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wish

one last time

by worthless_loser 73 4/25/2015

written by worthless_loser 73

As I’m near the end for the third time in 2 1/2 weeks, my main wish is for success. I have read the statistics on suicide attempts over and over. I know the dangers of a failed attempt.

So my realistic, rational wish is to be able to do it right and not leave myself in even worse shape than I’m now. Because as much pain as I’m in now, it would be worse if I fail.

But regardless of that wish, I still have another wish that is not realistic. It’s actually quite irrational, as it is not possible and would never happen.

Those that have read […]

4/25/2015 10 comments

my thoughts

by hiitsme0819 4/24/2015

written by hiitsme0819

i typed this up a couple weeks ago but removed within a couple hours removed some content that id rather not be indexed and re-posting

being depressed all the time is not easy lack of sleep completly drained any little glimmer of hope i used to have i cant do it anymore feel like giving up and crawling in a dark hole and waiting for endless sleep to creep up i know ill probaly never accually take my own life but the thought of it does make me feel a little better sometimes i wander how much better everyone who knows me life would be if […]

4/24/2015 0 comment

i hate sleep

by hiitsme0819 4/22/2015

written by hiitsme0819

no wander i have insomnia whenever i do get any sleep i wake up disappointed that im awake and still in this shithole of an existence i wish ending it was easier i accidentally od’d 5 month back hasnt been a day since that i havnt wished i was alone when it happened i was actually dead and happened to be around people with the means to bring me back dont remember any pain or anything i drifted off and came to in a tub of cold water at least i stopped using shortly after but how i wish i could drift away again never […]

4/22/2015 0 comment

I’m barriers to his exit

by deep 4/21/2015

written by deep

hello everybody.

what would you do if…?

your partner wanted to go his own way, live his own way, cut all the links with people he has known and live as a hermit, wanderer in the forests far away from the human noise?

He was just about to do it when we first met. He’s a man-hater and says he could live without people happily. He despises the whole system, machinery, life full of bans, laws, taxes and doctors.

He often reminds me of his wish and lately, I have been feeling worthless and an idea came to my mind: If I weren’t here, he could have fulfilled his […]

4/21/2015 4 comments

A Sim

by justagirl777 4/18/2015

written by justagirl777

i feel like I am a sim.

Someone is directing me from above, and is having a jolly good time at it. My wants come up, my needs…they ignore them. Instead I jump through hoops, following their torturous whims, all without questioning why…

i wish they knew the cheats for the game. They’d certainly have done “death by flies” to me by now, and we’d both be better off because no one is having fun.

4/18/2015 1 comment

done

by spvnalittlelie 4/17/2015

written by spvnalittlelie

i’m so done with life. i have been for a very long time now. thing is i don’t have the guts to do myself in. i wish i did, then my suffering would have been over a very long time ago. i’ve had people, family who were supposed to love me, tell me that they hate me and hope i die. well good for them. i’ve ceased to matter to anyone and i don’t care anymore. i want to be out of here, not because they want me to be, but because i want to be. fuck all the rest. if only i had the […]

4/17/2015 3 comments

My plan

by anon emuss 4/14/2015

written by anon emuss

I have decided to go ahead with it. Today is day 1 of death by dehydration. I will go for a long run tomorrow and thursday to speed up the process and will only eat dry food.
Wish me luck, Ill post my progress day by day 😀 look for me in th news guys 😀

4/14/2015 6 comments

Follow The Rainbow

by SkittlesThePony 3/31/2015

written by SkittlesThePony

I’m not perfect.I said that many times before but I can’t seem to grasp it.

My best friend is a shadow,I’m emotionally unstable,and seem to have bad luck every other day.

I have nothing else to do but try and cope.Wish me to break a leg.

3/31/2015 0 comment

Should I stay or should I go…

by rian 3/31/2015

written by rian

I have been thinking about ending my life for a while now. I guess I have been too much of a chicken to finally do it. My mom told me that is a cowardly thing to do and that if something like that were to happen, it will break her heart. I love my family above everything and everyone. They are all I have.

If end up doing it, I know I will make them sad…but I guess this is my last selfish wish.

Usually, thinking about my family keeps me going. But I managed to destroy that one thing.

I am an awful being. I am a tired. […]

3/31/2015 5 comments

Average

by hard2smile 3/29/2015

written by hard2smile

i sit in my room talking to myself, why? Because no one cares to listen. You could sit and talk about their problems but youre a burden if you talk about yours. What has the world come to where society is like that? Hopefully all of you will listen

Being average. Never will i be the strongest. Or the fastest. The smartest. I tell people i read books but little do they know i’ve never finished a book in my life. I own books but i get bored. I wont finish top of my class, i typically sit on the bottom. Algebra and chemistry just doesnt […]

3/29/2015 5 comments

I’m here..

by leftorright 3/23/2015

written by leftorright

Looking for like minded people. I have dreamed of suicide since I was a teen. I made a couple feeble attempts as a teen but didn’t have the courage to pull it off. Now I’m a mother and I couldn’t put my child through the suffering of losing his only parent. I truly believe if I wasn’t a mother I wouldn’t be here. If anything ever happens to my son I would die soon after. He wants to go in the Army.. And I would never wish anything to happen to my boy but.. I can’t think of that. I love him more than anything. […]

3/23/2015 0 comment

so many questions….

by daikirai 3/23/2015

written by daikirai

it seems everything i do now is just for attention, however i can’t tell. Am i just lying to myself and others? Am i making things up and actually fooling myself? am i really doing everything i have done for her? do i really love her? could i ask the same about my past relationships? was it my fault they ended? did i do something wrong? am i the reason my best friend is so suicidal and depressed, who is now losing her life slowly because she overdosed? is it me? or others? why does life and nature have such a cruel yet realistic cycle […]

3/23/2015 0 comment

happy moments don’t stop background mood staying shit

by ppcforpaperclip 3/20/2015

written by ppcforpaperclip

i’m working at my dream job. it is stressful but meaningful that i have some “uh-huh life is good” moments from time to time.

but every time when i sit down quietly, i can feel the pain. i feel the emptiness in my chest. i still wish i were dead.

seems like i see the good things as separate incidents while blaming all the bad things on life as a whole.

3/20/2015 4 comments

more and more i just want to go and leave this all behind…

by spvnalittlelie 3/13/2015

written by spvnalittlelie

my head hurts. i’m very depressed. i feel that fog descending on me again…
it’s 7:07 pm and i want out of this life. i want to be gone. i know it’s probably wrong of me to feel this way… i must be pretty selfish to even consider it. many people would tell me so… i mean, what about my family, right?? especially my mom… she would be wrecked if i did this to her… i am her ‘rock’, her only support. but, at the same time, i cannot help it. i feel this pull, this urge to go… i want so badly to go… […]

3/13/2015 1 comment

hard

by starsign 3/6/2015

written by starsign

being a human is the hardest thing i’ve ever had to be. And i don’t feel like myself anymore. And i’m so sad it hurts
i wish someone would help

3/6/2015 3 comments

why cant i go

by flurdelis13 3/2/2015

written by flurdelis13

ive attempted suicide many times before but now i dont know why but i keep telling people when at the same time i want to die maybe i just want someone to tell me its ok to go. my parents love me i just wish they didnt and my brother really cares about me but i wish i was alone. I talked to my ex girlfriend on the phone last night and told her for the past two weeks ive been thinking about suicide and she begged me not to but yet if i did she would never know she lives in tennessee and i […]

3/2/2015 2 comments

how do i even begin to talk about it

by Eryn 2/25/2015

written by Eryn

I’ve never tried to kill myself. the thought of wanting to cripples my mind and it rots away at my soul everyday. my bones ache to the point where i can barely function
I’m missing someone and with his absence comes a sadness that will rip my chest opensoon and i wish i knew how to fix me and i wish i knew how to be better
what is my purpose and why am i so sad
the sleeping pills are kicking in now and its hard to keep my head up
need a friend

2/25/2015 1 comment

The Impossible

by rich51bruhh 2/22/2015

written by rich51bruhh

I always have my mind on this same wish. If only it can be true… My wish? I want to go back in time and tell my self “Don’t fucking do that! DO NOT FUCKING DO THAT! You will fuck up everything and dwell in sadness and regret if you do that!”

2/22/2015 1 comment

OH..I GET IT! ^_^ no one reads posts anyway….atleast not mine.

by Khaliladivine28 2/16/2015

written by Khaliladivine28

so i didnt sleep last night
and i feel kinda energized
manic again i guess
talked to my friend online from egypt all morning
she’s fine she said just a agruement with her guy i heard
sounded more like fighting to me
but whatever.
i’m sure whenever i lay down and be still i’ll go to sleep
however i dont really feel like it.
i am curious about how long i can stay awake now
everytime i sleep i have wonderful sometimes scary dreams
i wish i could stay asleep for….ever though
but i guess being awake is a high too.

2/16/2015 1 comment

Fiction

by HereticBlood 2/14/2015

written by HereticBlood

Days are exhausting and nights drag on.. You haunt my mind and lerk in my memory. I can never seem to get you to leave. As hard as I try to wish you away i know you’ll always be haunting me.. Broken and numb empty to the core

2/14/2015 1 comment

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