So many times, so much places
I’ve tried to kill myself without any traces
People don’t care I’m such a burden my mother hates me It just keeps hurting
No one cares most are unaware
I’m alone in this world no friends just foes
They all hate me they tease , they say I’m just a hoe
I’m nothing to anyone they don’t feel my pain
I should be gone , no one is to blame
Why live when there’s nothing but hurt?
My life is a mess this would never work
Momma tried her best to reach me
Father could’ve never taught me
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Tease
I’m the youngest of seven kids. The baby, the brat, the drama queen, the outcast.. you name it, they’ve called me it. Everybody says it’s just because they’re my older siblings and they’re suppose to tease me, but this goes beyond that. They’ve hurt me physically, emotionally, verbally.. Once again, you name it, they’ve done it. I worshiped the ground my second oldest brother walked on. He was my hero and my idol. He spit in my face when his girlfriend came along. He left me with my drug addict mother who let her boyfriend and her ‘customers’ do whatever they wanted to me. She knew, and […]
right now as i write this im crying tears, and i dont know why. I want to tell my mom that i cut and that i am slowly falling apart, but if i do how will i be the strong perfect big sister and daughter that everyone thinks i am? I love my sisters with all of my heart, but.im going to break soon, and i dont want them to see it. I also dont want to call someone or some organization, because i know that i will probabaly just get put on hold. But i guess thats life? That brings me to a new […]
I hate my life so much! I’ve been in and out of the hospital for trying to kill myself for years now! Things were good for awhile but then it all got taken away! I’m tired of now being the ugly,fat, single girl that no one really likes and will be alone forever! Everyone my age is getting married and having babies and I’m just sitting here on my fat ass living at my mom’s house!!! And I’m 27! I’ve tried but just can’t ever seem to survive this world! Even when I am skinny and my depression is doing better it all just falls […]
Through out the past 2 years I’ve been going through a good day bad day situation, but in the past year it has turned into weeks and months. Longest time I was servilely depressed was 3 months, I was cutting my arm and body continuously, it was the school summer holidays, I spent most of that time at home, watching terrible cartoons. I’m 15 years old, right now though I’ve been doing OK for the past 2 weeks, it feels strange and more se-real, more illusionistic yet more eye opening. But I know that the bad days are just creeping up, yet this time I […]
i know that its almost feburary, but my past still really bothers me. i feel like noone can ever begin to understand, but its worth a shot. when i began high school i was confident and had many friends. no rumors were spread about me, everyone thought i was sweet and innocient and life was great. i always had a crush on a boy who was 2 years older then me but i was “together” with his friend. anyways, in 10th grade he bagan texting me. i was a tease and said some flirty things. when we finally hungout at my friends house i was […]