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A New Drowning!!!

by RealTalk30 7/8/2014

written by RealTalk30

There is no point in floating away from this. I want to drown in this feeling. Swirling and turning my whole world upside down and throughout the insides of my soul. To the depths of this ever so sweet suffocating embrace.
Far off from the dust of the earth surface, where kings have failed but still fall back in place.
Down in my luck, to the tide sweeping love beneath my feet. Low in behold, below fire and smoke. Bringing this all to a close…
Too cold to move on
And too sweet to hold!

Keep me drowning….please? I beg for it if you’d be […]

7/8/2014 6 comments

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by WiltingFlowers 7/8/2014

written by WiltingFlowers

Maybe the world is just a big mess,
full of pointless people doing pointless things,
but I know this is a world I want to be part of.
I want to hear the rain tapping against my window,
like a well meaning person trying to get in,
but in this world the well meaning people don’t get in,
it’s always the scum that earn the trust,
‘Nice guys finish last’ they say,
but fail to see how true it is,
because I may not be nice to everyone and anyone,
but I am nice to the people who need it,
and maybe I will finish […]

7/8/2014 0 comment

Internet Addiction

by NoJustice 7/8/2014

written by NoJustice

So, I’m sitting here wondering about life, and one of the things I’ve noticed is that the Internet has been the only constant in it for a very large chunk of time now. The Internet is there for me when I’m sad, happy, mad, bored, fill in the blank. Nothing else in this world brings me the amount of joy the internet brings me. Not people, not drugs, not alcohol, not sex, nothing at all can compare to the wonders of the internet.

I recently found out that my internet has a cap. Because I reached it. With that, my internet provider makes you pay […]

7/8/2014 3 comments

I learned it from you

by DarkAngel21 7/8/2014

written by DarkAngel21

You asked if I ate

I nodded hiding the truth

You asked if I cut

I shook my head hiding the truth

You asked if im happy

I nodded hiding the truth

You asked if I was crying

I shook my head hiding the truth

You never see my world of lies

You wonder who I learned it from?

It was you

You lie

I lie

Its a world of lies

No truth within

7/8/2014 0 comment

You Promised

by DarkAngel21 7/7/2014

written by DarkAngel21

You Promised you would stay

You lied

You Promised you loved me

You lied

You Promised you wouldn’t judge

You lied

You Promised you would be here

you lied

Now im alone in a world of lies

7/7/2014 5 comments

Scared & Confused

by sad girl 7/7/2014

written by sad girl

I started cutting a couple of months ago & I really think I don’t matter on this world. But if I try to commit suicide & I fail WHAT WOULD HAPPEN? I’m scared of fail.. In the other hand I think I need help. So, I don’t know what to do.

7/7/2014 4 comments

If you ain’t got it, work harder?

by justtheoneintheback 7/1/2014

written by justtheoneintheback

Growing up i believed that if i didn’t have enough i could work harder
if i wasn’t smart enough i could work harder
if i wasn’t pretty enough …work harder
if i wasn’t talented, i just had to work harder

When i was younger i believed that if i work hard enough my effort would pay off, that makes sense. But this world isn’t about making sense, instead of being awarded for my effort i had to confront reality.

Working hard is tiring and all those who have intelligence, looks, and talent who never had to work as hard don’t know how it feels to try so […]

7/1/2014 2 comments

Read

by everythingmakesmesick 7/1/2014

written by everythingmakesmesick

Everything disgusts me. I try to be like everybody else but I’m not. I constantly feel disconnected and lonely and sad, if I hear about abuse in third OR first world countries I feel sick inside out. Racism, Homophobia, inequality of wealth, torture, rape, misogyny, death, illness, makes me shudder inside out. The fact we are brought into a boring world where nothing is fun and we get old and deteriorate, and bullied for always being ugly and never good enough DESTROYS me.

I never got over that I was raped and sexually assaulted more than once by different people, or this abortion I had where […]

7/1/2014 2 comments

Any tips?

by bluerabbitheart 7/1/2014

written by bluerabbitheart

I want to die right now. I had some sort of a plan, but now I’m extremely close to just trying the first method that comes to mind instead, and forgetting everything about what I originally planned. I don’t know how to cope with everything anymore, so I’m close to trying to leave this world without taking care of the things I need to first. No matter where I am or what I do, these thoughts are with me more or less constantly, and I don’t know what to do in order to be able to hang on anymore. Needless to say, I shouldn’t do […]

7/1/2014 21 comments

38 Days to Go

by Counting Down the Years 7/1/2014

written by Counting Down the Years

My heart is breaking for my daughter. She has no idea how her world is about to change in a few weeks. Please pray for her.

7/1/2014 16 comments

hello everyone

by Carter 6/23/2014

written by Carter

Hello, my name is Carter. I’ve just joined SP but I have been visiting it almost daily just reading for about 4 months now…Well I will be 19 in august I have been suicidal for roughly 2 years now, I wrote the following note may 13, 2014. At this point in time I haven’t chosen a date or how I’m going to do it. I am posting the note now because it best describes my emotions.

Life takes to much effort , but death is to much work. Without doing anything life is my choice but it makes for a sad existence, at least with death […]

6/23/2014 2 comments

Hitting rock bottom once again

by Martinez1023 6/22/2014

written by Martinez1023

Im strung out on coke and weed. And all I can think of is that one day when I survived. I think about it everyday and wonder what I did wrong to have to survive in this world. I literally have everything yet I feel like I have nothing. I just want the pain to go away.

6/22/2014 0 comment

Welcome to hell

by DeathDreamer 6/21/2014

written by DeathDreamer

Sick of people telling me there will be monsters and deep dark caverns of doom if I kill myself. That’s a pile of horseshit. Not a single one of you know what happens after death and I don’t give a fuck for any opinions based on nothing but your own twisted imaginations. You think there is nothingness? Good for you. You might be in for a surprise.

Off anti-psychotics, I can see things clearly. Life is a never-ending circle of betrayal, shallow people, and morons complaining about ‘oh today I got a bad grade or he/she doesn’t like me.’ Get over yourself. There are people with […]

6/21/2014 20 comments

A Whole New World

by Samantha 6/18/2014

written by Samantha

I dream of a world where people can just try to understand each other, rather than judge them for their problems. A world where no one is criticized for who they are and what they love. Unfortunately, a world of peace doesn’t exist.
I dream that I am on my own planet, where there is no misery, violence, hatred or discrimination, with only my closest friends, family members, animals and people who get me. Like I said… I dream. If only dreams could come true for those of us […]

6/18/2014 24 comments

is there anyone here who…

by paingoaway 6/18/2014

written by paingoaway

…thinks the next world will be better than this one?

6/18/2014 1 comment

The World for Invisibles

by Angelily 6/17/2014

written by Angelily

There used to be a world for us.
A place to go after paying a monthly tribute.
A place where we could be and do what we want.

Where the struggles and injustices of the day just flow away.
And you can finally just relax and have fun.

But that world is dying; much like that thing you call your life.
That thing where you receive blessings of many blobs of insecurities that in turn spout out more insecurities.

Until finally an ocean is created and those who don’t fit the norm are left on the shore to be labeled as defective.
Marked with names that crash into […]

6/17/2014 0 comment

I never want to hurt her

by i miss you 6/15/2014

written by i miss you

If I could do it and not hurt her, I think I would be gone. I wish I could do it and her not think it’s her fault. I wish she knew that I did it because I am the worthless one who is trying to save her from anymore pain. She is my sunshine. With out her my world is very dark.

6/15/2014 2 comments

It’s finally (almost) time.

by mossyzinc 6/14/2014

written by mossyzinc

I’ve chosen October 12, 2014.

One hundred and nineteen days, or: a little under four months to live,Â reconcile myself with the prospect of oblivion, attempt to say goodbyes. I won’t pretend that I’m not afraid of what comes (or, rather, whatÂ doesn’tÂ come) after this world, but my desire to dieÂ is far stronger than my fear of the unknown.

I’ve even found a peaceful, painless way. There’s no gory aftermath to contend with. I would like to minimize, as realistically as possible, the casualties of an acquaintance’s suicide.

I don’t know about the afterlife, differential calculus, or interstellar space, but I know that this much is true: Some people were […]

6/14/2014 3 comments

Soon I will be done with the troubles of this world…

by Brokengirl79 6/11/2014

written by Brokengirl79

I’ve always liked that song. My time here on earth is almost up. I have only a few items that remain on my checklist. Throughout this process the only regrets I have is never being in love, never having a child of my own, and not being around to see my nieces and nephews grow up. I’m not afraid of dying. I thought I would be but I realized that fear was based on religious beliefs and on the uncertainty of whether I would be successful in my suicide attempt. I’ve decided not to fret about either what is meant to be will be. I […]

6/11/2014 7 comments

My Last Words

by YouKnowWho2 6/10/2014

written by YouKnowWho2

I am a 19-year old woman that has struggled with severe depression, anxiety, and eating disorders for the better part of my life.

All my life I needed to feel like someone needed me. Of course no one hasn’t; I’m a flaw in every way imaginable. I hurt people I love without intention and I never forgave myself for it. I just wanted someone to notice something wrong but nobody ever did. I didn’t mean for everything to come this far.

The man I love once told me that suicide is one of the most selfish acts one can committ. Its true. Suicide is an awful thing, […]

6/10/2014 5 comments

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