I had an abortion. It was years ago. I must have just turned 18. THERE I said it. He was horrible. He..hated me and everything that I was. He was rich and I was poor. He was white and I’m..what I am. I couldn’t do it. He contacted me today to remind me of the anniversary. It tore me apart, the things he said about status, and wealth.
I’m not sure if this is an explanation of why I should never reach senior status, or a depiction of why I want to.
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The way I perceive reality is troubling. I don’t know if it’s that I have an unrealistically bleak outlook, or that I’m too emotionally weak to accept the truth. But it’s hard to get my head around.
It seems to me that humans are evolved to seek advantage in whatever way we can. We find our place within the social structure, and then develop ways of pursuing power and status. These ways can be hugely diverse and obscure, but what links them all is some demonstration of fitness. Maybe we cultivate our appearance. Our sense of humour. Athletic prowess. Our knowledge. Or our artistic talent. Our […]
Not being sexist but most men want a women that is slightly beneath them and I think relationships that have a clear order work best. Women follow and men are leaders. I suggest finding a man that is slightly above your own status, smarter than you by a hair, and respects you. You will get bored with a man that doesn’t keep you on your toes. I think it’s very important for a woman to have a strong man. All the miserable women Ive ever met were dominant over their man. A man that doesn’t have his balls isn’t a man. If you think he’s […]
I had to change the music, but it’s already all too late. If I were in it’s stability, it would be like writing a book status as I sit. I’ve already said every words. The dungeon that I am battling. But no-one will ever know. The destination . . . isn’t coming back. Attacked, from every which way . . . The name of a dark one makes his name and view down deeper and clearer. The ten-year cycle that my mom told me about, it isn’t over. The hardest thing, it exist now . . . But what is it. This night shall disappear, […]
I don’t expect you to understand,
no one ever does.
Our own mental status should be controlled by our own hands.
We are all condemned to death,
so why are we just sitting around?
Like ticking time bombs,
why not handle our own miserable lives,
instead of allowing others to choose our fate.
We haven’t heard from Januray…But.. I missed all these people who doesn’t know how much I love them.. Maybe they aren’t perfect to someone else,bu to me you are perfect just the way you are. I love you guys,all of you.
My status,of emotions are distroyed.Of health so much better,but I still feel empty. And if someone is willing to share their story can send me a mail on lanamajetic33@gmail.com . I will always be there for anyone of you. I can’t say it will be better,maybe it won’t be like you want. You have to stay strong. I sound like my therapist. haha. I […]
I have only four true friends at the moment. Trying to make new friends for me use to be so easy… now not so much.
Anyways, I made a Facebook status, just thanking my four true friends for staying by my side no matter what.
My old ‘best friend’ saw it, seeing I didn’t include her. Note that I didn’t include her because  she never speaks to me, she makes promises she NEVER keeps, and she tries to invite me and our other best friend to her house, only to ditch us last minute.
I got tired of how she treated me, so I just kind of stopped […]
I write my vent status’s on facebook in a different language. if someone does translate it…why don’t they comment? do they want to and just don’t have the guts. or do they not care…
I hate this.
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