A homeless/semi-homeless person coming from the streets trying to get on their feet shouldn’t owe the government jack shit when you don’t get jack shit. Somehow my taxes got fucked up at work and what’s even more fucked up is I have to claim one job as two jobs because both have their own EIN and W2. But the deal was, my employer’s finances went through another company as they were a start up. When they separated and became their own entity, they got their own EIN and new payroll system. So when the first W2 ends from the parent company, with the grand total […]
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Hi guys, hope you good, got some favors to ask.
I want to see a therapist, but I don’t know what the deal is with me, this sadness I carry, always thinking about how the living dies and hurts others in horrible ways and I can’t just do anything, can just watch. The only thing I can do is to be there for the ones I love but even then, nothing is sure. I don’t even want to die that bad now, I feel like I have a job to finish here. It feels like that my sadness drives me on since no long, but what […]
Are we?
Few people that fairly close to me are calling me that. They didn’t say it directly to my face. I stumble upon their post on social media because apparently word just got out that I leave everyone because I have depression. And of course, just like any other community or society in these world, most of them thought that depression isn’t real. “It’s all in your head”. “Try and be happy”. “You need to have a reason to move forward”. You know the deal. All these motivational quotes they get on Pinterest/Tumblr.
It does, however, make me think. Do I (we?) really need the attention? Am I an attention seeker? Maybe […]
Alright, here’s the deal. I need an address from somebody who lives in the states — preferably california so I can tell the border cops I got a destination. I’m going to tell them I’m going to spend a few months time with you at your place to kick back. All pleasure no business this time. (lie). All business AND pleasure. So! Who wants to help me make it big in the city of angels? I’m going to L.A with a dream in my heart. Driving down in my shitty Cavalier with outdated stickers and an exhaust system that’s seen better days but who gives […]
I haven’t lost him but he’s no loner mine, and that kills me. Out of all the people I have loved, envied and lost, he has made me cry more than any of them. The past week or so had been rough, quiet, vague. Then out of the blue he talks, blames me for what I’ve done, what can I say, he’s right. He doesn’t feel the same, of course he doesn’t. He gets over things so quickly. He still cares, but not the same way. He left because I was a shitty person and I hate myself for that. He won’t dare say it but […]
I thought I could do it kill myself, but every time I try I am unable to seal the deal. I think I’m unable to kill myself, thinking of dying brings me some measure of peace but I don’t have it in me to end it despite having no hope or no future to look forward to. I don’t know why I can’t end it. I got involved in something so insane that it’s right out of a B movie plot. I got targeted by hackers then I made enemies of a whole community of people on a site called Zero Hedge. Now they are […]
I have been dead for years now and am ready to check out now…its time…I dont want to go into details of my life…all I can say is emotional and physical pain has worn me out…I do not want to be here anymore..I cant…I have tried to survive but I am drowning…sadly there is no one out there for me…no one…everyone I cared about…every one I thought cared for me is now gone…the people(person really) left in my life do not encourage suicide but left me emotionally long ago so I do not have a support system…not that I ever did…my physician have given up […]