I hate my life so much! I’ve been in and out of the hospital for trying to kill myself for years now! Things were good for awhile but then it all got taken away! I’m tired of now being the ugly,fat, single girl that no one really likes and will be alone forever! Everyone my age is getting married and having babies and I’m just sitting here on my fat ass living at my mom’s house!!! And I’m 27! I’ve tried but just can’t ever seem to survive this world! Even when I am skinny and my depression is doing better it all just falls apart!!!!! Why did life have to tease me? Why did he (my ex fiance’) have to tease me that my life dream of getting married and having kids was going to happen and then rip it all way from me?  Now, I’m fat because I use food to comfort myself when upset and bored and have gained 80 pounds in the last year and a half! now I’m so fat that no one will ever like me or want to marry me! And all my friends have drifted away in to their own adult life and I’m back to having no friends, just like it was in high school! I hate being so alone!! And I know it will be forever now!!! No one likes me for love or just being friends but I don’t understand why! What is so wrong with me? I see other fat/ugly girls have boyfriends and friends and get married and have babies and I’m just sitting here alone on my ass! Why? Please! Someone tell me why?
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start loving yourself and accept who you are
Perhaps because of low self-esteem? Like you said there are people that are loved for being exactly the way they are; pretty or not, rich or poor… but they have joy in their hearts, are fun, give peace and love themselves just the way they are. People are attracted to that. Personality can be even more important than looks in the long run. You can try a liposuction if you’re not motivated enough to lose the weight on your own, but that will provide only a partial solution to the real problem. When I have a bad self-esteem, I ruin every relationship and men walk away. When I feel good about myself they go crazy for me. Good luck!