I don’t think it’s right to pray for anything you wouldn’t be willing to do yourself. So if you’re not willing to kill yourself, it’s probably not right to pray for death.
That said, I don’t always do what’s right. Sorry, God.
im tired of being tired im exhausted at this point il never be perfect or beautiful il always feel like an inconvenience and i no im stronger than this but right now i dont have the energy to fight this dark negativity
No horny white boy, i do not want to see your penis
no horny white boy i do not want to exchange pictures
Yes horny white boy i do not want anything between us
No that does not mean come closer, be warned i have scissors
No horny white boy that does not mean i am a racist
No horny white boy this is not because your white
Horny white boy i wouldn’t take penis pictures regardless
No horny white boy just because your white does not make you right
I feel like I’m slowing down. Everything sounds distant or submerged in water. My vision blurs in and out of focus. I have no energy to do anything, not that I want to anyway.
Is this what dying feels like?
I have yet to find someone who tolerates me talking in metaphors, or even enjoys me doing it.
Regardless of all this, I’m still here, so maybe that counts for something.
I spent a large portion of this afternoon running my fingers over the scar on my throat, or staring at it in the mirror. A wound that by every right should have killed me. No one can live […]
What if I did it. Right now. It would be so fucking easy. Nothing eloquent this time, just a myriad of pain and an option out tonight. Why can’t I be the one this time. I will write my own ended for a story that was never my own.
Do you guys have a suicide plan tucked away? Like something you keep in mind in case things go south, even if you’re doing great right now?
Just to clarify I just want to know if you do or not, I don’t want to know any plan details, it’s against the rules.
Don’t trust me.
I will make you believe that I am happy. I will make you believe that I have my shit together and my life is perfect. I will make you believe that everything is going on my favor. I will make you believe that I enjoy being around my family and friends. I will make you believe that I am in love with life, nature and sun. I will make you believe that I always look forward to parties and hangouts. I will make you believe that I’m the kind of person who wants to live as long as possible when the truth is […]
life is boring , boring life. why movies , games , anime / manga, & fantasy / imagination is better than life / real life / real world / reality ?
everyday life is the same : wake up, eat, go to school/work, boring, then go back home, eat, then sleep, then repeat again.
but movie / game / anime / manga / comics / books are much more exciting & interesting than this boring life !
for example: like in the world / universe of Harry Potter, Avatar, Lord of the Rings, Narnia, Marvel / Marvels, Avengers, X-Men, Divergent / Insurgent , Star Wars, The […]
I really don’t feel right posting to something like this. I’ve been in a mood like this many times before, and it’s always completely unsolicited. I have no reason to be depressed – it just happens. I’ve considered reaching out for help or something like that but every time I search up something like this, I see all these stories about people who have serious issues in their lives – child abuse and horrible things like that. I don’t have anything like that at all. The only “circumstantial” reason for my depression is loneliness, which is completely caused by myself. I think I’ve recently gotten to […]
its a descent into madness, the told me so
oh will you please not go
the journey down was a quick little trip
you fall when you slip
i tried to get out but i was held down
we told you to stick around
the padded cell was almost complete
there words were laced with deceit
we only want to help you they cooed
did they know that lying was rude?
i felt so violated when the smiled
there teeth were all filed
this will be quick the assured me
it would be better if they just killed me
that’s not the right attitude to have
oh darling, according to you i’m mad
See that little girl? Her names Avery. She’s my baby sister. She’s my biggest reason for living. I absolutely dread the day that she starts thinking for herself. As soon as that happens, my father will abandon her just like the rest of us. All 8 of us. She is the epitome of innocence and love and I can only hope that her mother comes to her senses and leaves my dad. She was a good parent to the 3 kids she had before they got […]
I’m so freaking done with life. What’s the point of staying here? I’m so sick and tired of hearing “God has a plan for you” the plan I want is to die right now. I can’t do this anymore.. No one cares..
Thought I’d share this…I was extremely depressed at the time, suicidal even. But mostly I wrote this for fun.
The following is a short story I wrote just for fun. It’s a true story and it’s about myself. If you’re bored, go ahead and take a look. I think that if you’ve ever tried online dating you’ll be able to relate. This is sometimes how it feels…
I’m not used to this kinda thing, you know. Not at all. I’m pretty nervous, in fact. I’m nervous because she lives in Bolingbrook and I live in Chicago, and I’m meeting her for the first time at her house.
I’m […]
I just want to rant/vent
death doesn’t seem that bad right now ngl
So fucking sick of being treated like I can’t do a goddamned thing right. All I ever fucking do is try to make your ass happy. I’m supposed to be happy with you. You are my goddamned fiancée! The least you could fucking do is act like everything I fucking do for you is good enough. No all you ever wanna do is *****, and fuck, and drink. Make me feel like shit. It’s not like I’m not already depressed as fuck you’ve gotta tear me down every time I turn around. Tell me I’m fat, call me a *****, fucking yell at me for […]
I am 17 and have been suicidal from the age of 11. And I am just going to say that all of you need to stay strong. No matter what happends either talk to someone about it or just try to forget about it. I‘ve tried commiting suicide 4 times.
And to be honest I am tired too, I want to kill myself every day. I might have friends but they have enough of problems without even dealing with me. My boyfriend barely talks to me anymore after I told him about everything.
My parents don’t give a shit about me and my siblings have enough of problems.
I […]
I’m a relatively successful woman–if by successful you mean I have great friends, supportive family, enough money to get by. I may not have a ludicrous career at 32 years old, but I’d like to think I’m okay even if I get jealous over younger, more successful people all the time.
But I hate myself. I go out and have a fun time, I think I look pretty at times, there are also times I think I’m on the top of the world.
I’ve always hated myself for as long as I remember. I remember being 10 years old, thinking that I should be killing myself because […]
i realized i am not alone with my slightly suicidal feelings, loneliness, and sadness. If worst comes to worst and there is no afterlife, at least there is peace at the end right? And if there is a heaven, I think God would open his arms after us suffering so greatly. its rough, but hey, thats the truth. last year i dealt with some pretty rough stuff, and i hope it may get better. I learned alot about my illness, and realize there are many others out there with things, and are too poor to have them fixed. i feel better than i did last […]
Think about it –
DENIAL – death can’t be final right? god is in control right?. We need someone that will save us. We think – this can’t be all there is! our suffering must have a purpose right? Were gonna be in a better place after we die right? my grandpa is in heaven and his body is not his anymore but just a shell right?
ANGER – God why are you not listening to me? I been praying and trying to be a good person! fuck you!
BARGAINING – To me this what prayer is! I promise god ill be a good person if you help […]