I just want

Remaining trapped because of the misconceptions of others is preposterous. Fear is a tool used to control. People need to be able to make the distinction between respect for an establishment (governmental or otherwise), and terror reserved for the “consequences” of not following/obeying whatever sect is in question. I don’t doubt that the same people that have left you terrified of death in this way have had something to do with driving you to where you are now in the first place.

These kinds of people form their beliefs structures in a way where you can’t technically ever prove them wrong, I mean, after all, “the absence of evidence is not the evidence of absence.”

I hope you have the strength to remain unafraid, even if you do mean to end your life..