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by claritee 5/2/2016

written by claritee

I just broke down crying in front of my mom, I never cry in front of her.

Okay, so I know I talk my ex incessantly, but I never talk about my real pain. I am a caretaker for my 70 year old mother. I forgot to schedule her transportation (because she’s wheelchair bound) for an appointment she has had for months with her pain doctor.

My brain is scattered. I can barely put on my shoes and yet I am bogged down with EVERYTHING. I have to do everything under the sun for her because she is disabled. I also run a business at home and […]

5/2/2016 2 comments

sigh

by BrokenX2 4/23/2016

written by BrokenX2

Emotionally drained.

4/23/2016 3 comments

I’m such a failure

by disgusting 3/30/2016

written by disgusting

I haven’t had anyone do my taxes yet, as this week’s already been planned out for me, so I have to wait for next week to see if I can get one of the free spots for doing taxes. I tried to do it online and found that I’d owe $1000 to federal and $200 to the state, and why I don’t fucking know. It makes no sense. My boss says I make too little for taxes to be taken from my checks, so the gov won’t take anything week to week but expect $1000 in a lump fucking sum at the end of the […]

3/30/2016 12 comments

It’s back

by Drowning 3/27/2016

written by Drowning

I knew the good mood wouldn’t last like I said yesterday it wouldn’t last and it didn’t I’m back normal as I call it depressed as hell wishing Monday actually went as planned and well it’s the first day of summer with no plans not looking forward to it at all being suicidal is hard work not knowing when your last day will be u can act on impulse and not plan at any given moment and end up in hospital again I hope next time it’s in a body bag because life is hard and it’s not getting easier sigh

3/27/2016 46 comments

sigh…

by disgusting 3/9/2016

written by disgusting

So, it seems he has some skinny tiny girl interested in him. She’s of course not pretty. Way too gaunt and malnourished looking, but that’s what he likes. Anorexic and underweight. She looks young and she has two babies exactly 9 months apart and I guess no baby daddies in the picture. WHY must every man want these sluts just because they’re anorexic??? I’ve accepted that I was born to be alone and never have love in my life, but it still hurts to see my dream guy getting close to someone.

3/9/2016 9 comments

Another day

by Drowning 3/2/2016

written by Drowning

so tired I really don’t want to get up one part of me wants to give up the other part wants to push on I feel it’s goin to be one of them days I want it to end before its begins hopefully things change I hope the day runs smooth why is life so complicated sigh

3/2/2016 2 comments

Why?

by Zetsumei 2/14/2016

written by Zetsumei

Upon the edge of insanity,

flashing back to those fragments.

A silent voice screaming,

torn between desires to redo and destroy.

Various persona debating in mental court,

judge hanging by a thread.

Wanting to love yet accepting loneliness,

questions fire out.

“Should I play or sigh?”

To fight against myself or to protect,

that is the question.

Gay or straight,

it doesn’t matter.

Feminine guys or tomboyish girls,

both are fine.

In yaoi terms, fellow ukes or semes,

I’ll play both.

“Anyone daring enough to try?”

If yes, accept the demon or free the angel,

but understand this if the angel is wanted:

Be quick to free, lest the demon kill!

2/14/2016 0 comment

I just don’t know anymore

by Drowning 2/12/2016

written by Drowning

well to add to my mental state my doctor is sending me to get me checked to see if I have personality disorder which means I’ll have another mental Illness to add to the others great but will sort of explain why I find it hard to keep a relationship maybe because I don’t let people get to close but after 8 years u would think that u would be able to let someone get close well not me I always manage to sabatage anything that’s going well in my life iv become everything that I didn’t want to become im at a cross road […]

2/12/2016 2 comments

How do I not feel like shit?

by bah 1/16/2016

written by bah

I’ve had depression since I was 7.

I’ve had a shit life growing up.

I started getting sick when I was 23.

I was 28 when I got run over by a car. That moment was my ‘death.’

I haven’t been able to live a normal life since. My health is shit. My legs and hands don’t work like they should.

I’m always tired/sick/something going on with some part of my body.

I have no friends. I don’t have a significant other. Nobody wants to date or marry a semi-disabled person. Nobody wants to be friends with someone who is not healthy. Nobody my age understands what it means to be […]

1/16/2016 14 comments

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by disgusting 1/1/2016

written by disgusting

A depressing, lonely new year’s. I sent a facebook sticker animated kiss to the guy I like earlier today and he had to once again tell me to not read too much into it that he laughed, and to me that’s like he might as well say I’m too gross and disgusting to think about. I really don’t need reminders, and wish he didn’t have to say those things every time we do talk, as if I would forget that he’s never going to be mine and need to be reminded constantly? No, I don’t need the reminders. He doesn’t need to keep putting up a […]

1/1/2016 4 comments

Just weird …

by jadedkeizy 12/8/2015

written by jadedkeizy

I am a weird guy. I have weird preferences when it comes to entertainment, all the ideologies I embrace are contrarian, weird sexual tastes ( I am attracted to female hands), fucked up persona, socially inept. I feel like an outcast and I just don’t fit into society as a functional being.

ahh just wanted to vent my insecurities … sigh

….. and I think I am touch deprived … I need to touch shoulders with someone 🙁

12/8/2015 6 comments

Drink It Down

by Zetsumei 11/14/2015

written by Zetsumei

As I see a brief moment of clarity, it is gone in a sigh. No trip to Vegas is enough to get me to reconsider. This past, present and future, I want to destroy it all. I’ve decided to play a game of chance with my life. It is simple, just drink until it’s all gone. I wonder what my cards will say now. Will my fate be overseen by the Sun, Moon, Magician, World, Tower or perhaps, even Death. So, as I down the poison for this game, I’m listening to “Aoki Tsuki Mochite” by AKIRA, the ending theme for the third season of […]

11/14/2015 9 comments

Sigh, Why is Life So Sad & Depressing?

by bah 7/20/2015

written by bah

7/20/2015 0 comment

Down the Drain

by Numbme 6/10/2015

written by Numbme

I was longer than I’ve ever been without self harming. Yesterday made it exactly 2 months.. but it’s been so hard amd each day has been exhausting. Today I just couldn’t handle it anymore, and I cut. :'( Here it starts again….. sigh. I really can’t handle this much longer, literally

6/10/2015 0 comment

sigh

by Jaulos 5/14/2015

written by Jaulos

just introducing myself, not feeling life anymore, can’t have the woman I love as well, nor anything I like anymore. God damn me, sounds pathetic but just voicing myself as well,.

5/14/2015 1 comment

so i tried to kill myself less than an hour ago

by Khaliladivine28 2/18/2015

written by Khaliladivine28

didn’t work obviously. *sigh* this fucking sucks i dont want to be here and i refuse to be kept against my will in some institution with ppl who really dont care. they treat me like a pay check because to them i guess thats all i am. guess i’ll have to do it all over then…*ugh* T_T cant believe im so much of a loser that i cant even get death ryt!!! THIS IS SO FUCKING ANNOYING!!!

2/18/2015 2 comments

by Delisnak 11/17/2014

written by Delisnak

Yet again, I can’t trust anyone. My “friend” left me last night cause I told her what I trully was. She said she can’t be friends with someone who’s depressed and stopped talking to me all together. I just feel like shutting myself from the world and go mute. I’ll just talk in sigh language when I have to.just completely shut myself from the world and hopefully die before I’m 20 🙁

11/17/2014 3 comments

all of my friends…

by pxckll 11/13/2014

written by pxckll

i have none… no friends… not a single one that i can talk to or go hang out with regularly… my friends that i use to have dont speak to me anymore… 4 of them are dead… 2 died by suicide. 1 by heart failure. and 1 by motorcycle accident… im all alone… ive never really been a social person… i dont know how to make friends. im out of school and living with my careless bf and his family… im 18 years worth of nothingness… almost 19… *sigh* i fucking hate everybody i know… i wish to know someone else…

11/13/2014 1 comment

FeelingReadytoleave

by FeelingReadytoleave 9/2/2014

written by FeelingReadytoleave

.Im hoping to find some like minded people (just one person will be Enough)…who DONT think that suicide is wrong and who, like me, feel it can possibly be a very compassionate act to relieve a painful OR Unsatisfying Life. I want to go for reasons I can explain later but I havnt worked out all the details yet. So its not an exact immediate thing and fortunately Im not so miserable YET as to do ANYTHING to leave. If this resonates with anyone , I would very much appreciate speaking to someone like minded. I dont feel afraid at all of the […]

9/2/2014 2 comments

sigh…

by I-dont-love-right 8/4/2014

written by I-dont-love-right

It never gets easier does it?

8/4/2014 2 comments

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