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End ov Days!

by fucked for life 5/29/2014

written by fucked for life

This is it for me split from my missus after 18 years now living in a crummy bedsit on my own. I have no family and im 38 years old with nothing to look forward to. The thought of this being the rest ov my life!! Now found out my ex has cancer but wants nothing from me & wont even talk to me so i dont no whats going on. And iv never been so scared in my life. So theres only one solution for me and iv accepted it.

So i either:

1. Drink bottle whiskey and drop from my 7th floor balcony.

2. Drink bottle […]

5/29/2014 13 comments

Im done and i want out

by theanonymouschild1997 5/19/2014

written by theanonymouschild1997

Lately i haven’t been able to keep a good morale at home with my parents. Ever since I have started trailing of in school my parents have done nothing but tear me down. I tend to forget the last time I heard something positive from them. I have attempted suicide twice during the moments my grades have been going down. No one is here for me. I have lately even began questioning my religion. Whats the point of living if there is nothing to live for? What is there to look forward to tomorrow? More depression? Or nothing at all? I’m just tired of living […]

5/19/2014 7 comments

confession

by amandapanda42 5/15/2014

written by amandapanda42

people say that writing about how upset i am would help. but it doesn’t help because my dad finds my journal and reads them. i haven’t written down my feelings in over 3 years.Â i want to write my feelings down. i want help. but my dad just tells me to suck it up. that i’m not really depressed. people say to ask for help. but whats the point of asking for help if nobody listens no matter how loud you are? i have attempted suicide twice. i had to go to the hospital one time. my parents were crying like they actually cared and […]

5/15/2014 6 comments

I’m not destined

by anaboyred24 5/8/2014

written by anaboyred24

I’ve Â always know that I’m not destined to be here, As Â long as I can remembered Â I’ve not fitted In school,college,work,peers and family. I don’t feel like I belong, It does not help that my life as not be the easiest off ones, no one really gets me I don’t Â really blame them. Who would want to get Â love or care for me I’m worthless I’m better off removing myself form this world. I’ve tried to end this endless pain on a couple off times I’ve been unlucky to be find on all off the occasions. Some would say that its not my time I […]

5/8/2014 2 comments

College was a waste

by mattmomo 4/28/2014

written by mattmomo

College was a waste of time and money.Â I started after I graduated in 2007, dropped out 2 or 3 years ago and then reenrolledÂ at the beginning of last year.Â I thought I was doing the right thing.Â Now Im a week away from finishing my degree and I realize that I haven’t learned anything that I can actually use.Â I cant find a job in my town that requires my degree because I have no experience.Â And even if I did somehow find a job, I wouldn’t know how to do anything.Â My college “teaches” the programs we use.Â So basically […]

4/28/2014 4 comments

i”m terrified just when they speak

by sorrylife00 4/19/2014

written by sorrylife00

i know that my parents love me and want the best for me since I’m their only daughter but they don’t have to be rude about it. I stopped cutting 2 months ago after breaking a 3 year period because of my mother. She calls me a dumba** because i forgot to wear my brace while playing basketball with the guys at my school, I don’t understand since my doctor told me I didn’t need it anymore. Not only that but when I try to talk to her calmly she makes me cry and says “Don’t be a little bi*** stop crying, you know what […]

4/19/2014 4 comments

whats the point anymore??

by lissbabe 4/15/2014

written by lissbabe

when that feeling of when your 14 years old and your mother speaks about you to everyone but in the most hatered way as if shes helping saying that it would be better if i was back in care well ya know what mother why the fuck did you allow me back in your house when you know im different then the others in our family when i need your support but you just tell your friends and family im incampable of even looking after my self, so what i have a boyfriend and i dont wanna stay on this shitty holiday because your always […]

4/15/2014 0 comment

Tired

by karenation 4/1/2014

written by karenation

Most mornings I wake up wondering why Im still alive. I hate life, there are good, even great things in my life, but they don’t make me happy.Â The people I love or like to hang out with and the things I like to do only make me comfortable for a bit, even a couple of days, but the desire to die always come back and it is getting stronger by the second. I just never understood whats the point of life. Work and have kids???? that doesn’t sound very appealing to me. IÂ work and go to school, but I would just love to stay […]

4/1/2014 14 comments

Why am i still here?

by Blue Butterfly 3/25/2014

written by Blue Butterfly

I have been suicidal for at least two years now. I cannot stand to be alive and i have NOTHING to live for. I have no job, i live with my mom (im 33), i have no friends, no partner, no money, my family treat me like an outcast and i have no motivation or excitement in my life. I want to die but cannot for the life of me understand why im still here! Oh, and by the way im not religious. Does anyone else here have the same problem? Ive even chosen my method to exit this world but i dont know whats […]

3/25/2014 8 comments

The truth behind “okay”

by caillte 3/21/2014

written by caillte

I suffer in silence but so desperately want to be heard.

Don’t ask me whats wrong because I wont be able to tell you- just know whats wrong with me and tell me it will be okay.

Tell me things will get better.

Things wont get better right? I mean whats the difference between this school and another. Whats the difference between this town and any other?

Whats the difference between the you you hate now and the you, you’ll hate tomorrow.

As much as I’d like to think things will get better when I get out of this country I cant help but realize that the problem is me.

me: […]

3/21/2014 5 comments

How to know

by jake5 3/15/2014

written by jake5

I want to get out of all this pain… But for some reason i still hang on some hope and have been here longer than i thought. I will go soon… Could b tomorrow, next week, a month… Idk. Why do i still hold hope even though i know things (health) wont get better and i cant live my life like this. I had a great ride, and whats so wrong about ending it and not living through a painful life? Â Any thoughts ? Btw i think its everyones own right to do what they want with their livez, live or die.

3/15/2014 3 comments

hello

by softnecks 2/19/2014

written by softnecks

i dont think i should even feel so bad. but im deppresed. i feel like im falling falling or rolling downhill painfully and it sucks. i can barely avoid the thoughts of suicide, when im eating, with friends, trying to sleep or any other moment at all. i just cant keep them out. im so afraid ill start to like them and eventually ACTUALLY love the thought of death. whats barely holding me in place is a caring girlfriend, the knowledge that i CAN get better and the mere thought that im human and i can BE.

2/19/2014 1 comment

-no one understands me-……. a poem by me.

by _whydoitry_ 2/18/2014

written by _whydoitry_

Some donâ€™t notice, some will ask, so I tell them its my past.
I cut I lie, at night I cry, sometimes I just want to die.
You say Iâ€™m suicidal, emo, a â€œfreakâ€ but society has just made me weak.
they donâ€™t understand why we cut and cry they think we attention seek
but its really there fault they just donâ€™t know that weâ€™re hanging off a peak.
a cut a lie a cry at night, sometimes we just want to die, we try we try
oh yes we try to hide whats under our sleeves..
none will notice none will care they have […]

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2/18/2014 4 comments

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it’s so obvious

by awfully_doubtful 2/16/2014

written by awfully_doubtful

so i talked to my friends about our current “situation”. its so obvious they hate me right now. maybe its because they think i’m acting stupid or something, i don’t know. this is why i hate people. they never seem to understand whats wrong with me. they always force me to admit to my mistakes even though its their own fault too. what a friend.

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2/16/2014 1 comment

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I stopped…

by spacecake 2/14/2014

written by spacecake

Something intense happened last night. While driving on the highway, I nearly hit a girl staring blankly into traffic on the border of the shoulder and my lane. I called the authorities, exited and swung around on the service road. I got out, ruined my new shoes on the muddy embankment :P, and went up to her on the highway. She was crying, distraught, and talking about how a friend just died. I slowly climbed over the guardrail (looking back, I probably shouldn’t have done that, kinda dangerous) and told her I would love to listen to whats going on, but its so noisy. I […]

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2/14/2014 1 comment

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HARD TIMES

by sad_face7 2/12/2014

written by sad_face7

I dont know maybe life does get easyer, but right now its getting harder for me to live.. im not the best but I at least try to be there for everyone… people expect alot from me but HELLO im only a 15 year old girl… im just one person they cant expect me to do everything at once..ONE DAY I WILL CHANGE WHATS IN FRONT OF ME…

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2/12/2014 8 comments

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Just A Lil Letter From Me To You, Lovlies<3

by nolove14 10/5/2012

written by nolove14

Quit Worrying About How You Look, it’s About Whats On The Inside!

i don’t care who you are. your beautiful and amazing in your own unique and special way, please don’t let what he/she says make you stop believing that. the people who hurt you most are the ones who usually are the closest to you…but don’t beat yourself up, and depress yourself with it, because they may have called you ugly. stupid. fat. etc..but only you can believe them..only you can take it to heart. only you can take it as far as it gets. You, are Your Biggest Enemy. free yourself from mental slavery, […]

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10/5/2012 4 comments

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