Hello all. I’m sitting here at my dinning room table weeping so hard. The reason is because I’ve searched intensley on an answer for the last few wks. I’ve talked to people including a therapist, some friends I kno in person, a couple from this site and even my Pastor. I’m 32 and have no relationships. I do everything alone and I can’t fucking take it anymore. I feel most have blocked me out. Let me say I was going to go thru with it last nite but the law got involved sumwat, plus I didn’t have all the supplies I needed. I’m now sitting […]
Reason
Sometimes, I just think about one of my old friends and how close we used to be. She was my best friend and we did so many things together. She was a very shy person and wasn’t one to talk openly to people. I knew her since childhood and we were friends in the past but up until my Freshmen year of High School, we had drifted apart from one another.
We soon became close friends again. And part of the reason being that at that time I had a very small group of friends. I was awkward in Middle School and seemed to rarely speak […]
So You want to end your life? ♥ Read this (: If it doesnt change your perspective then email me and talk to me ♥(:
Before you decide to take your life, imagine who will find you. Imagine them walking into a room, and seeing you just hanging there. Whether it be your little sister, little brother, mother father, grandparents, a friend. Imagine what will happen when they find you. No, they will not say “Finally, they’re gone.†No, they will not say “I’m happy they did that.†No, they will not say “I never loved them anyways.†They will die. Their hearts will break. They will hurt, more than you […]
i’ve had so many troubles throghout my life. loved ones dying, friendship brake ups, cheating, agressions, sexual harsments, lies, broken promises. yeah it may seem like they are little reasons but they sure were powerful enough to weaken me little by little. though i haven’t lost it all. i still have faith, hope, & love. even if i have hate, grudges, and disappointments as well. & even if i want to die, i still have hope to have desire to live. i have my lovely family that truthfully love me, few friends that love me and appriciate me. i have that idea to live for […]
I rarely go to sleep before 2 AM most nights. I usually just read, or write, or use my laptop until I get so exhausted I go straight to sleep when I let myself. I do this because otherwise, I lie awake in bed for hours and hours thinking dark, sad, terrifying thoughts and everything gets worse. And I can’t tell my parents that that’s the reason I’m always so exhausted in the mornings, because they tell me to just go to bed earlier, but they don’t get that the longer I lie in silence, the more time I have to think. And thinking too […]
I need everyone who is feeling bad, terrible, down, lonely, worthless, hopeless, unimportant, to take one minute from your life and think.
Think how beautiful the world is, because of your excistence. Think how much you’ve helped the others who were feeling bad, by posting your own stories. YOU ARE NOT ALONE! All of us here are just like one family. The same things, the same problems, the same stories.
Just think one minute; if not for God, you wouldn’t be here right now, reading this.
You’re God’s creature, He looks at you, and loves you even though you’re not perfect. I am not perfect. […]
Hi. First off, something I want to say is that no matter how bleak things may look, you are strong, and you can make it through this. <3
My story starts about 5 years ago. all through elementary school I was always the most outgoing and fun-loving girl in our little town. I was never without a friend to play with. That all changed the day of my 11th birthday party. It was the most fun party I had ever had. I was so happy because my dad picked me and my friend up in a semi-truck to bring us home. we got there, and there […]
I was a liar. Am a liar. It’s the sort of thing that you can’t really speak about in the past tense. It started when I was really young, in elementary school when my parents got divorced. I would lie to both parents to get what I wanted. And I would get what I wanted. They weren’t big things like an mp3 player or a new toy or something, just small things that weren’t very important, non tangible things like a play date or some sympathy; a hug. Then they got bigger and bigger. I would plan things out, these huge deceptions and falsities, as […]
Why must we suffer? And why does it seem like it’s all in vain? I am beginning to think that my own suffering is surely in vain; it doesn’t make me a stronger person or build my character, or give me any new insight. Â It simply sucks the life from me like a parasite. If I knew somehow that I had a future, a real chance, perhaps I could push through.
I wonder how many of us would be able to make it through if we just had something (or someone) to validate our existence on this earth–– to just validate our suffering, and to tell […]
What the hell is wrong with me? Am I an unlikable person? *sigh* I try you know I try to be friendly but why is it that in whatever I do Im just ignored. Im currently in art school and I try. try hard and I am decent at what I do yet I get no attention in any thing its like Im invisible and it just makes me hate everyone at school.school I HATE that too I enjoy the learning yes BUT I HATE THE PEOPLE THERE …I just hate people in general ? I didnt use to be like this I wasnt so […]
Why are we all here on this site ?
It’s the problem of pain, we want to destroy !
Where the pain come from ?
From non-acceptance !
Of people that reject.
And the main role in play, it is we, who won’t even accept ourself.
And worse way round, we even want to change others, but sure to fail !
We hate this, we hate that.
And it’s so common to be told, just change this or that, we’ll be alright.
But easier said than done, to change ?
We are already where we are, and that’s it, all that we humbly (or proudly) need is to first […]
So You want to end your life? Think there’s no hope, and you have nothing to live for? READ THIS…. Email me if you think differently , or just talk to me because I CARE , wether you believe it or not ♥
Before you decide to take your life, imagine who will find you. Imagine them walking into a room, and seeing you just hanging there. Whether it be your little sister, little brother, mother father, grandparents, a friend. Imagine what will happen when they find you. No, they will not say “Finally, they’re gone.†No, they will not say “I’m happy they did that.†No, they will not say “I never loved them anyways.†They will die. Their hearts will break. They will hurt, more than you ever […]
my mama used to tell me: if you can’t find something to live for, you best find something to die for (2Pac)
if you can’t find reasons, a cause to live nor to die for : you simply are in deep shit .. good luck to whoever is in this situation, life becomes quite a burden
No reason to live…I’m a fucking loser!Again my stupid brother told me awful things.He told me to hang myself.What stops me??
I could finnish it all.What to live for??
I always was the black sheep of the family and that will never change.They don’t care about me.So…If my own family doesn’t care for me then who else would care?
How much I wish to get out of that house and do something on my own!
I have two options:Try to make a change or Kill myself
I don’t know how I’ll end up
I finally found a way to end my miserable existence and I could not be happier. My mother knows how depressed I have been and wanted to “Just get away from things” so she has signed me up for a hiking camp. I could not be more excited. We’re going to go cliff-climbing and I can’t wait. I plan to jump from one of those cliffs. My depression cannot be cured with words or actions, only miracles. I can’t wait to pass onto the final frontier. I no longer care if that will be endless nothingness or a vast new dimension for my broken soul. […]
I know I’m new here, but I just want all of you to know that I’m always here to listen to anyone, just email me. Even if you don’t think it’s important and you think no one would care, it will be important to me. Heck it can just to say you ate something for lunch or something to distract you. I want to do anything I can to make you feel better. If you just want someone to yell at / get your story / day / whatever out (part of the reason I joined the site), just put at the top that you […]
So you want to end your life? You think there’s no hope? Read this.. if this doesn’t change your perspective, talk to me … I CARE.
Before you decide to take your life, imagine who will find you. Imagine them walking into a room, and seeing you just hanging there. Whether it be your little sister, little brother, mother father, grandparents, a friend. Imagine what will happen when they find you. No, they will not say “Finally, they’re gone.†No, they will not say “I’m happy they did that.†No, they will not say “I never loved them […]
I don’t think I will amount to anything. I feel as though, there is no hope for me. With my condition, no one will stay around enough to love me. I drive everyone away. I can’t find people to love me and stay by my side to help me through this. I am at a loss…I feel like I amount to nothing. I am being selfish. I know there will be people who will need me if I stay alive, but…there’s reason to die. Everyone I loved, I drove away. I am harsh when I’m upset. I hate myself afterwards. I can’t decide if I […]
I don t feel like talking with anybody but yet i came here. Nothing bad recently happened i just don t feel the same. Everything is just so ordinary and unimportant and i can t find anything that satisfies me. I clearly got off the tight track again. without no particular reason. I was out yesterday and i got drunk, pretty pathetic but i do it every now and then to feel better or to forget things but i guess it has the opposite effect now. Anyway i was annoyed with something small which i don t even remember now. i took my things and […]
Its almost the summer, and i feel alittle paniced. Ive decided i would like to die in the summer time, none of my friends will every know im gone next year at school. However life has basically just put an obsticle in my way. my best guy friend, i now have feelings for. maybe i even love him?(even puppy love) Its taring me in two. a part of me wants him BAD. I feel jealous when i see him with other girls, when he posts heart on other girls walls. I want him so bad and i dont know why. I just want to kiss […]