I went to college and did well despite being bipolar. I studied hard. Just to find out i cant get a decent job, or hold it down. Im now a loser. im going to die soon. no help is coming. suicide is my only option. my only option. my only option. i cant live with this shame anymore.
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I used to feel the same way. I knew I was going to die. I knew I had to kill myself. There was no hope for me. visions of jumping off the freeways filled my mind. Over and over and over the same scenario would play in my mind. I was going to die. no doubt about it. I was going to have to do it. I was going to have to kill myself. No one else could possibly understand it. I was going to die. No, you don’t understand it. I was going to die! and that was five years ago.
Gradually, those feelings left me and now I want to live. It didn’t happen overnight. It took a long time. Just take it day by day, hour by hour. Just get through the next hour. Don’t give up. I thought nothing would change, but it did. Opportunities come up. Doors will open. I listen to Tom Leykis for encouragement. Call him on Fridays for wide open phones hour. He’s free at http://www.blowmeuptom.com Also, check out http://www.jw.org for good articles dealing with everything. want to understand why the world is so screwed up? Download the free book there, “What Does The Bible REALLY Teach”.
No need to feel shame for being mired in the misery of life. It’s not your fault. I do understand wanting to get out of it. There has to be a better place than here, even though Nature on Earth is quite beautiful at times.
So it would seem that what they told you you were “supposed to do,” ended up being wrong, eh?
Maybe it’s time to shift gears into figuring out for yourself, what you’re really supposed to do. And i do realize that’s not easy. At least, not the application of it. It is kinda easy to figure out the fundamental foundational parts, but applying what is easy to figure out, to the real world, is often difficult to do.
Tom Leykis just read my post live ‘on the air’.
I’m honored.
And I called in to tell him it was my post he was reading from.
Call Tom now for help.
Call his Suicide Hotline at 901-300-0866
That’s 901-3000TOM
Tom Leykis is cool – I like him. But he’s a fat radio talk personality you shouldn’t take seriously or base life decisions off of.
Honestly – you’re gonna live your life based off of what some fat ass on the FM says?
Pfftt. (Fuck that).
I think that this idea of how to be a productive member of society ,and the criteria that must be met before you make it,is seriously responsible for a lot of misery.You HAVE to get the best grades,go to college for a degree in a field you may not even WANT to spend your lifetime doing,work a lot,get nice shit,the right cars,clothes,pets…get married,have kids..this recipe does not make everyone happy.Its crippling to many.I think a LOT of people are walking around killing the pain of a life chosen by society,and not by themselves .They dont get to follow their heart..Its a soul crusher for some-doing what theyre “supposed” to do. This time could be a real turning point in your life,if it sort of forces you to reconsider how you really want to spend your life ..Your description of what you have accomplished,tells me that you achieve what you put your energy into-you are an intelligent person, clearly. I think its an opportunity for you to break from the cookie cutter existence deemed “the right way”….and do something exceptional
Sometimes I look in e toilet once I’m done and think “that was a solid effort”. That’s the best you’re goona get, world. Then I wash my hands n walk away.
That’s all you can do.