I feel better than I did. I needed to get all that out. I’ve picked up drinking over the last several months. That helps a lot. I don’t want to destroy myself, just feel better. I have received some good news/bad news a few days ago. I can’t think of suicide right now. I have no other option but keep going despite what I’m feeling inside… I’m not sure that I can do this. I am positive that I will be back to this place again. I spent a really long time debating this decision…
So feed up with life right now, I’m tempted to just end it all but since nothing seems to be working for me right now, it probably wouldn’t work anyways! 🙁
im here for you if you need it, so you can email me liliananicole67@gmail.com im going through a lot right now but if you need help or just want to talk im here for you
I want to leave this world but I am afraid of what might be next, it could be worse. I mean I am a believer but I don’t understand a lot about it, like why is the punishment so severe? I mean no matter what you’re guilty of, an eternal punishment on any level doesn’t seem right, I mean time here is so finite, and any thing you did wrong should in enough time be cleared but eternal damnation?, and for many all they did was get depressed and off themselves, I mean shouldn’t there be some sort of limit to the punishment? Suppose I […]
Or I’m gonna kill myself….right now!!
Ok maybe not…but ..just.. Idk!
i have no life and im trying not to fall into depression and suicide and stuff right now. anybody wanna talk about whatever?
Can this pen bring you to me? Pushed away from the freeze…and the long hanging feelings that call out for freedom.
Will this time stand aside, this time took from me just to give it all back again?
Is it right to cry? Is it right to cry for me? Said, this fight might be ours but it all falls to a place that we’ve failed to see.
And so, she lifts me
And so, she lifts me
That’s right, she lifts me now..if you can’t see for yourself..see?
I couldn’t hold back those dreams..cause you were there begging me so nice. And I still […]
Hi all,
First, thanks for reading. I don’t have anyone to talk to, so strangers on the internet seemed reasonable.
I am 37 years old. Diagnosed bipolar-II at 20. I’m not new to this. Usually I’m able to manage mood stabilization with my meds, but being a type 2, I trend toward depression.
Last year, my depression spiraled out of control. Starting in January, until it “peaked” mid-summer. My psychiatrist of ten years suggested much more aggressive treatment – I was assessed for and eventually underwent ECT (“shock treatment”). Apparently it really helped, but I have no memory for the month following the course of treatment.
For various reasons, […]
Several weeks ago in a reputable British publication, Lana Del Rey was quoted as saying “I wish I was dead already. . . I don’t want to have to keep doing this. But I am.”
Lana’s remarks, whether taken out of context or not, led to a massive backlash. People love her, or love to hate her. And then of course there are some who don’t know who she is and don’t give a fuck what she does or doesn’t say.
There’s people who put her down and dismiss her as a ‘faker.’ But who are they to decide what is real and is not?
My sister-in-law says […]
Yesterday I wanted to commit suicide so I cut sure it wasn’t on or near the vein but I cut. Today I wanted to commit suicide so I cut right below the veins and I felt yeah I’m better now. But then the future came and my other side said “well today is pleasant isn’t it” and I thought yeah it is. “Well think about this if it is pleasant why are you still here shouldn’t you be dead anyways no one would care” so I thought ya he’s right. So I did I cut right on the veins deep deep into them I watched […]
Title says it all.
I get so damn nervous sometimes when I’m around people
and even when I’m not, I’m constantly waiting and thinking about just being alone, just getting through the socializing, so I can have time to myself.
well right now I won’t have time to myself at all for a couple of days
and it’s freaking me out
I had an awful meeting with my doctor, but for some reason I feel much much better now. Adrenaline has taken over my body. I will probably crash later, but I feel fucking amazing right now.
Not even sure why I’m posting this. I have absolutely no reason to not end my life right now.
An Overall Feeling Of Untapped Anger Ludicrous Expression Of My Burning Nauseous Stomach And Dissociation That Pierces My Soul And The Lust Of The Universe A Sedated Feeling Of Sorrow Contempt And Hatred Low Octave Starvation And Slow Sweet Whispers Of Foreboding.
I’ve lost it. I’ve gone completely insane. I had stuff here, now it’s gone. Maybe it’s for the best. Maybe it never happened. I have a hard time thinking. It’s impossible not to sound like a whiny, punk ***** when I try to explain my situation. I come off as pretentious, hypocritical and mean-spirited. Maybe I am. Sorry for the spam, but I just […]
”Why are you measuring me? Thank you sir, but I don’t need a new suit.” – He’s the undertaker…
– I ran into your ex today…. with my car.
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I WANT TO DIE. Right fucking now. It never gets any better I swear. My soul is bleeding from exhaustion. I am so tired, so bored of trying. I can’t take it. I want to close my eyes and never wake up. I’m just waiting for the right day to do it. I can’t take another winter. Fuck this […]
Yeah..it’s hard..
Physically I’m not doing well at all, even though I’m trying my best. I don’t know if I’ve ever had to try this hard before.
I’m grabbing the box of tissues for this one.
In the days since my wife left me, I’ve been on a steady decline with my weight and dehydration and seriously, I’m trying my hardest to keep it up. I’m a total mess so I can’t cook or clean for myself right now, but I need to eat. So I have to go out…
I went to breakfast this morning, by myself. Going with anyone right now is completely […]
Still angry at myself for going back on my promise of no water. I’m going to probably what’s seemingly rambling but I need to get things off my chest. I got a message asking me about medications. I’ve been doing medications since I was in my early teens and NONE of them have helped they just leave me walking around like a zombie. Its amazing how many people can use the word “unstable” towards someone and not realize how much that word can hurt. Truthfully, YOU never knew of my bi-polar disorder, why? because I”M FUCKING ASHAMED of it. Then people use that word that […]
Work stresses me, but being home triggers me. I’d rather be at work right now
I hope no one takes offense to the “Nuts” line.
Humor’s my go to when I’m trying to cover up my true feelings.
This is my first post.
Actually, I didn’t even know this site existed until about an hour ago.
Well, here it goes…
I’m 28 years old. I’ve struggled with depression & anxiety since I was a child. When I was a teenager I cut my wrists (not deep). I don’t think I wanted to die. […]
What am I leaving behind when I’m gone? What are the resonance I’ll be missed? Oh, right. There aren’t any