Well, I don’t like to say the word “suicide” because it has always had negative connotations in my life. My family is comprised of a bunch of cold-hearted, sarcastic Argonauts with strong wills and drive, so we see suicide as pathetic. And the twist: I’ve felt suicidal since day one. The inner conflict of the way I was raised and the way I feel is certainly nothing short of overwhelming. I’ve always wanted different things from the people around me and consequentially I’ve felt stifled, suppressed, and unwelcome in my environment for years. I have very few friends, and the ones I do have I […]
Confused. That’s the feeling which describes me the most. I’m male, 22, and I’m currently engaged in a Master Degree. I had depressions before, I also had suicidal thoughts before, but I never tried it. I don’t fear my death, on the contrary, the idea itself is very pleasant to me, but I simply can’t decide wether I kill myself or not.
I know I’m responsible for all mistakes I’ve made. Problem is that I’m the failure. I feel like I shouldn’t stay alive because I’m a pain for everyone who surrounds me. I do have some friends, my parents are divorced, but fine, and they […]
Self-immolation refers to setting oneself on fire, often as a form of protest or for the purposes of martyrdom or suicide. It has centuries-long traditions in some cultures, while in modern times it has become a type of radical political protest. Michael Biggs compiled a list of 533 “self-immolations” reported by Western media from the 1960s to 2002, though in this work his definition is generalized to any intentional suicide “on behalf of a collective cause.”
So I was thinking a lot about my life…and how it turned out so far. Everyone that I know thinks I live such a good life, or atleast should. I have such a nice house, live in literally the nicest neighboorhood, have two parents, perfect grades, colleges asking ME to apply to THEM, own my own car, work at an IT job that pays a lot, have perfect skin….
And yet that brings me no joy, I’m missing the happiness from it all. I don’t want that. What am I leaving out from what I already said? Oh yeah…how I was raised in the hood, or […]
I’m fairly new to these kind of sites so i’m sorry if this post isn’t perfect, but I could do with some help..
Since about June 2012, I’ve been battling with depression, and not the stereotypical depression, real depression. The kind where you feel shitty for no reason sometimes, like there’s no escape, feeling so lonely when you’re in a world with 6billion people…
What caused it? Truthfully, a lot of things just fell down around me: exam stress, nasty rumours going around, the only girl I’ve loved doing unimaginably awful things and saying such nasty stuff to me (many will point at this, but it wasn’t the sole […]
Were all connected by some unseen bond, were all so sad and all want to be gone. We all have this feeling of everlasting dread, of waking up and getting out of bed. We all kongrgate at this one haven, a place where even the worst life can be saven.This is the Suicide Project, a site that saved my life. This site has shown me the light, and given me a will to fight.
Last year during the summer I gave myself a deadline. If I could get better and find hope I would live, otherwise I chose a date to die, that date was today, […]
I am 13. I don’t have a really sad story about being raped or having drug addict parents. which makes me feel like i honestly dont have a reason to feel depressed. but here i am. I dont know how it all started. but i remember a year ago when i started in a team for my favourite sport. i’m not going to say what it is because along with my name, it is very uncommon and i feel like that someone who knows me might read this. anyways, you might think, oh wow thats a really good thing! but only a few people did […]
I never thought I could feel this way. Missed connections. That alone was the miraculous thing. How and why did it turn out this way… I will never understand.
Hello! They say writing and sharing your experiences can be therapeutic, and in my case that is especially true. So, today I thought I’d take a moment to sit down and have a little chat with all of you.
My story really begins about 8-9 months ago. I was going through a rough time, I had just found out I have a lump in my spine. In the past years I have been diagnosed with:
Reynauds Disease
Fibromyalgia
Osteoporosis (in my neck)
Osteoarthritis (neck, again)
Heart Arrhythmia
Severe Insomnia […]
I’ve been silently suffering for a while now. I have had thoughts about killing myself several times, but they mostly hit late at night, which is when i feel most alone. I’ve pushed everyone in my life out and i’ve secluded myself from a lot, but not on purpose, it just kind of happened. I’ve lost a lot of people, and i feel like if i just did it and wasn’t such a coward i’d be in a much better place. I’m afraid of doing it because i don’t know what happens next, but i’m sure whatever happens next after that, is a lot better […]
Somewhere life has nothing left for me,
Some how everything’s taken over,
There’s nothing left for me to be,
Nothing to keep me under…
Old and slow decayed is,
All this man has obeyed,
So tired and displaced,
Ill still run on and on misplaced…
All my dreams, never come true…
Is it so hard to ask for a father’s love,
When a cold stone is all I feel?
Hard rock against my chest,
Cold stones, all depressed,
All I ever see,
Are a load of broken dreams
Maybe Jesus Christ will come over,
Right when Hell freezes over me,
Maybe you can cry your way,
When your […]
My name is Luke, and I want to share my suicide experience with you, for any chance of reading and really making you think about the decisions you are about to make.
Before I begin, remember that I do not know you, and it is your choice and yours only to take your life. It is a natural feeling to feel like this, and don’t let people tell you otherwise…they’re either in a shock state or they’ve missed a dose of their anxiety pills.
Anyways, now to start…
I had just started senior year, I was 17, had the girl of my dreams, was playing in a band, […]
I’m  done trying because things are just getting worst. I’m putting an end to my life tomorrow. I’m tired of crying and cutting. The pain is too much
I’m just so done 🙁
I feel like I’m slowly going crazy. I’m not sure how to explain it, but my mind feels different. I look at things differently. I don’t feel the urge to hurt anyone, not yet, but I feel like everyone would be better off.. gone. Sometimes, in public, I become so engulfed in my thoughts that I don’t notice the people around me. I try talking to close friends and my girlfriend about it, but no one seems to take me seriously. I have these dreams.. I’m walking down a street and it’s like the world is in my hands. It’s revolving around me and I’m […]
I’m 16 years old. I’ve been suffering from manic depression. I get bullied at school for being quiet. I get called ugly, a *****, whore and so much more. What did I do??? Nothing. I don’t have the guts to talk to someones face about how much I hate myself. Honestly, I’m pretty much that girl that no one knows until she commits suicide. Then, suddenly everyone had a class with me..it sucks. My dad is abusive and my mom and I are scared to death. Never knowing what he will do to us next. He emotionally abuses me and physically. I don’t have many […]
I’m the girl nobody knows until she commits suicide. Then suddenly everyone had a class with her.
Who Am I? Someone No One Loves. What Am I? A Girl Who Everyone Will Judge. What Did I Do? Honestly, I Don’t Have A Damn Clue. Why Me? I Am Never Complete. Suicide? Overwhelms My Mind. Thoughts Of Dying? Yeah, About A Million Times. Tried Suicide? I Overdosed One Time. Did It Help? No, I Didn’t Die. That’s A Shame. See, I Can’t Do Anything Right. Wish You Were Dead? Always Crossed My Mind. I Hold My Breath.. And I Die. No More Pain? That’s My Plan. Everything Okay? Yeah, Now That I’m Dead..
Sincerely, Me
Who am I? I was born November 22nd, 1997. My parents?.. Ha, no. I didn’t have any. They abandoned me in a apartment all the time so they could go buy drugs! Why? I don’t know. Both of them had been in and out of jail multiple times. One day, while they were off getting drugs, I was at the apartment and neighbors heard me crying. They called the police… The police knocked on the door. No answer. They kicked down the door. I was taken away. I remember being in a cop car starring out the windows while it moved. I had no idea […]
Hey.
I am Kriss. 15. From Ohio. I’m a girl, btw. There are SO MANY posts wondering if people know how they feel, if they’re really alone. But please, listen to me!
You are never alone! You may not believe this, you may not care, but you have ME, GOD, FAMILY MEMBERS (yes I am sure you have at least one. If not a family friend or something like that) and other TRUSTED ADULTS. You are not alone. I know how it feels to be alone- I am one of those kids that constantly feels alone. But really we are not alone.
If you were alone, would these […]
It’s hard to admit there is something wrong. It’s hard trying to put all my emotions into words. It’s frustrating that I don’t truly understand what’s wrong with me, therefore it is difficult for others to understand. I lost the respect for my mother when I was in seventh grade. Freshman year my father hit me and choked me and my mother just watched. I stopped talking to my family completely because I knew they didn’t wanna hear what I wanted to say. I am a junior in high school now and I had to switch schools this past year. Have you ever felt surrounded […]