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Sweetheart
at twilight
you came to me
with glistening cheecks
& red eyes
gasping
trying not to cry
you hid new scars
under long hair
as you tilted your head down
because you don’t want
them to see you
you’re crying too hard
i think you don’t realize
how much i love you
you’re a train wreck, miss
but you try so hard
to fix your messed up life
but i want you to know
that it’s not your fault
you didn’t do this to yourself
sweetheart;
at twilight you came to me
with thin hair
& an empty stomach
ribs sticking over
and a spine sinking low
-e.m.
Things to be, things that are there, things to keep… They are the things that must exist. Because they stay unaffected by the evils of other things. They are like glass, even when broken, they keep shining. Â They are different for each person. They may not follow standards or fashion, only the person’s soul. So they don’t necessarily have to be material (like dreams). But what is certain is they are always the dearest, cherished ones. We cling onto them, never let go of them, and cry, when we lose them, or when they’re suddenly taken away from us. And even then, when they are […]
Why should i go on?There’s nothing here for me.I don’t help anyone.all i do is hurt everyone. There’s tons of people i know,some of them i even call ”friends”,but if i were to die right this minute,what would those fellas miss?Besides free meals,clean toilets,and entertainment I’m just that girl you invite to your party as eye candy.Fuck that,no thanks.I don’t belong to this world.Oh and as for the boy i spent the last year of my life bending over backwards for to make happy.The one who got me pregnant and left,leaving me to handle the abortion today.alone.Fuck you,sweetheart.And stop antagonizing me,you’re gonna fucking kill me,you […]
I look at your twitter; the old tweets you tweeted.
I know Your favorite things.
From Your favorite baseball team, to Your favorite meal.
Babe Your voice, still it rings.
I know what You say
I know how You feel.
Boy there is no way that You and I can’t be
we’re so close to perfect for eachother..
Yes We had our problems..
but everytime We fixed it
Things got even better!
I know everything about You
Where You want to live, the name of Your first born son.
If only she knew
About the days that you almost ran.
Sweetheart, can’t You see?
You and I are meant to be.
The puppy You’ll get, the life you plan to leave.
You saved […]
I lost my darling angel Nicci. 6 months hasn’t healed a thing. I love you and miss you and want to die without you baby. Today would have been our 4 year anniversary, but you chose to leave me and cut me off. You never explained the truth to me. I just want you back sweetheart. I miss you so much and can’t live without you.
My little sister is nine – and since im somewhat glad to say that tonight will be my last night – i wrote letters to all my family members , and friends – this is to my little sister when she gets older….The Following is a letter to sofia ( please give to Mom and Dad until sofia reaches 12 or until you feel that you need to give it to her)
Hey Lil’ sis ! Miss you – If your reading this – then you know that im dead , and i have been dead for a long time now… I would love to have […]
That awkward moment when that person you forgave betrays you in EXACTLY the same way again.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
It’s actually funny because of how screwed over I am.
But don’t worry, retaliation is coming, *****. I let the last time slide because I must be a fucking saint, but this will not go unpunished.
MWAHAHAHAHAHA. You’ve yet to reckon with me, sweetheart.
What random rambling shall be sewn together today in this post.
I’m moving forward a bit, trying my best to push dark thoughts from my mind. The nice retreat to a rented house on the beach helped too :). Realize I need to get away from home. As soon as I got back then my uberly happy mood went BLAH! It’s disappointing how people are not aware of how their actions effect others. Don’t think they really care.
I also realize that I have no real goals. Nothing particular to strive for. Right now I’m just going. Just chugging along til I run out of train track. […]
How absolutely sick is it that I find comfort and safety on a site that people tell you about how they want to die? Oh now you are probably thinking to yourself, well it’s probably because you need to know that there are others like you. Yes that’s right I have a logical mind. I am not mad at you, whoever you is, I’m mad at me, for being me, but then for being mad at me, because I know how it is more for a lot of people with personality disorders, except I feel what I should feel, then have not the feelings […]