So weve been in a relationship for 1 year and a half, when i had cheated her. Everything was so beautiful and we were the happiest couple alive. What happened was that, I had gone out with my friend to a trip and during this time there was a girl who became close to me and started flirting with me and holding my hand. I had no problem with it cause i did not know her intentions, it was later when i realized when she called me and held my hand and sat next to me and came closer to me and then she kissed […]
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Second Chances
I read a lot of people who have multiple suicide attempts, I don’t judge but I do feel genuine remorse. I think im different in that ive had one attempt which was nearly successful and had a shotgun as backup but when it was cocked and pointed I said “it don’t feel right yet”. this was Halloween night 4 years ago, my thoughts have not changed I still want to not be alive for as long as I remember (I don’t want to die, just prefer it over living) ive had happiness but still felt this way all except for a few months my girlfriend […]
I wish I could do it all over. I messed up so much and I feel the pain spilling out of me all the sadness and anger that I bottled up has found a way out. I don’t know if I will be alive tomorrow. I don’t even exist. I just a waste of space. I prayed but this time for others I won’t pray for help any longer it’s selfish. I just keep going I don’t even know how I got out of bed today. If I had a gun I would not think twice. I could die tonight why not? I have pills the […]
if your with someone and you find out they were talking to a crap ton of others girl for a while, when do you draw the line? he hasn’t talked to any of them in about three weeks but I’m constantly afraid he is going to start up again and then decide he likes one of those girls better. he has done it before, broke up with me for someone he just met an hour before breaking up with me. and I just found out he was watching one of the girls via web cam when she was horny. why does he do these things […]
That’s my question..will it get better? I don’t think I ever felt so depressed in my life before and it bothers me to no end because this isnt who I am. People who met me know me to be always smiling, cheerful, and over all happy but behind closed doors I’m a complete mess and just not myself. I wish I didn’t care about people as much as I do because maybe I wouldn’t give second chances to people who didn’t desereve it, maybe I wouldnt take everything to heart but in all honesty thats my biggest issue is that I take EVERYTHING to heart. […]
Hello, I’ve been gone a while.
but I’m back.
I’ve set a date. I’m going to go April 10th.
Yes, It’s a while away, but I still need to plan. Get everything together, have enough time to say goodbye and such.
I’m going to go by pills.
I’ve decided.
I’m tired of always being in pain, physically or emotionally, I’m very tired of it. And yes, I’ve tried therapy, I’ve tried anti-depressants, I’ve tried to have someone to depend on, but nothing’s working. I believe this is my destiny.
And I’m going to fulfill my destiny.
I know this is permanent, I’m aware.
And I feel empty. I feel okay […]