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My First Post

by Jodytexas 9/1/2014

written by Jodytexas

Well, I just bought two 8.9 cu3 party time tanks, tubing and some old O2 lines. I intend to put it all together tonight and give it a try. I believe that I can make it work. I have no one to say good bye too. If anyone out there wouldn’t mind I sure would like to say goodbye to someone. God I am so depressed about this. Itht really is harder then you would think. Going that last bit seems much harder then I anticipated. I am going to do it though, even if I have to cry myself through it. Well, thanks for letting me wine a […]

9/1/2014 2 comments

So lonely and tired

by confusedandalone 9/1/2014

written by confusedandalone

In the last week my amazing job has stopped being amazing. I moved stores to help this store achieve success, I was told id be stepping on toes but in time it would dissipate. Now it seems the person who feels threatened by me has put in a complaint, unsure of the nature I asked and was told I couldn’t be told and that a note would be placed in my file. I’m not allowed to face my accuser or defend myself, it doesn’t make sense. Considering I was aware when I took the position that it would be hard for the older staff member […]

9/1/2014 1 comment

anxious… helpless:(

by lovemyshihtzu 8/31/2014

written by lovemyshihtzu

me and Ryan kinda jumped into things very fast. He moved in with me after two weeks, but we were happy as can be. I was always weary that he was lying to me, because that’s just what I’ve always been used to. But everything he said always added up. He was extremely supportive of everything, including my mental illnesses. we were in everything together. Ryan comes from a very rough child hood. Him & his siblings were taken away from his parents when I believe he was three. He found his mom when he was 18, and moved in with her. I actually met […]

8/31/2014 0 comment

I’m Not Very Intelligent

by TwistedSpace 8/30/2014

written by TwistedSpace

I wish I was a Blonde, that way I’d have something to match my stupidity down to a tee. I feel that people wouldn’t expect as much from me if they saw I was Blonde. I also wish I was a trust fund baby who didn’t need to work a day in her life. I wouldn’t mind taking shit for it, because I’d be too rich to care. People say I can be pretty smart, but I don’t see it. My grammar sucks; I don’t know a thing about it, honestly. I just repeat what I see from reading. And about reading, it takes me […]

8/30/2014 6 comments

Who I am

by empty13 8/30/2014

written by empty13

Hi, I’ve never posted on a site like this before about how Im feeling or doing with things. Idk if anyone will read my crap on here or not. Doesnt really matter. I feel empty inside. I have no energy, no strength, no anything to do anything. I force myself to go to work. When I’m there, I’m better, but i’ve been getting worse lately. Ive had to hold my stomach throughout the day because I hurt so much. My emotional pain has become physical. Dunno where to start. how bout, I have always had depression and suicide as a way side thought. Moved to […]

8/30/2014 3 comments

Superfluous Sunrise

by pondersaurus 8/29/2014

written by pondersaurus

You label me as high functioning. Apparently that is my anchor. The fact I can go to work and attend university. That I present a facade of normality that rivals that of any you have ever seen. I assume, in the way it is delivered, that it is meant to be a compliment. That it manifests in some super human strength to carry on living while I am already dead. The reality is much less glamorous. I spend my work days pretending to bother myself with their petty and inconsequential issues, generally a result of their own stupidity. Then I go to school, and expend […]

8/29/2014 0 comment

Is it time?

by No_more_pain 8/29/2014

written by No_more_pain

Most of you don’t know me, because I’ve usually been pretty quiet here. I’ve read a lot of posts over the years here, however. A precious few of them have even made me feel better, for a time. Thanks to this site and those people who have posted here for making me feel better, if only for a little while.

I’m thinking about bringing things to a close this weekend. I don’t want to back myself into a corner by making it a firm decision, but I think it might be time.

I let it slip at work today that I might not be coming into work […]

8/29/2014 16 comments

I don’t know where else to turn.

by abbystarr95 8/29/2014

written by abbystarr95

It seems to me like suicide is my only way out. Everything started going down hill when I graduated from high school 3 months ago. I moved into my own apartment. My parents have never been supportive and were abusive. I was going to college to get my nursing degree. I was determined to work and go to school full time. Over the past month, I have lost everything except the roof over my head. I’m working myself to death rolling burritos at Taco Bell. I’ve lost most of my friends over the summer due to either me moving or them going to college. I […]

8/29/2014 5 comments

tonight

by lovemyshihtzu 8/27/2014

written by lovemyshihtzu

I’m planning on it. girl at work gave me whole bottle of caffeine pills. didn’t know I’m suicidal. stole some vodka from my dad’s liquor cabinet. tied noose…. I’m so done.

8/27/2014 12 comments

smoking and drinkin

by naturman 8/26/2014

written by naturman

every time my family talk behind my back,it realy hurt so much,

for a long time even now my famil help me,they support me to….

everyone tinks they are lovely,so do i,i can never except that they have talk behind my back… I cannot let them go..

i used to be a huge cheater,i am a big disgrace,i have had sex with many women,many relationship in my 50 pluss year…of my life,,, i have 3 children,my youngest is 16,

my ex wife an i raised our kids for many years,she wouldn’t give me sex anymore,one day i get angry at her, she takes the kids,but i still get […]

8/26/2014 2 comments

nothing left to accomplish

by tphg 8/25/2014

written by tphg

I’m a 28 year old Canadian male and drawing a blank on what to do with the rest of my life. I have a high school diploma, full-time job with 8 years of experience(sorting mail and making photocopies), perfect sized apartment in an upscale neighborhood and got a bargain on rent price, no women/children/pets/infirmed family to worry about except for my 14 year old brother who I tutor 3 times a week. My friends all live within 20 minutes and I see them 3-4 times a month.

I can’t think of anything else that I want, so why bother going on? I could get a girlfriend, […]

8/25/2014 3 comments

Still Alive Today Unfortunately

by boots95843 8/21/2014

written by boots95843

God, Please help me! I want to leave this life and its hardships and burdens. I have planned and stopped many times and think about killing myself every day. I wrote my notes and instructions yesterday. Today I am trying to have new hope and do something to not give in to the end of me. I am 68 years old and extremely depressed, financially bereft and hate my life. I do not want to hurt my children and siblings, but life is so hopeless. I feel humiliated and worthless. I cannot find work and my husband will not help. We lost our home and […]

8/21/2014 4 comments

I’ve had enough.

by sixgunz 8/18/2014

written by sixgunz

I’ve just seen this site and registered as I know it’s somewhere no one who knows me would look.

I have battled with depression for a really long time now. I did have a couple of years of respite, but over the last 5 years, it’s becoming more difficult to manage.

Pretty much everyone I know knows I suffer from depression but just recently and up to this day I have kept to what degree from them. The last year or so has been especially difficult as I lost my father and my mother has become hostile towards me. She has always been protective and has frowned […]

8/18/2014 3 comments

sleep, as was

by heliumhood 8/17/2014

written by heliumhood

Even in sleep my mind is filled with thoughts that all come back to the same finality.

As I have been unable to work for almost 2 years, the old grey matter hasn’t been getting much of a work out, say for the odd long walk with my dog’s. There are some times several days where the 3 of us just stay in our own little ‘nest’, only surfacing about 20 minutes before my other half arrives home, and painting on that smile that says everything is ok.

Then it’s a few cans of lager, my sleeping meds, and a few blessed hours of rest. This time […]

8/17/2014 2 comments

So Fucking Done

by teardownthewall 8/16/2014

written by teardownthewall

I’m so fucking done with this household and this “family”. I’m tired of being taken advantage of, of being the only one that works, the only one that keeps the fucking lights on, the only one that carries the fucking world on their shoulders and is still expected to do everything. I haven’t even gotten the chance to sleep today, fuck I’ve only gotten four hours to carry me the last 24 hours! But no, they still need me to do more and run all their god damn errands and run their welfare asses around like I’m their god damn taxi driver. They can all […]

8/16/2014 4 comments

Poem

by apple21 8/15/2014

written by apple21

The darkness is death – we can speak, but we are not heard. We can scream but they turn their backs. We can run, but we cannot catch them. It is the dream where arms and legs won’t work they way they should, and the air is too thick to breathe. Loved ones walk a mile ahead, forgetting to stop as we fall behind. This is the reality of the darkness. We are buried alive inside ourselves. ”
– Dana-Christene Umanetz

8/15/2014 1 comment

The eve before the big event.

by All But Over Now 8/15/2014

written by All But Over Now

Today felt different. Not really a good or bad different. I went to work today as I had been out the last few days due to the fact I was not mentally able to go. Today was just a strange day. I did my normal routines, handled my normal business. I spoke very little. A couple co-workers told me I was a “bit off” today. They asked if everything was alright. I assured them everything was fine – from my perspective anyways.

The ride home from work was different too. The sun was well past its zenith, the shadows were long, a light breeze in the […]

8/15/2014 15 comments

I just can’t

by crazycatlady 8/15/2014

written by crazycatlady

I had my daughter when I was 21, and her dad left when she was three. From then on, it was just her and me. Over the years, as she got older, she and I became best friends, and I sort of just let my other relationships die. It was easier. I’m awkward, and relationships aren’t easy for me. With her, it was. I feel like I kind of grew up with her…well, as much as I’ve grown up. We had a lot of fun. She was this bright light in my otherwise very dark life.

Last summer, I met this guy. He was younger than […]

8/15/2014 10 comments

Starving

by Engie 8/15/2014

written by Engie

Up to day five of starving myself with a bread roll for breakfast and a couple vegetables for dinner. I’ve lost around 1kg per day since I started. I’m taking stimulants during the day to keep my metabolism up and appetite down. I take sedatives at night so the hunger pains don’t keep me awake. I don’t have the energy to exercise like I did before and I find myself struggling a little bit at work in spite of the stimulants, but I’m a third of the way there. Only a couple more weeks, I should be able to shed 10 kgs if I […]

8/15/2014 4 comments

I think of my death on a daily basis, and it’s okay to me.

by depressednstressed 8/14/2014

written by depressednstressed

I’m 23 years old, and I’m the General Manager of a brand new business my father has opened. This is his first and only business he has ever opened and he has been dreaming about it for a very long time. I am the only one in this family with experience in this industry of business that my father has just opened. So obviously, everything falls to me when it comes to this business. I work 15 hours a day, if I’m lucky and it’s slow I’ll work 12-14 hours. I get 1 day off a week to see my boyfriend. Without going into too […]

8/14/2014 3 comments

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