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My Life

by TheTreeOfMyLife 11/28/2014

written by TheTreeOfMyLife

I am really nothing…

hi my name is **** *****. i am 1?-years old… hehe i don’t know how to start telling my life, but I’m not really good at English… I writing this because I think it will make me feel better… umm… I grew up in small city. When I was 3-8 years old, I have painful days and happy days of course. my parents were drunk, fighting, every Friday, Saturday, it was never changed 5-years, always drinking, fighting. me and my big brother and my lil sister, crying in room, our word never changed our parents, we always tell them to stop […]

11/28/2014 8 comments

Unable to Leave

by whatevs 11/26/2014

written by whatevs

I’ve never really liked going away from home. I used to be okay with it though. These past couple of years everything has changed. It started off with being unable to leave for a week. Then two nights. Then one. Now, even a full day trip causes anxiety. I’ve determined it’s not that I’m attached to anyone at my home, it’s my home itself. I am, however, going to college in 2 years. I’m scared as fuck. I’m really smart, and I have the grades to go anywhere. I’m afraid that my emotional problems will hold me back, leaving me unable to go anywhere but […]

11/26/2014 1 comment

Deleted

by cyberbullied 11/24/2014

written by cyberbullied

I deleted my old post because well it was just another cry for help answered by the very reason I despise my life.

Honestly, would any of you converse with other humans if you were in my situation? Everywhere you go there’s people on phones or in person (wherever I go) having fake conversations just to get a reaction or to harass me. Fake conversations. Such as the ones going on in my last post that I deleted. It drains the life of me. It’s so ridiculous. The relationship between me and my family is truly lost forever. I’ve never been closer to telling them all […]

11/24/2014 5 comments

by IndigoMasquerade 11/23/2014

written by IndigoMasquerade

There probably isn’t any meaning in life. Perhaps you can find something interesting while you’re alive. Like how you found that flower. Like how I found you. – Orochimaru

This quote & someone on here once telling me to “be strong, have resolve”…those are the only two things keeping me here. Pathetic, I know.

11/23/2014 2 comments

Cant Get It Right

by JevansEvans 11/22/2014

written by JevansEvans

I cant get anything right. I’m on my 4th attempt, every other attempt would have worked for anyome else but it seems like the world just wants me to suffer.

I wrapped my car around a tree at 120mph, climbed out of the roof and walked away not a scratch on me.

I highsided my motorbike in excess of 130mph, and just rolled into a ditch, not a scratch on me.

I locked myself in a tiny bathroom, sealed all the vents, with 4kg of smouldering charcoal, and I woke up with nothing but a headache.

I have 2.6g of Sertraline, 24g of Paracetomol, and 8g of Ibuprofen. I […]

11/22/2014 9 comments

I don’t know.

by _.ThatOne._ 11/20/2014

written by _.ThatOne._

Well, what can I say? I’m actually quite surprised that I’m actually still here today. I used to cut, and I believe I’m one year clean as of yesterday. When I’m at school, it’s as if everyone wants me gone. But when I come online, it’s like everyone in the whole technical universe loves me for who I am, and that’s probably the whole reason I’m still here, because of internet people. You guys are the best, and always make my day. Whether it be by cracking a joke, or telling an awesome story! (: I thank you guys for that. I look forward to each […]

11/20/2014 1 comment

Its been awhile

by suicidal_chick 11/19/2014

written by suicidal_chick

I have no idea how long its been since i was last on here but i know its been awhile. I miss coming on the site everyday reading everyone’s stories, trying to help.

This week has been really rough for me. I have had 2 friends who tried killing themselves. Honestly i cant take this anymore. It hurts. I stayed up 2 nights in a row trying to talk one of them out. But it didn’t work…he tried and failed, thank god. I dont know what i would do without him in my life, he has talked me out of suicide a lot. theres something about […]

11/19/2014 4 comments

Why keep trying?

by Twenz 11/19/2014

written by Twenz

Well ever since sixth grade I have felt alone. Even though I have a best friend. half the time I don’t think she wants to be friends with me. I am getting to the point where I am close to giving up again. I cant keep feeling like a nothing. I always feel worthless and alone. I have no clue that else to do anymore. Nobody at my school likes me, so instead they pick on me and tease me. I tried telling the teachers but nothing helped or worked. I cant even ride the bus anymore because I can’t handle the teasing that happens […]

11/19/2014 6 comments

Painless

by toodamndepressed 11/19/2014

written by toodamndepressed

I want a painless way to die. I don’t want comments telling me to rethink and that everything will be fine. Just give me a few painless ways to die please.

11/19/2014 7 comments

Pull me under

by HereticBlood 11/18/2014

written by HereticBlood

Why is it that everytime I turn around someone’s telling me that I put myself in this place? I dug myself this hole and I’m keeping myself 10feet under.. If I could for one day feel “normal” (whatever society considers that) then I would be in a heart beat but I don’t ask to see think and feel the things I do. I don’t ask for the flashbacks or nightmares and I don’t ask for the emptiness.. But whatever maybe it’s something I deserve maybe and fuck being “normal”

11/18/2014 8 comments

Dying inside

by WorldOfPain 11/17/2014

written by WorldOfPain

I dont know how this site works. What im supposed to write on. All i know is im tired of holding my feelings inside. I was diagnosed with a Chronic disease in 5th grade, and i almost died. What didnt help was kids telling everyone i was faking it or teachers telling me “you couldve done your homework while you were having an mri” etc. My dad is basically a zombie. Ever since both his parents died and he lost his job, he has no emotions. Hes never happy.. He just sits there and types on the computer. My mom is always yelling at me, […]

11/17/2014 3 comments

Not their fault i’m like this

by TheOneNoOneSees 11/15/2014

written by TheOneNoOneSees

“No one talks to her, she feels so alone
She’s in too much pain to survive on her own
The hurt she can’t handle overflows to a knife
She writes on her arm and wants to give up her life”

When ever I hear this song this is the part when I start to cry…This pretty much perfectly describes my life and I’ve noticed it for years now. I seriously need help but I refuse to tell my parents about my depression, my mom already thinks she fucked up on raising us and I feel like telling her about it will only […]

11/15/2014 3 comments

I DONT Have A Drug Problem!

by Lovebug4142 11/11/2014

written by Lovebug4142

Oh goodness I am so tired of people telling me I have a drug problem. I do not. My Mentor told me, “If anyone takes a substance to not feel, then that’s a problem.” I’m sorry I feel so sad all the time and am worried about other things, that I take pain pills to deal with it, and I cut myself to deal with it. I don’t know what else to do when I am so down in the dumps. I don’t know what to do. If I do have a problem, so what? No one is going to ‘help’ this poor 16 year […]

11/11/2014 5 comments

Falling Fast

by SoonLord 11/10/2014

written by SoonLord

I’ve lived with anxiety and depression all my life. The only reason I’m still here is because of the love I have for my mom. Recently I have found myself in some serious trouble. To the point that I have lost everything I’ve worked for. I’ll be homeless, carless,jobless, pennyless, and loveless. Just a week ago I had all that. I made the mistake to drink and drive. As a out of state truck driver trying to move from AZ to NY to be with a woman whom I thought I would spend the rest of my life with. Of course my dark thoughts got […]

11/10/2014 2 comments

Support

by Boedesmom 11/6/2014

written by Boedesmom

Where do you go when there is no where to go but down? My feelings of hopelessness and helplessness have escalated to the point that I have convinced myself that my purpose for being has been fulfilled and anything left in life is just “fluff”.

I pray daily that Jesus will come…soon. I don’t really want to die but I don’t want to continue this perpetual cycle of disappointment and failure. If Jesus were to come, he would take us all to eternal bliss.

I have a solid education and extensive professional experience, yet I have been unemployed now for three months. The only interviews I can […]

11/6/2014 6 comments

Don’t know what to do

by lina0080 11/5/2014

written by lina0080

I was raped when I was 12, but nobody knows about it I tried telling my parents but I ended up telling them I had lied because I blammed someone for it, who wasn’t who did it, it was my grandpa who raped me and I can’t seem to bring myself into telling my parents because I know they won’t believe me and I would be judge but every day I wake up wishing I was dead praying for cancer or a brain tumor, I’ve tried suicide before but all it did was make people judge me and make me feel worst, I play happy […]

11/5/2014 2 comments

every good thing i have i destroyed

by constantlymessingup 11/2/2014

written by constantlymessingup

I don’t know why I bother going to therapy. I don’t know why I bother telling her the things I can’t talk about with anyone else. I don’t know why I try to get better, because I always find a way to fuck it up.

I fucked up today. It may cost me a job I had been relying on getting offered.

I don’t know what to do any more. I don’t know how to keep trying when I keep making it all wrong. I just exist wrong, and you know, maybe some people do. Maybe I’m just an aberration and I should have got the picture […]

11/2/2014 1 comment

HELP ME

by LydiaCoon 11/2/2014

written by LydiaCoon

I was the most picked on girl and I still am. Over the summer my mom and I got into many many fights. She had told me over and over that if I died her life would be perfect. So I started taking pills and cutting after almost one year of not cutting. She gets drunk one night and yells at me till I leave the house at ten. I walk to town almost six miles away. I sit down because all the pills kick in. Now I also must say I was drinking to that night. But after I sat down a cop pulled […]

11/2/2014 2 comments

Triggers

by argh 10/26/2014

written by argh

Right now I’m about to do one of the things that’s going to affect me for the rest of the day and on into next week. Yard work. Sounds dumb, right?

I’m going to go out there for a couple hours to pick up the leaves and the entire time there’s going to be a nagging feeling that the neighbors are watching me out their windows and telling their spouses something like “look at wtf he’s doing. He doesn’t know wtf he’s doing, he’s doing it wrong. How the fuck could he not know how do it it? I mean it’s about time anyways because I’m […]

10/26/2014 5 comments

Scared.

by lifeishorrible 10/25/2014

written by lifeishorrible

I bought what I now know was a cheap tongue piercing a month ago.Earlier I was at a friends house & the plastic on my piercing came off but I didn’t know.I was drinking water & felt It going down my throat. I drank a lot water to swallow It but I couldnt.I tried to throw it up but I couldn’t.I felt my breathing & heart beat start to slow down.I started to get terrifed,I was seconds away from telling my friend to take me to the hospital but I didn’t wanna seem like a *****.Plus he didn’t have a ride.I was sitting there scared […]

10/25/2014 3 comments

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