I hate it i can’t even come to this site without being reminded of my disgusting irrelevance. I want to die more than anyone can want anything. I hate that i have preserved my miserable meaningless existence out of fear and false hope. I I’ve posted literally hundreds of posts under multiple names and if i wasn’t so horrifically hideous it wouldn’t have happened. Of all the horrible things that have happened to me being ugly is by far the worst. Everything else passes the ugliness stays. I lose weight the ugliness stays? I put the best effort i have in living time and time again and it doesn’t matter because I’m ugly and old and stupid. The youth i never had is over. Im 13 months away from the ultimate date. I wish i could end it now.
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Im proud of you for putting effort into living. Thats really hard.
Someone told me the other day that you see yourself differently than how others see you. Maybe you arent ugly like you think.
All love.
Yesterday, I was walking in the sidewalk (The first time I was outside after 7 months without leaving my bedroom) and I heard two guys make fun of me (because I am awfully thin).
I can swear this is the biggest cruelty that someone can do for another person. I almost cry. My only desire at that moment was just desapear, desapear of the world, die, lie on the floor and shrink until desapear. This feeling was mixed with anger, rage of cruel people. Why do people like that? I do not judge anyone by their appearance.
I know exactly how you feel, friend. I would like to have some motivational speech, but unfortunately I have not.
I want you to get over it. You have many qualities and these qualities define who you are and not your appearance.
Hi
I totally understand the difficulties you are in because of ugliness.
People are cruel to those who do not fit TV standards. It’s pathetic judge the others by appearance.
Watch a video called “on being ugly” on youtube. It’s excellent what the girls says there.
I usually was good looking but now I am getting older&fatter and people are becoming very cruel to me too because I do not fit the standard.
Each time you remind people about reality through your appearance (life, death, sadness, ugliness, suffering, disabilities, too thin, too fat, different appearance, etc) they get bothered and fight back being aggressive to us.
Criticize appearance is an idiot mechanism of our culture to do not accept death (ageing, reality, changes)
I am thinking about doing some plastic surgeries to shut up the idiots.
But then I remember I am suicidal and I will keep ageing if I am here for more time so surgeries would solve the problem just for a short time.
But do a surgery if you want or can. IF and only IF it would make you more confident. We should use the resources we can to feel good.
Watch the video “on being ugly” and friends also help a lot. Good luck!
Thanks man. I think you shoudn’t do plastic surgery. there will always be people criticizing our appearance no matter what. So, we have to accept that and move on.
But I know its really hard. It hurts me deeply when I hear and saw mean comments
I’m not gettin plastic surgery. Especially because my main issue is my physiques lumpiness. Also ive posted that video before it’s nice but doesnt truly help. The truth is you can’t live a normal life if you are ugly. You can’t have relationships or friendships if all you have ever been is ugly. It’s not just looks per se its developing with mistreatment as normalcy. And im near 30 with not a soul in the world im close to floating through life waiting to die.