NO home
family out of sight
tears shed
on this cold, dark night.
A razor
a deadly kiss
who wouldve known
it would end up like this.
A new year
the same shit
always sad
feeling worthless.
Had it up to here
cant go on
have no where to go
I dont belong.
I’ve just needed to get this story off my chest. It’s been two years, and I’ve only told two friends and my councilor. This isn’t much of a story, but when I begin to think about suicide I remember the saving thought that I had. A lot of the time we feel so alone in the world. It can be for many reasons, but I think what I learned is, you’re not alone. No matter what you want to believe to make choosing suicide easier, you’re not alone, someone will still feel grief for you when you pass. For some people that’s not much of […]
I’ve been trying to cry for more than a month but somehow I can’t. I’ve had the idea that crying could possibly make me feel a little better, but I can’t, I can only let off some tears but that’s it.
I love you all,
But you never cared at all.
Sometimes you all show your fake love,
I always hide my tears with smile.
Amnesiac me, remembers few things,
But you even forgot me.
I dreamed your dream coming true,
But you never ask what I like.
I was with you in your bad times,
You deserted me in my wrost.
I LOVED YOUR LIKENESS,
BUT YOU DIDN’T EVEN CARE FOR “MY LOVE”.
On Wednesday it was Challenge Day.
I had turned in a permission slip so I was called down to the gym.
When I walked in I was terrified. I only knew one person in there and she had her own friends so it was like I was alone. Everyone sat in this big circle in the middle of the gym. I thought we would have to talk in front of everyone. I cringed every time they said we would play a game.
As time passed, (I was still scared but not as much) we were told to get in our assigned groups. In the beginning of that activity, […]
I just don’t think I can keep this up. This emptiness inside every night. I even had a great text conversation with a guy who seems cool from a dating site. I still long to die. Or just not exist.
I also realize I’m love with a celebrity. I’ve followed him on Twitter for years and actually met him at his show and took a picture with him. He recognized me. I didn’t expect to fall in love with his personality. This probably sounds insane, but it hurts SO BAD!! To want someone you can never ever have. It’s just torture and he has a girlfriend […]
My name is Free. My name is Happy.
I wish…
I’m trapped. I’m trapped in this body. I’m trapped in this horrible life I don’t want to live. I’m trapped in this fucked up world.
I want to break free. I want to be free. Live up to my name.
Freedom. Happiness. I’m far from getting either of those things. My names. Even hearing someone calling my names tears me apart inside. I will never feel any of those things. I will never be free. I will never be happy.
I’m sad right now, and I don’t understand why. It wasn’t a particularly great day, but it wasn’t […]
I try so hard not to feel. To not face what i’m going through. To avoid the tears, the anxiety, and the feelings. I love helping other people and I would do anything to take their pain away; yet I can’t even figure out how to take away my own pain. I want to escape the pain and reality of the situation. Help me escape.. please.
I really feel the need to talk about this. I’m in tears right now because I’ve just realized a lot .
This world has fallen apart, and it’s getting worse…
I think humans have lost what life is really meant to be.
What have we done to ourselves ?
lemme emphasize better:
So since I was born I was taught that I needed to be smart , so I could get a good job one day to make lots of money , so I could have kids and feed them, then some day I would die .
everything revolves around economy . All we do is work work work! It’s one […]
Scream into the night
Scream for the right
Scream for those who cannot
Scream for those who fought
Scream for those without sight
Scream, for there is no light
Scream for those who hurt
Scream for those beneath the dirt
Scream for those who lied
Scream for those who cried
Scream for those whose tears run red
Scream for those that wish they were dead
Scream for the terror
Scream for the horror
Scream for the might
Scream, for you have lost the fight
Scared and hurt he looks around
No one moves or makes a sound
Wipes his tears away and runs so far to hide away
One fine day he sits there
On a hilltop in open air
Looking for something he can’t find anywhere
From the outside he looks fine…
When you look deep down inside
You can see the anger flaming up inside his head
From the outside he looks fine…
When you look deep down inside
You can see the anger flaming up inside his head
Scared and hurt he looked around
Looking up at us he frowned
Fought his tears away and ran so far to […]
My friend, lets call her Bells, was under a lot of stress at the time, emotional and physical stress, not having to do with school but with how she felt. I didn’t really know why, she never told me much less anyone, but she said she was abused and she was bullied most of the time, people called her “fat” and “ugly” etc. but she wasn’t either of those, but there was so much hate, that in blinded her. One afternoon, in Spanish, the rain was heavy on the window pane, and our teacher had us jot down ideas, and Bells started to write things […]
I wonder now if it is impossible to kill the darkest part of yourself. I want nothing more than to murder the other part of myself, but sadly it is intertwined with the part of me that by necessity must live. My constant struggle continues in a blur of rage and suicidal desire. What is probably the saddest part of this tale is that I cannot simply “TALK” to someone about this. It’s not like I don’t know how to convey the emotions, or how to tell someone what is going on with me, it is more like an infection. I know better than anyone […]
Didn’t you see the tears
As they roled down my cheeks?
Didn’t you see the fear
It’s been in my eyes for weeks…
Didn’t you hear me call
Your name a thousand times?
Didn’t you see me fall
Into the darkest of minds…
Didn’t you hear my voice break
When I pleaded you to stay?
Didn’t you see my knees shake
As you were walking away…
Didn’t I give you
Enough?
Didn’t I give you
Love…
Sorry for writing again.
I just gotta know when will the tears stop running down my face whenever i am alone.
I just gotta know when will i finally find peace
I just gotta know when will i accept that things…for me will never get better
I just gotta know when will i get the same love i give out
I just gotta know when does mg pain end
I just gotta know how many times i am have to get on my knees begging for your help
I just gotta know how many pills should i take the next time
I just gotta […]
She stands there, a broken heart. A lone soul stranded in a sea of emotion. Goddamn if she isn’t beautiful in it though. Her hair moves gracefully with the wind coming in off the lake. Normally she would have tied it behind her, but today such formalities seemed unnecessary. Her eyes seem as if they are on the verge of tears, but she is still beautiful. She is almost more beautiful for all the pain she is in. Her skin has tanned from hours in the sun, and her muscles have become toned from the hours she has spent sailing and maintaining her boat. The […]
English: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sEgmxilFyaI
Japanese: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=idLksB9YUIw
In order to just breathe, I keep meaningful songs in my arsenal until another day comes along. This is one of them, a powerful melody.
“As time is passing on and all my limbs are slowly growing along
The things to love’s a multiplying song
And its growth, is racing at a stupid rate, my only option is hate
So I just have to throw them out with no doubt
And so that I am able to provide you with love
The greedy person that hides inside me
Would soon see, that he would have to stop adoring everything that he is;
The clumsiness was a creation […]
What the fuck…why do i even try. Like deadass i am tired of silent tears finding there way down my face. Omg why or rather what am i doing wrong. I say i don’t need you but i am lying. I do need you. Please help me. Please….
There are these layers within me. The first one is an ugly smile. I wear it when I can.
The second is my humour. Its black and depressive but effective.
The third is a wall of nothing. It stands there as a last outer defense against this world and all of its people.
The fourth is tears. Those pathetic single-tear dramatisations which reveals and inspires the shame of my being.
The fifth is weeping. The kind when you try to keep silent so nobody hears you but can all see the hiccups of your chest. It lasts for a lifetime. Its the thickest, but most fragile wall. It makes […]
Four years passed in a blink of an eye,
left behind a bird can’t fly,
Every miss and every flaw,
All the tears and all the woe;
Striking now like blinding light,
A beaten soul through hopeless fight,
“Only if” won’t bring you back,
Nor the sorrow that shades the track,
Should I do IT should I not,
Time will tell though not a lot.
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