Honestly I don’t know what to do or how to feel. Life just keeps pushing me and shoving me and once I get knocked down I don’t have the strength to get back up. I hate when people try to help with their fake support. If they cared then why would they be the ones knocking me down? I hate the world. I don’t want to live here anymore. I want to stop feeling trapped, so trapped that I can’t physically breathe. It’s getting so hard to breathe.
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I went to a grief support group last night. It took me two weeks to find one that would take me. I live in a fairly large city (roughly 2 million), but yet every single place I called told me I didn’t belong there (except one.) I called hospitals, grief support groups, community mental health organizations, counselors (in fairness, they’d take me, at the tune of $90 and up and hour), and every referral service I could find on the internet. I even called suicide prevention, but they did not have any new names of organizations that I had not tried.
I explained the same thing […]
I never really had a good life. My brother and mom never listened when I needed them, and my dad left when I was three. Middle school was where it got really hard. Over and over kids would come up to me to spout some insult just for the kick of it. No one ever even asked if I was okay. I had to change my personality over and over to try and fit in, now I don’t even know who I am. High school was the turning point from bad to the worst. My dad tried coming back because I won some academic award, […]
I have a long life story for somebody my age (19). It is streaked with bullieng, harsh words and judgement. I can’t talk about that now. It will make me feel worse.
My mum is going to push me over the edge. A few weeks ago I self harmed really badly because of how far she took things. Screaming screaming. Calling me names.
I have spent the past few hours looking up ways to kill myself, and I landed up here. I’m not too sure if it will help. I’m not too sure what else I can do to help myself, to prevent myself from falling […]
So so tired. So so tired. So so very tired.
| Be still, child. Let nothing shaken your faith. You can get through this. I will be with you.
“But am I capable? Am I worthy? Can I help? How can I help? ” alas, I am but just a wandering soul.
Fall on me and I’ll support you.
But do I trust you enough? |
So.. I’ve beenn seriously contemplating suicide. I have so many support systems, but I’m just not sure if i can do this anymore. It’s too much
I have a weak heart because I had anorexia, and my doctor has to watch my potassium levels because of that. Too low, my heart stops beating. Too high and I have a heart attack. I’m incredibly depressed and I don’t know how to do this anymore. Should I kill myself? Is this suffering going to justify me checking out early? Does anyone know of your body will reject (throw up) an overdose on potassium? How do I make things […]
I found a supplier online who claims to sell ********. I emailed them saying I would like to order 1x 100mg of a ******** Solution for $450 (the price that they have mentioned). They requested that I transfer the money via Money Gram. I’ve never heard of Money Gram before let alone used it so I asked if I could pay via PayPal. They replied that PayPal have froze their account because they don’t support voluntary euthanasia. I did some research and there is no consumer protection for Money Gram as there is with PayPal. Do you think that I am being scammed? Or is […]
I’m bored and need friends. Chatting in person is pretty nice. So I’m wondering who here is from Reno or within reasonable distance. Maybe we can get a support group going here or just have coffee and try to feel “normal” for a little while.
Next friday is national coming out day and in my schools GSA we are sharing our stories… I don’t know what to do because I want to share for support but I don’t want my family to find out. After all my family is a bible thumping, gay hating, type of people.
you know what is SO fucked up? is that after someone commits suicide EVERYONE around the person is saying things like “oh she was such a great person” and “if she had only called i would have been there to listen, to help” but you know what? it’s fucking bullshit. i did what a suicide support website said – i reached out, far, on a limb and i thought hard of the smartest people i know, the people who have provided guidance and direction in the past. i decided to reach out to my aunt who i haven’t spoken to in over 10 years. i […]
I seriously do not know what I want anymore. There have been many times when I have a dream for my future and I have no support or confidence so I end up giving up on the dream and changing it. My mom wants me to do stuff that I do not want to do, I do not want to disappoint her, but FUCK! I want to do what I want to do! I have nothing! Now with all the stress my mom has brought down on me, and the stress of not knowing what to do with my future. I don’t want this, I’d […]
This 60 second video made me burst out into tears and change my entire perspective on humanity. It’s amazing how pure some people’s hearts are. PLZ WATCH!
Made Me Cry https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6KNCkuUOwoQ
^ this video is made by a youtuber that I do not support
It’s so hard. I know that suicide will hurt a lot of the people around me especially Tino. And Tino if you see this I’m sorry. I don’t mean to be another Alexis. I can’t take this depression and these thoughts anymore! Between the thoughts, depression, anxiety, my past, my present, my family, coming out to myself as gay, I can’t go on like this anymore! My wrists are scarred but covered by bracelets, my mind is killing me. My soul is already dead. I found out that not even people who are friends of my family would support me being gay. No one that […]
It may look like we have everything
Everything should be perfect so you can live the best life….
Wrong
Sometimes all you need is support and happiness
I can tell for some people, they have all that
As for me
I just want to be happy…
My last person for support has officially lost patience with me. I’m completely and utterly alone.
I’ve been doing much better since I posted on here last. It really helped talking to people that actually understood how and why I felt the way I did. It also made me realise that even people that don’t know me, care. They will take the time to discuss all the bad shit as to where your friends no longer have time for it and you just need to snap out of it . Anyways I just wanted to say thank you.
Basically, this is how it goes. My life has been pretty traumatic thus far. (Loosing my grandparents at age 10, my first girlfriend commiting suicide at 18, seeing so much violence) that kind of stuff.
Since then, I’ve felt myself growing slowly and slowly more numb, feeling less and less everyday. I don’t think love exists anymore, I’ve lost my faith and I just survive day to day basically.
To top this all off, I haven’t had much happiness to counter this. My family is sub par at best, never offering support. (By the way, I survived after my girlfriend killing herself without any professional help or […]
Hi everybody, my name is Dolunay 34y male.
I found myself in this website by chance, I’m not suicidal at all but it shocked me to see all these confused spirits, & it saddens me to see they have reached to this blocked way.
I love offering my help by listening (at least) & I promise to not misjudge or misunderstand, & I’d love to read from anybody. don’t hesitate to send to my email, I’ll reply gladly;
goods_maker@yahoo.com
love you all, have a nice day.
Dont let that Demon Suicide thought Zap you. I have found Talking or Asking for support helps heaps. I know its HARD trying to come out of Suicide Mode. But we Only live Once & Suicides a B*#$h
My boyfriend is the only one who I told I’m breaking,I think he’s forgotten though.
He just keeps getting mad and upset and frustrated wih me and he tells me I’m pushing him away and I tell him things about ex’s and he struggles too forgive me but I’ve forgiven him for so much that hes done in his past.
I need his support,but he’s forgotten I need it..but I don’t know how too tell him in a polite,non attention seeking way….I need him..I’m scared of losing control..