate from reality, and I am unable to distinguish things that clearly aren’t real […]

8/14/2015 0 comment

My epic talk with my aunt yesterday

by wndozh8er 8/13/2015

written by wndozh8er

i love her and she’s like a mom to me. BUT she disagrees on my stance of wanting to die. She knows what I been though. I finally broke and asked her if she could by me that Max Dog ******** cylinder with an exit bag IF a year has passed and I still want to die and I try extra hard to better myself, do more therapy, eat better and continue losing weight, get my licens, and even admit myself into a psyche ward for a couple weeks 6 months from now.

She was shocked but said she don’t know. Sounds like she may even […]

8/13/2015 7 comments

2 to two-thousand

by Bisban 8/12/2015

written by Bisban

Ironic, if thy seek for

Ironic, the ultimate

Master from master to master and master

Is it only in the polarity

Calling to like to the Double-Negative

Do you plan to be, maybe, underground

Let’s hope, only, for now, the blink

Of solar, but what about, what

The place that I need to be and the truth of a reality

Undead of the peace, I call to the, Almighty

Maybe do not believe, in your unknown

Rolling time and space

The bust begins after five

I won’t say never but surely damn forever

8/12/2015 0 comment

My Bioethics Agenda

by wndozh8er 8/12/2015

written by wndozh8er

As a political and social philosopher, I developed many ideas over the years – education and prison reform for example, which I may talk about later, among many other ideas. What I want to share with you all today is my vision on bioethics and how my ideas should be turned into federal law.

My ideology on bioethics has been inspired by secular humanism, suffering abolition, emerging technologies, futurology, and above all, choice! Let me give you some examples of what I believe should be turned into law.

1. Euthanasia for the terminally ill or severely handicapped should be a constitutional right.

2. Euthanasia for the mentally ill […]

8/12/2015 11 comments

How?

by Diablo 8/3/2015

written by Diablo

How will I face reality? How will i be strong enough? In reality the cold hard truth is revealed. In reality i am forced into this shell that is damaged and different. In reality thoughts of how worthless, ugly, fat and not good enough i am rush into my head. In reality thoughts of the future worry and scare me. In reality i ask myself “When will this end?” when i should be focusing on “How will this end?” So how? How can i stop hiding my pain and my fears and be okay. How am i going to be strong enough to not have […]

8/3/2015 0 comment

To This, One

by Bisban 8/1/2015

written by Bisban

In our maximum Iron-Age

And in the name of astrology.

Inside of me veiling torment

I guess I’m not normal, ’cause you’ll never know.

I rather you not see, and then to have you, self-destruct

So, I’ll go on and slime away, now.

I’m not happy about reality, for me, it’s the animals

Oh, Gaia.

Where are you my representative

Done down to this, one.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5cYzDjSvQQQ

8/1/2015 0 comment

I see you.

by cephalus 7/31/2015

written by cephalus

This random graffito caught my eye while out for a jaunt tonight.

I think it sums up much perfectly. Were all alone, fighting with tears streaming down our face. But I see you.

(background music for those inclined)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0FqmJy8HzQI

I haven’t posted or commented in a while. (Trips, Birthday, Best friends wedding, another wedding tomorrow…) But I see you. Serendipitous, one of Salt’s songs just started while on random.

Some days I think depression, loneliness won’t get the best of me. Most, other days, I’m not so sure. Is loneliness a […]

7/31/2015 3 comments

Disillusion

by Myragestatic 7/27/2015

written by Myragestatic

This place is mine, the feeling none.
Who are you to force your way in.
I ask not of what you bring, only of what you have left.
This is my platform, my disillusion.

And yet you take that which you did not sow.

Can I identify that which causes me grief.
What is there to scrutinise but the reality of this thing.
And yet I am here, while others are not.
I cannot take what is not mine to give.

When did I stray?

Was it convoluted, a misplaced thought?
How long can I occupy with such disdain.
I usher all around me to speak.
Such words have […]

7/27/2015 0 comment

Nature is Nihilistic: my view of the world

by wndozh8er 7/22/2015

written by wndozh8er

no matter if you commit suicide or die of natural causes in old age, the end result is the same: you will die in the end! Nature is cruel, heartless, and incredibly restrictive. For example, nature says the Ebola virus, which has no good function whatsoever, is more important than a child’s life. To me this is a horrible reality. No wonder people make up gods and believe in an afterlife. I however, do not because I am a man of observation. I can not look truth in the eye and deny it without being delusional and ignorant.

All all we are is meat. Most brains […]

7/22/2015 7 comments

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