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Sadist

Obsessed to be something else?

by Leafa0910 4/13/2018

written by Leafa0910

Hi… So… Uh… Well, maybe it’s not really related to suicide at all but… Have any of you ever, like, unconsciously forcing yourself to be sad? To be hated? To be… You know. Kind of suicidal? Cause I surely have. I guess.

Oh boi. How do I even start this. I don’t really know exactly when did this starts but… I mean, I’m not depressed or anything like that! Seriously, I’m normal and healthy af. But for some reason, lately I’ve been trying hard to hurt myself, I’ve been trying to suck all the negative emotion inside me, I’ve been trying to make everyone […]

4/13/2018 2 comments

The Cut That Started It All

by DarkWeasley 5/30/2014

written by DarkWeasley

To be honest with you, I don’t remember the first time I did it. I never really cut at first.. It was more like scratching. I used to get my key and scratch my arm with it. It hurt… That was all I wanted at the time. That began over a year ago.

Why did I do it, you may ask..? Well I felt so helpless, I had no control over anything in my life and I thought that it would help, but it was more than that too! I felt numb. Nothing made me feel anything, but when I scratched myself, I felt pain… And […]

5/30/2014 1 comment

I want everyone to suffer

by Commodus 5/9/2013

written by Commodus

I really do. I’m a sadist. I get off on hurting people and torturing people.

I have never felt happiness in any real sense, in any sense YOU would understand. But fear, the atmosphere of terror after some horrible event, the way fear creeps through a small community after a murder, I LOVE that.

I recall, one day I was walking home from work – slow, dejected, tired – I saw news of a local murder and some grim new details of it. And I instantly perked up, I thanked God for such bloody work and walked home with a spring in my step.

And I think this […]

5/9/2013 24 comments

AtTheEnd

by Tormenting Dreams 5/7/2013

written by Tormenting Dreams

dear AtTheEnd- im not going to judge you, seriously i dont judge you. being on a site like this with some many pretty girls does drive ones libido up, and yes its nice to look at the nude body of someone you know. and hey i flirt around and act a perv, and yeah i have had people send me nude pics. but i didnt pester them as much as i have heard you have done. and until recently i thought you were only doing it to one girl but now i know you have done it to several and probably still are. WT and […]

5/7/2013 44 comments

I bet I’m the oldest person here

by whitefemale 1/18/2013

written by whitefemale

I’m so old and haven’t really had a chance to live.

I was abused as a child by people I trusted. I was raped as a teen for walking alone. I married to young to a sadist who would drug and rape me. Â He’d make videos and take pictures. But, since we are married,he owns me I guess. The police don’t care at all. He seldom left marks you could see. Â I don’t rememberÂ conceivingÂ two of my children.

So when I do leave,hoping for a better life I find that a year late everything is still shit and I just want to die. Â It wold stop all the […]

1/18/2013 8 comments

Sadist inside me

by Tormenting Dreams 12/19/2012

written by Tormenting Dreams

i have learned that i am very sadistic. hurting people brings me pleasure, and i really dont know why. i seems like im going down the same path of my fore fathers. it brings exseptional join when its people that are close to me. but still there are some people i dont not nor would not hurt. it only satisfies me for a very brief instant though, later i regret my decision. and i do sincerly feel bad. but still the cycle repeats, until i have no one left. and i really dont want to be this way but on some occasions it seems inevitable.

but […]

12/19/2012 3 comments

That Feel

by YouAreNoLongerAlone 10/11/2012

written by YouAreNoLongerAlone

Everything seems like a good idea when you’re drunk…

I spared little emotion for my friends. none for my family. none for all those I had seen just the night before, there’s nothing that can have you writhing on the floor like angry pain blown up by a bottle of whiskey. but that’s who I was. This was any other night. just like the one a couple months ago where my friends rescued me from the police, just like the one the other week where I had rode a flight of stairs.

A text from the ex, oh yeah that woman who had left me for another […]

10/11/2012 4 comments

What kind of world do we live in?

by RogueShadow1281 7/3/2012

written by RogueShadow1281

Where words are used to make others feel like shit and break people’s spirits. Where actions are used to break people’s bones. Where people use others to make themselves feel better and get better things.Â

Where people have a materialistic view on everything. When someone acts different, then they are looked down upon. Society is fucked up. Why do we keep on trying to thrive? We cause others to feel more pain than pleasure. So much so that they can’t ever recover.Â

Why do we think that having someone living is much better than freedom through death? The basis of a democracy is to let people do […]

7/3/2012 0 comment

Psycho

by M. 2/11/2012

written by M.

I’m a FUCKING psychopath and I know it! I’m the sickest person you’re ever going to meet. I can’t remember the last time I felt the SLIGHTEST BIT of empathy. You don’t believe me? I don’t need you to. I’m a sick ***** who gets enjoyment out of other peoples pain. And my own pain as well. I’m a sadist who enjoys looking up serial killers and their ‘modus operandi’, the more horrible, the better. I manipulate people for my own enjoyment, still not convinced? I watched a real video of a real suicide (that was back when I wanted to kill myself, it was […]

2/11/2012 8 comments