right now as i write this im crying tears, and i dont know why. I want to tell my mom that i cut and that i am slowly falling apart, but if i do how will i be the strong perfect big sister and daughter that everyone thinks i am? I love my sisters with all of my heart, but.im going to break soon, and i dont want them to see it. I also dont want to call someone or some organization, because i know that i will probabaly just get put on hold. But i guess thats life? That brings me to a new subject, life, i apologize to God or anyone that is offended by this, but y do you give me moments of pure bliss and happiness than snatch it away,.is it like a tease. Or have i done something wrong? The problem with that is how.can a 13 year old do something wrong. I get good grades, i listen and do what im told, i still have my virginity, and i dont dress like a skanky slut. I only have 3 questions today that i need help answering. What have i done? How can i fix it? And am i alone in this?
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Hi. As a teacher, it really saddens me to see how many teenagers are suffering with depression. You don’t have to be the perfect sister or daughter. Just be yourself. You sound like you’re trying your best in school and being a good role model for your younger siblings to follow. If you’re feeling sad, you should tell your mom and your siblings. I’m sure they will be happy to help you.
Life is filled with ups and downs. Its just the way that life is and that’s what makes life so interesting. I don’t think you’ve done anything wrong. You can also talk to one of your teachers who you feel comfortable talking to.
I think I may talk to a teacher, thank you for the advice, I will probably talk to my health teacher because well she seems to get it I guess, thank you 🙂
I think 13 is the hardest year of a person’s life. I remember feeling like you. If you trust your mom and she is a cool person, talk to her. She will appreciate you love her enough to be honest with her. I was too scared of my mom because she had mental illness. I wish my daughter had talked to me more when she was thirteen. She would not tell me about the girls picking on her at school because she thought I would make a big scene at school and slap the crap out of them. I would have told her how much I love her and how beautiful I think she is and well, maybe I would have slapped the crap out of those hateful girls, who knows. I know I would have hugged her and made sure she knows how very much she is loved. If you can’t talk to your mom, is there another adult or cool person you can talk to? You may need some help with this depression, and please know that is a good thing. You will feel so much better with help. My daughter used to get suicidal and cut right before her period every month. So the doctor just put her on a antidepressant ten days a month and it turned things around for you. One thing about being thirteen, if you can make it through this year, you will know you can make it through anything. Being depressed is nothing to be ashamed of….you do not have to be perfect in this world, no one is. Please let us know how you are doing. I will be thinking of you.
Thank you, it helps to know that others have gone through this, actually I was ok for a while, but today I cut again because well, o have a very fragile self-esteem, and I have always wanted for her to look at me in the right way, but sadly that doesn’t work that way, thank you though for caring 🙂