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Today, I die

by SeasOfBlue 7/11/2014

written by SeasOfBlue

I’ve decided it. I’m going to die. I have a bottle of pills right here beside me. I just wanted to let somebody know. So that I wouldn’t be alone. Not more than I already am, anyway. I thought about posting on Facebook, but I wouldn’t want the two people who would actually see it to worry.

I suppose while I’m at it I might as well tell my story. Don’t worry, it won’t take very long. I’m 16 years old and female. My name is Lucy. I was born on April 18, 1998. To think at that moment in time I had no problems in life. […]

7/11/2014 63 comments

Suicide Note

by Astoriesend 7/10/2014

written by Astoriesend

“I’ve walked through this life never having the intention to hurt anyone or to anger anyone. I’ve walked through this life trying to make friends, not enimies. I’ve always tried to put a smile on everyone’s face so they will never have to know the pain and suffering I went through. I went through this life thinking that if I seen someone that looked like they were going through what I was, I’d do anything to make their day better. Because I believed that I should do more good in this world than the evil I have done. I feel like I accomplished that. There […]

7/10/2014 0 comment

The Chase

by Aryl 7/9/2014

written by Aryl

There are some things that I cannot let go of.

I want answers from those who will not give me any.. not now, not ever.

Desperation washes over me whenever I think of ‘back then’ and the truth is that I’m not sure that what I remember is what happened because I was so young at the time. All I want is for those who were involved to ‘fess up for once in their lives, but I know deep down that it will never happen.

So, for the past few years I’ve been trying to forget.

Each hour now pasts like a dream – so detached from reality – […]

7/9/2014 1 comment

a suicide poem

by Talisen 7/4/2014

written by Talisen

I Am Sorry

For all I’ve antagonize take pleasure as i agonize over my slow painful death and I say. I am sorry!

for those I have wronged my pain is prolonged I just want them to know. I am sorry!

for every second you waste on my stupid mistakes i am sorry

for every penny you spent on a life that I went, and wasted I am sorry

now that I’m gone I hope you move on and please… don’t remember me just know I am sorry

7/4/2014 0 comment

I’m Free, out and back

by LifeafterDeath 7/3/2014

written by LifeafterDeath

2 months lost Inside a few small rooms, surrounded by rabid humans claiming they were helping me. Bastards, it was hell, but i’m finally free. Last thing i remember doing before was networking with you fine folk 🙂

….. But it’s been a while so i imagine everyone i spoke to on here is dead now 🙁

Still, How you guys doing ?????????

108 – 23- 815

7/3/2014 5 comments

i cant anymore

by velvetmorning 6/30/2014

written by velvetmorning

I am just tired I am so sorry.

I hate the smell of my own family nowhere is home for me

They tried to make me ok but the damage is done. Interacting with them does not make ne feel warmth or joy or anything at all i feel like i do not have a family. They became strangers. I am a disappointer in every sense but my sister isnt she is small and fragile and beautiful i hope she can be everything i failed to be. Baby you are a fairy abd im past the age of believeing them so trust me you truly are

I had […]

6/30/2014 1 comment

i want to help u

by ronal007 6/29/2014

written by ronal007

There was a time when i posted my sad story on this forum.To be honest i never want to remember those moments again in my whole life. But I definitely want to remember and thanks to this forum, that today i am a better person.

I met somebody through this forum who really helped me to overcome those bad days. I would like to do the same with people out here. I want to help you all and make you feel comfortable. I want you all to know that i will always be there if anyone needs me then feel free to msg me on inhellut@gmail.com

6/29/2014 2 comments

How Long?

by carhayes 6/28/2014

written by carhayes

How long until it gets better? I have struggled with bipolar depression for the last 2 years, severely. I wake up and I think about dying, I go to sleep and I think about dying. I just moved so I don’t have a therapist or psychiatrist yet but I have had both and went to them both every single time. Therapy once a week and the psychiatrist as needed. It’s not like I have done nothing to fix me… I even admitted my OWN self into the hospital to get better. I’m still sooooo severely depressed. No matter what I do it has not seem […]

6/28/2014 3 comments

I hate people

by PainNlife 6/25/2014

written by PainNlife

I hate people. I hate living and I hate existing. No matter how much good you do for folks? EVIL always has the upper hand…remember that…evil always wins…for now.

6/25/2014 0 comment

WouldAnyoneMissMe?

by xoxo02 6/24/2014

written by xoxo02

I wonder if anyone would miss me if I died. I mean like really miss me. There is always a certain sadness that comes with death. I think its the permanence of it and the unknowingness that makes it really sad. Even the death of someone you don’t know or a family pet is sad, so theres no doubt that my death with be sad for some people. But I wonder if people will remember me and miss me. Like a month down the road will one of my friends see something that reminds them of me and think about me? Will they wish I […]

6/24/2014 2 comments

Wednesday is The Day

by ClairDeLune 6/23/2014

written by ClairDeLune

So some of you may remember one of my earlier posts where I talked about my jogging group and this girl I talked to. Even though the first time it was pretty awkward, we had some nice conversations over the last few times. And she even smiles or laughs sometimes when I say something funny (at least when I say something, I don’t say a lot though). And sometimes she falls back or speeds up to run next to me even if we’re not saying anything. And she always smiles and says good bye after the jogging. I know I suck at interpreting those “signs” […]

6/23/2014 18 comments

by Society_killed_me 6/20/2014

written by Society_killed_me

no one knows what am going thru, life is just one big fucking joke to me and no one cares. i cry myself to sleep every night. I’m so fucking useless that y everyone walks out of my life. They dnt care about me. as soon as i die everyone will be so glad im gone. thats if they even remember i exist

6/20/2014 1 comment

That haunting memory.

by GroundedAngel 6/19/2014

written by GroundedAngel

I’m new and I just want to say, this is to get my thoughts down on paper but nor bottle them up or keep them as secrets.

I’ll go ahead, without sugar-coating it. I’m an ex rape victim.
Which is funny, I don’t get why it’s known as being an ex victim. It scars you mentally and emotionally and sometimes physically, but I guess it’s happened and it’s not happening anymore. When I was younger, I can remember being put to bed at the house of my grandmother’s on their bed and when I woke up I was crying and my legs […]

6/19/2014 3 comments

A suicide note; The final act- decided and will be done soon.

by LovingLife 6/17/2014

written by LovingLife

I’m off with the world, things have gotten so much worse in a couple of days; my remedy – the last working medicine gives me no avail anymore. Chest pains and the difficulty to breathe is too much. Have to get to my car and end it in a matter of days.

Why does this unjustified destiny come across for someone who has no reasonable desire to kill himself otherwise than that of the irreversible condition – and a deadly one of course. This will be hard on my family, but I’ve ruined almost every relationship beforehand already – love and hate for all, I believe […]

6/17/2014 37 comments

I feel confused

by lolzmay 6/16/2014

written by lolzmay

It’s been 19 days.

The medicine I’m on seems to have taken away the so familiar feeling of sadness I’ve had for as long as I can remember. The change is so sudden that I feel like I’ve been stripped of a part me, I part I loathed but at the same time loved. How is it possible that now that my depression is on the way to being cured, I don’t want it gone?

It’s as if I would rather stay with my roller coaster of a life then be happy. Do I really hate myself so much, or is it just her ensuring I never […]

6/16/2014 0 comment

by Joker1911 6/16/2014

written by Joker1911

Take everything in stride and try to enjoy everything for what it is. I understand it’s easier said than done. But take that risk of believing and never giving up anything that’s worth it.Things will run their course and just remember when things get bad from darkness comes light and most importantly always remain yourself never lose sight of you.

6/16/2014 0 comment

Only emotion no logic works

by addicted 6/11/2014

written by addicted

It actually not matters if people remember me or not after my death. does it?

but why most of people use their emotion than their logic in this case?

6/11/2014 1 comment

Hell here I come

by LovingLife 6/7/2014

written by LovingLife

Music from the game Diablo, very “hellish” and creepy as it can get, I bet if there were music in the underworld it would sound like this.

Some thoughts:

I can see what you see not
vision milky then eyes rot
when you turn they will be gone
whispering their hidden song
then you see what cannot be
shadows move where light should be
out of darkness, out of mind
cast down into the halls of blind

and another:

So this is hell. I’d never have believed it.
You remember all we were told about the torture-chambers,
the fire and brimstone, the “burning marl.” Old wives’ tales!
There’s […]

6/7/2014 0 comment

Suspended ghosts

by khajiit 6/5/2014

written by khajiit

I still remember the glint of your eyes, the vibration of your pale irises, the pinch of your cheeks as your transfiction deepens, god I remember it all. What you were staring at is lost to me, and the absence of such an essential detail carves the hollow caves of my heart even deeper. Your mouth is curved, poised to speak but frozen in the grasp of your captivation. What you meant to say is suspended on your tiny lips, like a bird furled in its cage, the door open but caught on its jutting wing, so close to being liberated yet restrained by itself. […]

6/5/2014 1 comment

Don’t remember….

by The_red_fairytale 6/3/2014

written by The_red_fairytale

I don’t remember what it’s like, not to have a scar insight.
Tell me where I went wrong in life.
I don’t remember when I didn’t cry myself to sleep at night.
The nightmares seem to follow me.
I can’t remember a time I was actually alright.
What’s wrong with me?
When did my pain become so visually seen?
The scars are showing my history.
When did my brain turned on me?
I can’t look in the mirror anymore, because i’m afraid of what I’ll see.
Tell me when everyone turned their back on me?
They can’t see the darkness inside me.
When did I […]

6/3/2014 12 comments

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