For your poems.
Pulls you close holds you nearÂ
You say I have nothing to fear
Oh how I wish it was true my dear
For your poems.
Pulls you close holds you nearÂ
You say I have nothing to fear
Oh how I wish it was true my dear
How many nights do I dream of suicide?
As many mornings as I awake wishing I’d actually died.
How many scars have you cut into my arm?
As many promises you’ve made protecting me from harm.
How many of my thoughts are bitter and hateful?
As many of your words accuse me of being ungrateful.
How many breakdowns have I suffered since last spring?
As many lonely hours were spent just remembering.
How many tissues have I gone through recently?
As many working eyes there are that aren’t blind but don’t see.
How many tears shed feel so alone?
As many times as eleven has stolen my phone.
How many days do I dream of ending it […]
I want to die.
I’m tired of trying.
I’m sick of living,
I’m done with lying.
I want to die.
I’m constantly pretending.
I’m exhausted from sobbing,
I’m awaiting the ending.
I want to die.
I’m losing control.
I’m screaming for help,
I’m stuck in this hole.
I want to die.
I’m breaking the skin.
I’m seeing the dark,
I’m letting them win.
I want to die.
I’m all alone.
I’m under the covers,
I’m cold to the bone.
I want to die.
I’m dreaming of death.
I’m lost in the crowd,
I’m despising each breath.
I want to die.
I’m cowering in fear.
I’m dismissing hope,
I’m hiding every tear.
I want to die.
I’m ready to run.
I’m filling the tub,
I’m absolutely done.
I want to die.
I’m wasting away.
I’m choking myself,
I’m tired of today.
I am married currently but my wife is one of the main reasons im so depressed. I am extremely unhappy with her i just dont want to hurt her im not good at hurting people but i need out of the relationship its the best thing for me. Please help me idk what to do or what to say to her
Two Japanese movies concerning life and death.
Suicide Club just covers a general ideas and people and Noriko’s Dinner Table gets deeper into the ideas and mainly covers a family. At first it seemed like a totally new approach but within a short time I figured out it was just a new expression of old ideas.
It was rather interesting to me for purely entertainment value as well because I own quite a few Japanese/Korean/Chinese horror/suspense movies and am used to the flow of it. May wierd some people out but if you are in the mood for something different and you have never viewed this genre, try […]
Mainly again to the youth because their stories are just so harsh. And they usually can do nothing but be victimized because they are not old enough to legally leave, not able to sustain themselves, or the authority personnel will not or cannot help them.
Which means their lives consist of what others do to them. And they have no recourse except to just sit there and take it. Even through their efforts of trying to escape or get the situation handled better.
The reason I am aiming at the kids is that many of us adults have caused our own problems. That does not exempt us […]
Before attempting suicide, give yourself a month to do everything you want, no matter what people say. If everything fails, who cares? You were going to die anyway, so have some fun before it happens.
Here goes a silly song but truly inspirational. I’m just doing it, and hell, things are changing indeed!
“Small, simple, safe price
Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets
This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals
And i am not afraid to die
Im not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight.
I want the pain of payment
Whats left, but a section of pigmy size cuts
Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks
Would you be my little cut?
Would you be my thousand fucks?
And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid
hey, guess what! i thought up some more!
AtTheEnd and those apples….
hippies
Woodstock
yum. tea.
popcorn
churros
chinese food
that feeling in the air after a nice storm of cleanliness and fresh beginnings
knowing y’all care
some nice lightning displays
those adorable couples who hug each other in public
my butterflies
singing in the rain
giving others hope
donating hair
tweeting #MyRaysOfSunshine for all to see! (y’all should join in! let’s make it a trending topic!)
receiving texts
emails, too!
oooo, and i LOVE getting letters in the mail!
that’s all for now, folks! y’all come back now, ya here?
Looking at my arm after i have a bad night like last night disgusts me. I hate what i have become.
Dear love,Â
I am very afraid of you and for you. You made me feel great when I was down. I wish to do the same for you. But you seem to be gone. I care about you, but you won’t give me a chance to be there for you. I am sad.Â
I am afraid of losing you, I am okay with you walking out on me. But i am not okay with you walking out on life. I don’t want to be the cause of your death. I don’t want you to leave. You are awesome and you are beautiful.
Just stay. Just stay with […]
Hi there, if you don’t kno what’s wrong and ur just hurting with no explanation, the explanation is you are having a depressive episode. This is a feeling exactly like uv described that can be caused by stress, low blood sugar, a traumatic event , dream, or memory, or a hormone imbalance. It is totes normal and the best ways I’ve found to survive an episode are to -eat something, anything you are able to eat is good. If the first thing you eat is sugary like juice or candy, follow it up with something more substantial like bread, meat, pasta, rice, etc. Drink lots […]
Idk why but for some reason evreything has gone horribly wrong tonight and I am contemplating attempting suicide again but this time i want it to work unlike my past attempts where i have obviously failed.
I cant seem to stop cutting i dont want to cut but i just feel like i need it. Its the only thing that calms me down and keeps me from doing something much worse but i dont wanna do it anymore i just dont know how.
The blood flows from my arms
You cry and tell my that I need to stop
You don’t understand.
This is what keeps me alive.
This proves I’m still human deep down.
This shows me I can still bleed, that I can still feel.
The razor is my best friend now.
He never judges.
He’s there when I need him.
He let’s me take my feelings out.
It’s not healthy it’s what makes you right.
This makes me right.
No matter how sick and twisted it sounds, its what keeps me sane.
If the price to pay is a little blood and […]
Im so glad i found this website. I dont know you people but you are all so supportive i wanna thank evreyone that has been helpful so far and now i finally feel like i have people that are supportive.
This isn’t really to do with my suicidal thoughts… I don’t know, maybe it is.
But this website seems to be the only place where people “understand” my poetry. My “art”.
This is a poem I wrote about a woman that I was in love with. That I still am in love with. To make a long story short, a couple of months back, she told me that she didn’t love me anymore. Just like that. I honestly believed that we were going to get married. And then she does this.
I can’t blame her, and I know it would be worse if she had […]
Would you look upon another man’s darkness, and tell him what he sees?
I would not.
Though I do understand your anger. Angry, I would be too, if years of hard yellows and laborious blues had been scratched out by an easy black.
An easy, fatal black.
Tomorrow shall be a positive day.
Tomorrow I shall rise at 6am to go running in the park.
Tomorrow I shall tidy my living area, even sweep away the dusts of time. The aching grains of sand.
Tomorrow I will not smoke any cigarettes, or play my guitar, for I worry that these objects will kill me. One […]
When you just don’t care enough to carry on
And every road looks like the wrong way
You feel like you’ve got nowhere to belong
And you can’t get out of bed to face the day
When you drive away the ones that love you most
And you’re left staring into the abyss
You feel that you’d prefer to be a ghost
Because you know that you will not be missed
Then I’ve been where you are, without a doubt
And the way that you feel, ain’t no tongue can tell
It’s a darkened room with no clear way out
You’ve made it to the other side […]
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