I know Salt posted a little while ago, and it seemed he was on his way over to the other side. I’m just curious, has anyone who speaks to him more often than I (which is pretty much never), heard anything? I’ve always gained inspiration from him, through my different alias here, and the world have lost a brilliant soul. He was a great man, and if he did finish the journey, I hope he is finally at peace. Thanks guys.
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In a parallel world where humans could gain destructive powers and monsters lurk in the corners of the land, numerous towns are being destroyed one by one. The attacks are led by an organization called the Destructive Intelligent Corrupt Killing Squad, also known as DICKS. The goal of DICKS is to subjugate all of the monsters and use them to take over the world. Backed by the government called Peace of the One, its leader is known simply as Paradise. Under Paradise, there are the Seven Virtues of Justice, each named for one of the Heavenly Virtues. On their bodies is an insignia of their […]
I’m sure I’ve written many variations of this here before, but what the hell.
I’m a failure, as a human being. By pretty much any standard you can think of. That’s not going to change. There’s no future version of me that doesn’t feel alone, anxious and exhausted all the time. That can be happy and relaxed around others.
I can’t change the past. I can’t control the way I feel. I can’t really change the world we live in. These things are not mine to decide.
And yet here I am, still alive. For the foreseeable future. So, what do I want to do with this undeserved […]
Her long body made an indent upon the small bits of clover and grasses as she propped herself up on her elbows. What in the actual fuck is she going to write about today? All her brain is shooting are blanks, and her fingers feel awkward as they hit each computer key. It’s like trying to thread a tree trunk through the eye of a needle. “O” by Coldplay blares into her ears as her brain desperately tries to make something beautiful, something stunning, just something… But that’s the thing about making something beautiful. You cannot force it. Beauty comes from patience and time and […]
The wind bit and pulled at her skin, tearing through her jacket and into her bones. But she was already cold. No, not from the weather- her soul was cold. And tired. Oh so fucking tired. She felt the chill in her heart and figured wandering about outside would chill her body to match. Dusk had settled on the hills, the light dimming rapidly as the northern wind snapped its icy jaws on her now-red cheeks. As her heart cracked, she stumbled, tears rolling down her face. But she couldn’t feel them. See, she was numb. Inside, and out. The earth was wet, but she […]
In a little while from now
If I’m not feeling any less sour
I promise myself to treat myself
And visit a nearby tower
And climbing to the top
Will throw myself off
In an effort to
Make it clear to whoever
Wants to know what it’s like
When you’re shattered
Left standing in the lurch at a church
Were people saying, My God, that’s tough
She stood him up
No point in us remaining
We may as well go home
As I did on my own
Alone again, naturally
To think that only yesterday
I was cheerful, bright and gay
Looking forward to who wouldn’t do
A new development has arisen, not only do I feel like the world has abandoned me but it seems my few friends I have left have too. None have spoken to me since I was kicked out of school, the sister I spoke of previously was recently kicked out because she didn’t want to do the work involved for year 12. The school however gave her more help then they ever offered me, I was shoved to the side and told to leave however they gave her 2 months to catch up, they gave her a tutor and said she only had to do 2 […]
She stands alone in a world that is not always fair. Her soft, blue eyes look out at the world with an innocence akin to that of a child. She is not a child, however, she just isn’t as jaded as myself. “Why can’t you accept me for me? I’m not her, and I never will be. Don’t you see that I’m trying my best to make you proud, and maybe I could succeed if only you would let me.” The constant comparisons, loss of individuality, having to live up to an impossible title. Maybe that is where the compassion comes from. From the place […]
and i don’t even care if that sounds dumb. i can’t lie about how i feel, life was just better when i was a kid. i didn’t have the best childhood, but i wasn’t abused and at least i wasn’t depressed. i still had a capacity for fun and adventure, whereas now it takes a herculean amount of strength to face each day, and i feel ‘blah’ about everything. nothing is fun anymore. the years 2002-2007 stand out for me, i was young enough to still have a rosy view of the world. things went south after 08, 2009-10 was kind of the point of […]
This is a little rant, and a bit of a description of how i imagine my mind to be. Sorry if it makes no sense, but it brings me some odd little comfort to see these thoughts exist somewhere outside my own head.
The world drifts by, just outside of my grasp. The soft floating bubbles of nothingness and confusion occlude my vision. I float in the dense waters of death, guided by the far away light of hope and life. Yet as I reach for it and feel it’s warmth, I shrink within myself. Withdraw in fear and uncertainty. Feel the cold tendrils of death tighten […]
Hi, I am a first time poster here however I have been reading a lot of the various pieces that have been put up and thought I would tell my story in the hope that it will help someone else or maybe even me, so here goes.
I am 30 years old, male, live in Scotland. I have a good job, own my flat and a car. Basically have all the materialistic things that matter to many people. I have fantastic friends and family – there are seven billion people in the world and I honestly feel like I couldn’t hand pick better people to have […]
There is a moment when you look into the eyes of the people you love and see how much pain you are putting them through. There is a moment when you see the worry and the suffering and the fear- and the exhaustion you are putting them through. How their movements become slower, as if the world is weighing on their shoulders. There is a moment when you remember just how worthless you are- just how much you aren’t worth it.
I looked into my mom’s eyes tonight and saw the fear in them. I saw the worry, and the pain of 20 years of having […]
Good morning my little and desert world…Here I am, one day more of life going by. We never should count the hours, the days, the weeks, the years. We should count the blessing of every dawn, I know that. However, when our days run in the way we do not want, we prefer to forget even that we are here, in time and space. We start looking life with different lenses. Reflections become our every day breakfast. Some people come, some other go, and some others stay with us until eternity. Mom and Dad always taught me to be patience, positive, to treat others with […]
The one where you’re so desperate to kill yourself that you’re willing to do anything? Where you’re willing to swallow anything, try anything, jump in front of anything? That level of desperation where the smallest and most minute of annoyances is enough to convince you that life isn’t worth living and that your only conceivable course of action is suicide? Where you’re just so desperate to end it all you just want anything to come along and take you away, even if you know that it won’t kill you, just hurt you.
I hate it when I reach that level. It’s like being a a wolf […]
*sigh*, I don’t even know how to begin. It’s not in our Hispanic culture to give up or speak about our feeling so I don’t know how to start this post.
I’ve always had thoughts of ending my life, but I’ve always been able to suppress them and put them in a corner. Now I just thought of giving up. I am 19 years old, fresh out of high school with no sense of purpose. I work 10 hour days which give me alot of time to think. I think about all my friends who have gone on to college and to […]
Wish I could just end this! Something or the other always stops me. I never wanted to live. My life is harsh on me and it is difficult to survive it seems. I am just another normal 14 year old teenager but what goes on inside me is unknown to everybody. I am so pressurized by studies and coaching. Every time I have a new coaching to attend and i am supposed to handle everything. I can’t! I am just a human being! My parents have cut off my connection from the outer world (except school where i have no friends basically. Actually they just […]
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by daitya1989
written by daitya1989
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Idk, i dont know how to really feel anything anymore, im not exactly sad, im not happy either though,
I lack alot of empathy or sympathy or whatever- to humans.
I dont like people. They can defend and lie and kill, they stab you in the back and do anything to save themselves or make sure theyre on top.
Humans are a disgusting race.
Destroying eachother with war and calling it
“defending our country”
“Honorable heros”
Bullfuckingshit.
There is nothing honorable about killing your own species.
We are here to advance and flourish
But we kill and murder the earth while we do it.
I HAD. a […]
Well, hello everyone..
I haven’t written on a site like this before but tonight I needed to tell someone, anyone before I explode. Just as an over view I’m an 18 year old in the grey as hell country of England on the south coast somewhere..
I have always been treated for one kind of mental health issue or another. My mom had me put through Dragonflies which is a kind of bereavement councillor when I was in year six so around 10 / 11 years old, I think she was hoping I was just sad when my grandad passed. Don’t get me wrong I was but […]
I had a friend in college once who killed herself. She got into a fight with her boyfriend, and, when they broke up, she hung herself. People said, why’d Marie do it? Marie was so special, so unlike anyone else I’ve ever met… how could someone with so much to offer, someone with so much magic and life inside them, just up and kill themselves like that?
But I didn’t wonder why she did it. I knew. I understood completely why someone like that would want to die– or rather — why someone like that couldn’t bear the pain of living any longer.
I’ve always considered myself to […]