I’ve never felt this lost before… I used to be very happy and relaxed, everything would always workout the way I wanted to but now I grew up and I just feel disgusted with myself and everyone around me, I feel lonely. I want to die now, and I know it isn’t right to take away your own life when there’s so many people fighting for their lives but I don’t know what else to do… I keep giving me my friend hints and in my mind is so obvious but he doesn’t get it because he’s not getting me help. I feel like all […]
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Hello, thank you for taking your time reading my story, just to list some information. Im Norwegian, im 17 years, I am not kidding about my story. so lets begin…
from when i was 13 i started to think: do anyone actually care when im gone? I was thinking ALOT and i’m pretty sure my thoughts where much more serious than other kids on my age back then. How is life after death? Who would cry when im gone? Who would even care? questions remain without answers.
Later on in my life, i got many false friends, actually no real friends.. BUT i’d just carry on, i was sad, […]
Hi,
I am new to this sight, but wanted to share just a bit to those who are considering suicide. As a bit of background, I am a nearly 60 woman with 4 grown kids and 3 grandkids, married to the same man for over 40 years, upper middle class, fairly attractive, intelligent, witty, talented and loved. But last year all hell broke lose…..
My first time in the hospital was in Dec 2011, I self checked in because I had become obsessive about suicide and was tempting fate with pills, a loaded gun, knife to wrist and other dangerous and fatal things and ideas. I didn’t REALLY want […]
i am only 20 pounds overweight at 6’8. i have really high cholesterol though. I’m in college now and i workout for 3.5 hours on average everyday and a lot more on the weekends. so Why in the fucking hell can’t i stop sweating when i walk to class on a 5min walk. Girls come up and flirt with me all the time and I’m always sweating. like its so fucking annoying. help
Well it wasn’t until about a couple months ago that I found  out I had Asperger’s autism. In some ways it doesn’t bother me, in fact I like knowing so I can get help but on the other hand now that I know that changes some ways I see life. I was told that I might never be able to drive a car because of my lack of a sense of direction. Now I have always been afraid of the idea of me driving. To many risks. I know now that I can relearn things but even with years of therapy and being included in many social gathers […]
I feel really abandoned. This is related to events occurring months ago, but I feel a resurgence of the emotional pain. All my friends from college save two stopped talking to me about a month or so after I graduated in December. When friends leave I usually let that happen because I know friends come and go; however, I’m twenty-three with no current future plans, so these friends were my only social network. And they just stopped communicating with me. They moved on, so I can’t blame them specifically, yet it still doesn’t change the fact that I’m upset and alone. I’m really well-meaning, and […]
I have seen a counselor twice because of my self harm issues but I stopped going to the counselor because I didn’t ever like going. Looking back on the times that I was there and the discussions we had I realized that I wasn’t entirely honest with her. When I would talk to her I could tell by the way she looked at me that she thought I was dumb. I am one of those people who have parents still together, I have a home, I have dinner on my table, and I’m pretty. You may think with all of that, how can a person […]
The tiniest things can make people happy… so I decided to make a list of some of the things that make me happy. The list could go on forever, but I have school tomorrow and don’t have time for that 🙂
Things that make me happy:
-Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Bubbles in pizza crust
-Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Making others smile
-Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Baking
-Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Loose Pants
-Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Running in the rain
-Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â The smell and feel of clean sheets
-         Listening to the “I love you†of people on the phone with their parents or spouse.
-Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Running into the exact person you needed to see, just because they remind you not to give up.
-Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â The feeling of the sun […]
No one knows how badly I wish I could be normal. I wish I didn’t have trouble with bullies. I wish everyone treated me the way I treat them. I am a very nice girl, probably the nicest you’ll ever meet. But all people see is someone who is different. Someone who sticks out because they aren’t skinny. I’m intelligent. A straight A student. I am nice to everyone, even people who bully me. I put others before myself and I hide my pain behind a smile. And these are the thoughts I have:
Just one more cut. It’s not like anyone notices.
If I died, who […]
I’ve been reading articles from this website for a few weeks now and thought i should right something for people to read. I found out about this site when i was researching ways i could kill myself and found an article about exit bags. I suffer from major depression and i don’t wish to live any longer at least in my current situation. Its not that i always feel sad most of time i don’t feel much almost like i’m not here kinda of a lifeless feeling. I’m never really happy and I don’t see the point of living. I kept myself going by thinking when i’m 18 i can move somewhere else where i can be […]
Well I talked with my ex today, a very heavy conversation… one that (sadly) but also good i guess if the ideal situation is achieved after this point, saved me from myself today. While I didn’t really push or care what her response was, she randomly threw me a bone, the very chance I wished came a lot earlier. Minimal contact for 2 months, and at the end, we will reconvene with different perspectives on where to go from there, i am feeling this is a 50/50 chance right now that it does come with the results i wish. While I am also hating that […]