Suicide as Scapegoat

Here is a media story that scapegoats suicide.

https://youtu.be/8Kbv0BeZZSw

I’m emotionally troubled, wonder why, not just an apparition of “Satan”- my call at what I saw, even SPOOKED me at a young age and disturbed family and got a psychiatrist to boot that went as far as my moneyless parent could go for the first born who also needed teeth straightened making mom and pop so proud. It is, all of it, being a greasy metabolizing lost soul on a round ball ABUSIVE, literally.

I ask, why do we have to be screamed at by the media, programmed, policed and end up suffering, all the while others find joy in the hunt and pressure of control. Is there grace in service to suffering while suffering, this is the big game and reward?

57 now, it only digs at me more and more. Younger was almost well enough.

Here is a place to discuss suicide as a scapegoat and a place to try find hope in any of my experiences.

Take it day by day, “A”, seems that I go on, kinda Zombied. I’m “alive”, mostly uncomfortable and even scared, what future do you want based on the demo Earth v1, called life to 75 years and then die?

Sure hope you all pick up and write, many of us need to get past almost not making it moment by moment and comments and examples of suicide as scapegoat for murder are welcome, it is too many done like this to often…. WHERE AM I, really, what reality do I, can I really create? I feel I need a defense or offense or WHAT???